rite now i am feeling down again bcuz my mom just made me feel like ****. telling me i look stupid and im acting stupid and im dressed stupid

so that just triggered this feeling of being alone bcuz i dont got en1 to talk to and hopeless and all that horrible stuff.

im confused i dont know when i am "up" if i am just fooling myself and lying to myself. if i am suppressing all the bad stuff and i don't deal with any of it bcuz i really don't have en1 to talk 2.

i know ppl if i tell them...im upset bcuz my mom said something bad to me...they will be like...oooo that's no big deal just get over it. i dont want ppl to think i cant handle criticism because i can. sometimes i become so u know...up that i start trusting ppl and opening myself up and putting myself out there.

but its like when i do i get hurt and it starts all these bad feelings...

does en1 else ever feel this way?