I think if you had your sleep doctor write you a script for lessened work hours, that might work.
Your boss would not take for personal issues/challenges/problems as a response?
I am sorry that you are having to be put into this situation.
and this negative talk...you do have a life and you do make a huge difference in your students lives!!!!!!!!!

depressed and very tired

(((((Mari))))) & (((((Di)))))

My 2 friends I love....

I dont know if this helps in any way, but, let me tell you, you are wonderful... Im rooting from here for you, you can do it, I mean, you know you can be strong and beat stress because you are very kind, smart and, you deserve to be stress free.
For what I know about you, I dont think you have wasted your life... You are sweet, care about others, are always ready to help... I mean, to feel stressed and tired is not your (our) fault... it just strikes us... which sucks, BUT, we have to try to beat it...

"Unfortunately", for those of us who suffer with sleep disorders (I think i have slept deeply twice in my whole life), one way of feeling better is, sleeping !! Yep, everything in our (freaking) organism are cycles... we move one thing and everything turn to a mess...

So ! I wanted this message to be short and I can see it is turning to a long one, so, in resume:

1.- I LOVE you
2.- Give time to time, stress will go away... it has to !!!
3.- Watch your sleep... please please please, try to...
4.- You deserve the best of this freaking planet.
5.- Thinking about you.

What about coming out of the closet only as far as getting a doctor's note? As far as i know, diagnoses / medical reasons need not be disclosed. Can one of the doctors simply certify that you are not fit to do the weekend hours? Then the "rationale" remains between you and that doctor.

Do you think it is the heat... i know a gal who has blood pressure dips sometimes when it gets hot, or if she moves into an area that is warm. have you ever taken your bp when you get tired from sun like that?
You have done something - you do much for many, you mean a great deal to many people. But I too wish i had "done more" if that's what you mean. It really hurts to live with unfulfilled potential. Regardless if it was just where the chips fell, or due to bad choices. Perhaps we need to accept certain limitations? But you know, I don't feel right about redefining my potential - that would hurt too.

Sending you some hugs, Mari.

Can hubby make you something comforting to eat or drink? I hope you can get some good sleep later.

~ waves ~

HI,

I was in a bad way last night.
I thought I was losing it.
I did self talk until I fell sleep.
I'm frightened.
I had 4.5 hours of sleep and have to be at work.

I have been skipping appoints with the orthodontist. I just called. The first day that they and I have open is May 10.

I might have to get an MDs note. I've discussed this with two colleagues without telling them more than a little bit -- not much. Frankly, I'm upset that I did come out to them the little bit that I did. I'm disturbed that I had to reveal stuff to them. VERY UPSET.

One colleague tells me that our big boss should accept "personal medical problem" without a note. If she requires a note, then, according to him, she is showing how awful she is.

I have to meet with the big boss about some other issues entirely next week that are even more important to me than the outside event this weekend and I am freaking out about that. She has been supportive in the past but I am getting a different vibe from her now.

My immediate supervisor has us all screaming. She is truly awful.
Morale in my group is low. We have not been able to help each other the way we have in the past. From my group the supervisor has fired one and pushed another into retirement -- both of them this week. We are devastated by the losses.

M.

What a dreadful week and your boss sounds like a real witch. uh-oh my timer just went off (cooking) ... more thoughts in a little while.

for now good thoughts your way...



~ waves ~

oh it has been an awful week.
perhaps you could be worrying about your job security....
I would try to get md orders...to back up your personal needs to document your limitations.
sorry that you veel bad about sharing info about yourself...they should hold confidences and not spread you business.
Good luck with the next few weeks, it sounds very challenging.
anyway to go to the big boss or human resources and aren't there anti discrimination laws that could help you. You could also use the stroke as a medical excuse couldn't you?
((((HUGS)))
bizi

Hi,

The big boss told me to get a note from my doc and put it on file in HR.

I'm done thinking about that stupid Saturday event now.
(It starts at 8:00 am and goes for hours and hours in the sun!!!
I will be home sleeping. )

I feel better already.


M.