i feel for you. a lot of times i am sleepless but i don't have to perform and if i did i would probably start crying.
bobby

Dear Beth,

A.M.

I sleep in the morning for a few hours.

I call it "night." Sorry to be confusing.


M.

I'm going to call the pdoc
 

Hi,

I made a big mess.
Over the weekend, the affects of the extra Klonopin were ok for a day or so.

Today, that did not work out well.
I had 4 hours of sleep. Then around 11:45 am I took .5 as an experiment.


I was relaxed but still had chest pains off and on.
Also, I think I am grinding my teeth at night -- jaw feels off.


At 12:00 midnight a few minutes ago I took my usual dose (since November) of 2.0 because I am still hung over from the .5.


I'm done messing around with the Klonopin.
Work slows down in two weeks.
I will be able to get more sleep soon.


Pdoc's appt is July. I will call to make the an appt. sooner.


M.

Oh Mari, I wish it were so easy to fix, or make better. Like a diabetic checks their sugar level and takes insulin to adjust. Gosh maybe someday it will be like that.

I think of you all on here everyday, and when I am crashing at 5 am until 9 am, I know I am not alone...

Why can't the doc's just figure out a balance and a decent medication that is even keel. Kicks in the high test gas when we need it, and slows down to the low grade to let us have a sleep pattern.

Here I feel better when someone is awake, I feel most vulnerable at night? But yet was a cop pulling the mid nights and wishing for the action :rolleyes:

Feels like I can give in to sleep when the sun will soon be up, sucks for having energy though....a nap at supper time or 4 pm helps.

Hugs :hug:

Dear Di,

I think in my case that the weird sleeping is related to anxiety.
I love the night, but not for sleeping.
And I guess I am not the only one like that.

You are right. Maybe we could find some scientists researching this somewhere.

I hope you find ways to get more sleep in the daytime to make up for not sleeping at night.

=-=-=-

Once I did a cortisol 24 hour spit test.
The results were completely wacky: It was low when it should have been high. What a mess.
Probably, my other hormones are confused and not working at the right performance level.

=-=-=-=-

Be kind to yourself. :heartthrob: :circlelove: :heartthrob::circlelove: :heartthrob:
I have been learning to be kind -- others on this board have taught me.


M.

Wow scientifically, we are supposed to have levels of melatonin, the cortisol, and all the chemical balance in harmony.

I hope they can get the body on course and you can enjoy the summer.

I am off to do mindless activity to harvest my crops, feed my fish and serve the food from the cafe, not a FB addict, but it takes the heavy thoughts away....then I may sleep.
nitey nite,
di

:grouphug:I was into some facebook games, for some reason I am now just roaming
through at times.

Life just throws some differennt things in.

Donna

Dear Mari
 

i am glad you will be trying to get in to see pdoc. :hug::hug::hug:

i hope he will be able to help, in some way.

i want you to feel better.

~ waves ~

rethinking my job
 

Hi,

During the week I had chest pains and other stuff going on.

I am going to try to step down from some duties.
I'm not sure when I should let me team members know so that they can prepare to step up. I'm freeeking tired of being their leader. One of them can be the leader -- or not, I don't care anymore. It won't be I.

I don't know how to do it but I will meditate on it.
(don't laugh at me, but one of my main goals is to get serious about meditation. tdoc says to do 5 mins everyday. I'll start later today after I go to bed.)

Also tdoc will have insight on how to handle stepping down when I get around to seeing her next month.

I did walk on Sunday. Walking is good for me. It has always worked for me in the past.
I think I can do more of it now that I have some time opening up in my week.

M.

Any better?
 

Sorry that it has taken me so long to check in and see how you are doing!!! :o
How are the med things going? Are you still having problems with the klonopin dosage? How about the sleep and the anxiety, are they any better? Did you ever get a hold of your psych doc to see if you could get an earlier appt? Sorry for all the questions but I am concerned and am also trying to play catch up with what you are going through!:hug: I can say that I have also been in the situation where I have felt so overwhelmed I have taken more than my fair share of klonopin. It does seem to help but it only helped me for a little while. I had to see my nurse pract to help with some med changes. I hope everything works out well for you!! Please keep me posted!!

collinsc