i am really worried about you. i don't know how old you are but you are far too young to have chest pains. in many religions meditation is very important. rabbi nachman says you should meditate two hours a day. i don't do it but i have lately been thinking of God's mercy. that is so great that you have been walking....reducing responsibility now sounds like such a fantastic idea ....why wait until you might breakdown. it sounds as if for a long time you are headed in the direction of taking care of yourself but there is so much repair to be done besides contending with ongoing bipolar
fondly
bobby

The semester should be winding down so that will help alot.
Taking better care of yourself does need to be your #1 priority.
I am glad that you are rethinking your job responcibilities...you have been leader for too long...it is time to turn over the baton.
I hate to hear of you havineg chest pains, have you ever had a stress test you know walk on a tred mill and they have you hooked up to a monitor.
There is also this very easy test they can run it is called a calcium heart screen. mini cat scan of your heart in instantly see if you have any blockages of your coranary arteries. well worth the $100 that is not covered under insurance. took 5 minutes and no pain.
I hope you are sleeping.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

tired sleepy anxious depressed

I am sorry you are feeling unwell.
((((HUGS))))
bizi
wish I could help you.

Hugs, and warm fuzzies.


Donna

i get chest pains when i have high anxiety and i'm thinking this might be the case for you too - i don't know if you know if that is going on. always a good idea to have other things ruled out though, if there is any uncertainty.

hang in there. i think it is great about the meditation. it would do me some good for sure. but i am terrible with stuff like that.

glad you are walking too. i found that when i used to run, well i had to focus very intently on breathing and rhythm - that would flood my mind and cleans out some of the free floating junk.

~ waves ~

Dear Bobby,

I used to get chest pains.
They are back.
Once about 6 years ago I was hospitalized for 24 hours while they did blood draws.
When I was hospitalized for the stroke last summer I was monitored electronically for 4 days (wires taped to all over it seemed).
During that time they ran good tests.
Heart is fine thank goodness -- although internist did ask me to see a cardiologist for a stress test (she sent me to her husband who is a cardio). I did not get around to making the call for the appt. -- I'm putting it off until I am awake in the day time.

Meditation, prayers, relaxation techniques . . . . I need to be doing something a long those lines.
Maybe I'll start with 20 minutes of mostly breathing on yoga DVD. First I have to clear the off the floor.

The little city park shares a property line with my complex (It's prob a three minute walk from my door. I only started using it about two months ago. It is nice and quiet because it does not have a parking lot -- only people within walking distance can go there. ) Going around once is .36 miles (it's spray painted on the walkway.)

I remember that walking saved my life years ago.
Maybe I can listen to music too. It can be meditative.
Right now I have no patience for it. And I'm not even sure where my radio is.
I listen to youtube but that is not close enough.

I'm full of complaints.


M.

Mari,
Do what you need to do!! If that is complaining to us than that is what we will listen to! I do think you are coming up with some great ideas though with the walking and the yoga meditation. I too am concerned about you having chest pain. Please make that appt today with the cardiologist. At least if he says you are fine that is one less thing for you to be stressed out about. I am sorry you are going through this stuff in your life!!!!

collinsc

Hello,
Thanks each of you for putting up with me.
When I am focused I am going to count the pills in my klonopin bottle and see how many days ago I prob started it.

I'm wondering if I have a weird batch.
My head feels kind of muddled.
I have a bottle waiting for me to pick up.
Maybe I could have pdoc call in and make sure the pharmacy gives me name brand instead of generic for this new bottle. Name brand will cost a fortune but I can give it a try.

But now I can't deal with all that.
Maybe I will see about it later tonight.

M.

I hope you are able to sleep today.
((((HUGS))))
bizi