Hi everyone,

I want to start out by saying sorry to all that have been such a big support for me here. I wish that I was better and healthy, however I am not right now. I have been doing some thinking and am wondering if I should just stop coming here and posting. I feel like all I say is negative and am not bipolar so probably souldn't even be in this forum? Anyways, I feel that I just bring bad vibes in and I don't want anyone to think am not listening and trying the wonderful suggestions.

I feel have done too much talking and complaining about myself and my disabilities and not enough good things, just can't find those right now.

Am sorry but I think that it's probably wise for me to leave and let u all know that am very thankful to each and every one of you. You are all very nice and supportive and encouraging. You are all beautiful people and I wish you the best.

Hugs,
Jen

Dear Jen

other people post here who are not bipolar. being bipolar isn't a requirement. and those who are also post about other stuff - not just bipolar stuff! you have depression which we can all relate to because it is also a part of bipolar. but we also have other issues in common as well.

secondly as far as saying negative things, when someone is going through a really rough time, like you are, it is pretty normal. it is ok. you are not in good shape. we get that! and being in good shape is definitely not a requirement! and you need more support right now because of it.

"From each according to his ability, to each according to his need"
- Karl Marx

and there is a positive aspect i should remind you of. others who don't necessarily post might benefit from reading your posts and the replies - folks who are hurting and may not even be up to posting for themselves.

~ waves ~

Sorry, i feel like such a huge burden on everyone here and such a negative influence on people who are getting better. I don't even know what to say. I feel like if I left that hearing my crap would benefit everyone.

I just want to get a handle on things ya know? I am going downhill and I don't know how to stop. I want to get better, and then hearing things that my mom says and my insomnia specialist says just put me down even farther. I don't even know how to describe things and my memory is horrible. I have had ECT on 3 different occasions I have been told....and have severe dissociation as well...and things just have gotten to the point that my memory is failing and it's frusterating me.

I am sorry for everything. I just am at a loss right now and don't know how to deal with this.

Thanks,
Jen

i am sorry you feel so bad. i know the feeling of wanting to get a handle on things and going downhill and not knowing how to stop. i wish i knew of a formula to fix that. i could use it myself.

if you are not up to posting, it is ok. don't feel you have to. but you mustn't worry about being a negative "influence" here. these forums are for support. if people didn't feel bad they wouldn't even be here!

so please keep posting whenever you feel up to it.

we can't change your situation and we may not always have advice, but we can listen and keep you company.

~ waves ~

Jen

I'm one that doesn't have bipolar. But I find this to be the most supportive
forum on the internet. Its just a fantastic room. And I really enjoy being a part of it. I really enjoy being a part of this room.

I really want you to stay around. And I want you to know that we are
here when you need us.

So Just come if you want. We will be here.

Donna