Hi,

I told pdoc
-anxiety
-agitation
-depression
-not sleeping.

He ask me for details. I said anxiety is anxiety. I said that agitation is having to sit in your waiting room and hold it together without making a scene or walking out. I told him that I was going to give him about 3 more seconds and then I was leaving. He said that he saw me and that is why he came to get me to come into his office.
I told him that I had slept less than 10 hours in the past 48 hours and that is part of a pattern.

He asked lots of questions related to hypo-mania. I said no no no.

Then I explained again that I have a psychological problem about going to bed. He wondered how a med could help a psychological problem. I said I am in bad shape and might take the med. I was obviously in bad shape -- jumpy as all get out.

We discussed the Lunesta he gave me two months ago and why I only took two pills --- still hung over 24 hours after taking the pill.

He said that Lexapro will help with anxiety. He gave me a month's worth of samples. I asked about Buspar for anxiety and he told me how Buspar works. He said we could go with Buspar. He thinks Lexapro is what I need now. I said fine. Then I jumped up to leave. It was a short session. I said thank you. Bye.
I asked his receptionist to write out the check for the co-pay. I told her I am too sleep deprived to do it. She took care of me.

He gave me regular release Ambien (which I had tried twice about 5 years ago.)

He wants to see me in 30 days.

I'm jacked up / jumpy right now -- not sure if it matters if I take Lexapro now or if I wait until Friday am. Maybe it is agitating initially. At any rate, I prefer to take a new med in the am.

Old meds
Klonopin 2.5 mg
Verapamil 240 mg
aspirin 325 mg

Meds he added today:
Lexapro 10 mg
Ambien -- I dropped it off. Did not notice dosage on 'script. Will pick up later at CVS after I go to sleep and wake up.

This Lexapro is new and might be a problem with my insurance company. For 30 days at least I have samples.

M.