Jen
We are here when you need us.

So just come and write when you can.

I use cymbalta for a anti-depressant and anxiety medication. Sorry I
don't know which category it serves in.

Donna

Hi,

today is the day I see my pdoc for new meds, at least hopefully he puts me on something for an anti-depressant...have been doing some research on a few of them. I have been on most of them anyways, and cymbalta was the one that worked the best for me, but it didn't work for very long and had to be increased and had to add other meds with it. I am thinking about Lexapro at this point or Celexa and seeing if he will add the trazadone for sleep and maybe change my anti-anxiety med...but thinking that is WAY TOO MUCH at one time so may take a few visits at least for the anxiety med. I know that my sleep specialist was supposed to send him a letter so hopefully he gets it and will do what she is asking of him.

I have gotten about 4 hours of sleep in 2 days and now it's 3:15 am and have been up for 5 hours. I try to sleep but can't, and probably cause just a lot of things going on. Today after my Therapy appointment my dad and I are going on a 2 day vacation and that will be nice to get away. My step-mom and the dog are driving me crazy, especially with having to move in 7 weeks and some of their fighting is getting to me too. I know they usually use the silent treatment with each other but woke up from a short nap the other day to louder than normal talk and asked dad if they were fighting he said yes, but hopefully he will be able to relax. My dad has high blood pressure and is also on lexapro, but his depression isn't as severe, but he still has it and I hate it when he is stressed cause you can feel it in the house.

The day I worked in the garage, Sunday, i ended up in the ER that night about 11:45 with the worst migraine i have ever had in my life. I was so scared that it was something other than a migraine cause the symptoms weren't the usual that I have when i get one. I haven't had a migraine since going off effexor in January and boy was i sick....i had to go in, i waited 11 hours before going into the hospital which i should have gone in sooner i know, but thought it was just something i could control at home. They gave me 2 shots one for nausea and the other for the pain....and they gave it to me in my arm...and i can hardly move it still today. It's worst then a tetnus shot.....lol. I was shaking so bad at one point they were wondering if was having a seizure but i was coherant enough to tell them was just in pain and freezing. I still am not feeling the best and have been having headaches on and off all day everyday since and before too, but not too bad. Oh well, hopefully will go away once I move, or may need to increase the depakote or something, not so sure right now...I know there is just a lot of stress.

Anyways, I am babbling cause am so sleep deprived again. I hope that going on this vacation will provide some relief in stress and help get some sleep...but am in the same room as my dad and he snores so loud it's not even funny...he has sleep apnea so bad, but of course won't do anything about it.

Take care everyone and thanks for listening to me go on and on.

Hugs,
Jen

Dear Jen

lexapro could be interesting for you - many folks find it sedating at least to begin with.

sorry about your ER experience there. i hope your pdoc has received the sleep doc's letter and is cooperative.

have a good time on the get-away with your dad.

~ waves ~

Jen

I have a suggestion for you. Since your having trouble sleeping anyway.
When you go in to the hospital for the pain of a migraine. Have them
do a EEG and see what kind of activity is going on in the brain. So
they can see if there is something going on.

I realize it sounds weird. But you can also sometimes have migraines
with a seizure. And it could also be a migraine or seizure aura.

Donna

Dear Jen,

You have a lot going on.
I hope that the and vacation go well.

Are you ever able to take naps?

M.

Hi everyone,

I had a pretty nice vacation. The first night there the lights went out cause of bad storms. 2 Tornadoes touched down 4 and 6 miles from where we were staying....and back here at home 2 had been spotted about 2 miles from here, lots of damage in near by towns but everyone ok. Was kinda glad to be home though...lots still to do before the move. Then Saturday night another round of severe weather...I hate storms to begin with, but this time i just didn't care. Too much going on to care about the weather if that makes sense.

I don't have therapy this week unless someone cancels so am trying to stay busy or at least keep mind occupied so i don't think, but not going so well, and the headaches are constant pretty much now. I really don't understand why I have been having them, at least a month now have had a headache a day, but for the last 2 weeks maybe a little less it's been a constant thing and than that migraine Sunday, and now it's Sunday and getting another one...just not nearly as bad. So, we'll see how long they keep going like this and if keep getting bad ones i will talk to my doc. They really stop you in your tracks when you want to do things...and it's so hard to fall asleep. It's been almost 4 hours since i took my meds and haven't been able to fall asleep yet.

Oh and Mari, I do take naps sometimes. I try and take a nap especially when really tired and have no energy, but lately they are hard to come by cause of all the things that have to do yet and this house is so tense right now I stay in my room almost all the time. My dad is so tense about the move and not knowing where they are going, and he is very negative in everything...probably where I get that from, but he acts so angry and he probably is...he has every right to be, just not at my step-mom and I.

Anyways, thanks for listening

Hugs,
Jen

Dear Jen,
I'm happy to hear that you had a good vacation. You were able to get away and enjoy yourself a bit for a little while.
Next you will be moving and it appears that you are emotionally ready to do that.

Yuck to the headaches. I send wellness vibes.

Regarding the weather: I find myself jumpier about rain or thunder than I used to be -- although even as a child I did find them a little unnerving -- I think I was an anxious child.
We don't get big tornadoes here but we get lots of little ones with the thunderstorms.

M.

I was able to enjoy myself for the most part. My dad was pretty ok while we were together, he seemed to relax a little...I understand the frustration he has and not knowing where they are going in 7 weeks is very hard...i totally understand that. I haven't been excepted yet into the place that I would like to be living, just a few things they are waiting for from references and things like that and will get a letter or a phone call with a yes or no.

I can go stay with my mom for little while, but that is last resort. If I can't move in when i need to I will be going to my mom's for a couple weeks and that I can handle, I just can't handle months out there, they live very far from town and I have no vehicle and cell phone reception isn't good there, plus they have dial-up which is good for them, but I took an hour one time for me to get on facebook and that's very frusterating, but will take what I can get at this point, i just so badly want a yes from this place.

Take care,
Jen

Dial Up!! Oh no!
That would be like living off the grid entirely -- might as well grow our own food too.


I hope you get the new place you want.
You'll feel settled soon. Maybe now you feel that you are in transition.
Transitions are hard for most folks so know that this is a trying time and try to take things easy on yourself.

M.

Funny that you say they might as well grow their own food. They have a pretty big garden and when it's time to pick the veggies they do a lot of canning and use the food saver machine. They are very healthy people and enjoy the garden. Most of the corn they aren't sure will make it this year because of the last two really severe storms with winds at least 50-60 mph at times. But they have pretty much everything else.

Had a really rough night...it's only 4:30 but I got about 1 1/2 hours of sleep. My head is pounding and I tried a really cold washcloth but nothing. I have rice bags that you can can put in the freezer or microwave but my step-mom used them and didn't put them back. She has RA and has developed knots in her wrists and is so swollen and in pain that they help her so I don't say anything. Would rather have her feel better for a little while. I feel so bad for her.

Anyways, I hope to get some more sleep in soon if I can...head is pounding away and nothing I take helps so I am not going to even try that. Last time I took stuff it made it worse and ended up in the ER. I don't know what to do...if I should go to the doc. or just wait and see cause it could be just stress ya know?

Anyways, take care,
Jen