http://www.radio-locator.com/cgi-bin...ate=FL&x=0&y=0

put in any city/state or zip that you want

Mari

I can feel the relieve in your voice. And I hope your team can now
help you get through this. I think they will be very good at it.

I believe they had a clue before, and just couldn't bring it up.

Donna

I am sure you do feel relieved.
good for you...that was brave of you.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Mari
Well you let the cat out of the bag, how do you feel about that? Just like Donna said, I also think your team will be more willing to help you now. I also feel the stress of you thinking they were going to find out is now gone and that too will help you. This is just my opinion, I do not know your team or you, but this is what I would guess would be the outcome. Moving on. How are you sleeping? How are things going with the klonopins? Try to get better!! I wish you the very best!

collinsc

Waves,
Thanks for the radio links.
I listened to one station.
I am going to find a few so I can skip back and forth between commercials.

M.

Mari

I don't know your parents. But I have a feeling its more because even
though you reassured them you are going to be okay. They still aren't
sure. And if they don't talk about it, it didn't happen.

I sometimes think thats how we all are. If we can push something
under the cover its not there.

I know that for a long time many people thought if they didn't talk
about Derrick's seizures. He didn't have any.
Especially my one sister. It was so bad, that her son who is my
son's age. Was the one that finally told her. He knew what to
do if Derrick had a seizure. So Derrick could go home with him.

My son has had seizures now for 12 years. My sister has finally
started accepting that he is going to continue having them.
Its taken almost 12 years. But she finally came around. But the
sad part is my son and my nephew would have gotten more years
together if she had come around a few years sooner.
See she had a hard time allowing my son to come over at all.

But thanks to my nephew she had to accept that he was coming.
Once he started driving, he just picked him up and took him over.

Donna

Dear Donna,

Thank you.

I sorry that you and Derrick had to put up with that.

M.

Mari

The point is it started to change how she saw my son.

It also seems to have changed how she sees some people who
have disablilities. She seems to have theses co-workers now
that need help. WHich I'm so glad she can finally get me to help.

Its something I enjoy and she knows that. I'm just glad she
has finally started to care.

Donna

i can see why it would be hard to share about the stroke with people... friends... colleagues when your family is scared of it and seemingly can't or doesn't want to deal.

it makes me sad that you felt like it was your fault. i understand how that can be though. how many times have i felt that depression was my fault... sigh.

i hope that nowadays you are able to hang on firmly to the knowledge that it is NOT IN ANY WAY your fault.

~ waves ~

Its a sad world when we start to think that the illnesses we have are our
faults. I am not sure what else I started to write. I can't believe
I started this about 30 minutes ago.

Donna