[Yellowfever]

So if I have Medicaid insurance, can I just travel to a different state, get help there, and be covered with my medicaid? I have seen bad work in NY health system. Other than that mess, I am doing fine. Still staying in bed a lot today. Today was rough, so as soon as I got home from a interview that went wrong I went to bed and slept the rest of the day away. The mental health clinic wants me to take resperdal. I looked up what it can do and it looks extremely scary so I decided not to take it.

I would rather suffer depression and rot in bed then take that medicine. I know it will hurt me. For others perhaps it does good for them. But I am too scared to try.

Lamictal do good things to my moods but it depresses me to the point I lay in bed.
I do not know who to trust in the State of NY. Sigh.....

Guess I will have to tough it out. This sucks

[Mari]

Dear Sharla,
What is happening? What did you tell the pdoc?
Did the pdoc give it to you for help with depression??
That sounds odd to me, but what do I know?


Take care of yourself. I want you to be well.
M.

[mymorgy]

I have been on risperdal for about nine years now and it really helps with irritability and obsessive thinking. I have never been psychotic. It is given to bipolars too. It really helps me. Why are you scared of it?
bobby

[waves]

Dear Sharla,

i'm sorry your interview didn't go well. that is so anticlimactic after the stress of preparing. it's ok that you hid in bed afterwards. don't be too hard on yourself.

i hope someone will be able to recommend a pdoc in NYC for you. there have to be good people there. do you have a therapist to talk to, also?

i too am curious as to what scares you about the risperdal. a lot of meds have unwanted potential side effects but a great many are not likely to occur. is there something in particular you are afraid of?

i am actually surprised that the lamictal causes you to be depressed - because it is used for antidepressant qualities as well as to increase time between episodes. are you sure it is the lamictal? if so a different drug may be better for you. we are all different in how we respond to meds.



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[Yellowfever]

Ever since I started taking Lamictal I been uninterested in school and work. I seriously hate working for other people. And I am in bed a lot all i do is sleep

The reason I got prescribed reperdil is because I do have obsessive thinking and mild paranoia and I am angry a lot over many things of past and present. I do not trust the people of the hospital because they kept me there for 4 hours and made me lock up my purse, shoes, and they made me wear those socks and made me stay in the same room with people who were suffering and were sort of out of control so they were kept there for over night observation.

I got sick in the month of June. I had head aches that hurt 24/7 and a stiff neck for a month and my throat was hurting really bad and my ears hurt. I had to get checked for meningitis. Good news was I did not have it. Bad news was we did not know what I was going through.
So I had an appointment to be seen like a follow up to see if I got better. A few days before the appointment I accidently od on lamictal. I took 200mg instead of 100mg.
What happen was I took the meds around morning time but I usually take it at night. So I took one in the morning and one at night by mistake. I had the biggest panic attack that lasted for many painful hours and I could not sleep all night long because I kept having crazy 3 second dreams that would wake me up every few seconds. I kept getting thirsty and I wanted to throw up and I was so weak. I never felt this bad ever. I did not realize I had overdose until like hours later. Then I took a cab to the hospital. And just because I od by accident they assumed I was suicidal. If I was suicidal I would of taken the entire bottle genius!

But of course I am not like that. I like being alive
So then when I went to get my throat checked they asked me a bunch of times about the overdose and I told them it was an accident. They were like ok how much did you take and all that jazz. I told them but then I asked them, how come you are asking me? LOOK AT THE CHART YOU WERE GIVEN! EVERYTHING YOU NEED TO KNOW IS RIGHT THERE! Morons.

Well anyways they ask me why I did it and I told them it was an accident and that I forgot I took it earlier that day. So then they said how is your meds doing now? Are you doing ok? I told them well I am depressed and i suffer from mild paranoia and I get extremely angry over many things.
So this nurse takes me to the Mental health ER. She said I can talk to someone there and get some help right away instead of having to wait for an opening of an appointment months later. She also said that it would be a quick in and out since I had no severe problems. I WAS THERE FOR 4 HOURS. With other people. The security guards ask me why I was here since I was not insane to them. And I told them that a nurse said i would be in and out real quick. Just to get a pdoc. And he was like ok I will let them know. I was there for a long time.

This one man that came in with no shirt on stole me cranberry juice. He took it and poured it all over his head and wore the empty container like a hat.
Then he wanted to play catch with the empty juice container so I participated.

So yeah after talking to the pdoc there I decided that the woman was labeling me and seriously does not understand me and I need to see a real pdoc with a GOOD REPUTATION.

The woman called my mom up and my husband and all this stuff. My mom freaked out and almost bought a plane ticket. I told them not to do it but Noooooo They insisted. I told them thanks a lot my mom freaked and thinks I am on suicide watch because you fail to mention that I was only there to just get a pdoc so I do not have to wait in line. They asked her all these questions with out even telling her what was going on.

So yeah I tore up the prescription she gave me she thinks I'm a wack job.
I am not saying that resperdal is a bad medicine. I have not tried it so how do I know. I know it works well for other people. I just do not trust the lady who prescribed the medicine to me. I think she is just a bad person who should not work for the medical field. If I were to see a real pdoc that I can trust on my own, and if she/he happens to prescribe me resperdal, I then will be willing to try it that way. But until I find a real pdoc I refuse to try anything new.


And that was the month of June
EXCELLENT!

I had a progressive day today at least. I did a lot of homework today!

[waves]

i am so sorry. what an awful experience. i can understand why you would not want to take a medicine prescribed by someone who treats you that way.

now i don't want to defend the woman - in case it sounds like it - but i do know (because i od'd once too) that it is standard practice for them to do a psych/suicide screen if they get an od. in my case i did not think i od'd - worked out later with my pdoc it was probably an extended release pill with a nicked coating that i didn't notice, that got in my system all at once. i had to call 911 i could not stand was tossing constantly and seeing double and triple. i was very annoyed when the psychiatrist (who looked like she had three heads - that part was funny) came to the ER to try to get me to fess up about pills i didn't think i took, if i did, it was by accident (a double dose, like you), but probably didn't take. she was fairly nice though. i couldn't talk well but whatever few words i managed to get out were sufficient. she did not act like the woman you saw. she smiled and said ok and left.

i did have a doctor - a gp that i was new to - treat me like i was crazy once, she was yelling on the phone to another doctor about me being suicidal (was not) etc. all i wanted was a referral to get a second opinion. i am sure everyone in the waiting room heard her. she got really agitated! ... i changed doctor.

so yeah, screening fine, but that was really overkill. please do try to find another doctor though, that can help. and talk about how the lamictal makes you feel, because that isn't right at all. it is supposed to help depression not make it worse. hopefully he can give you another med to try. there are different ones for cycling.

i am glad you had a good day today.



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[bizi]

hi sharla,
I am sorry you had to endure that...sounds awful.
as far as the lamictal goes...the reccommended maintanence dose is 200mg. so if you have been only taking 100mg then you were not even taking the amount needed. ( I know that some people take 450 mg of it)jsut wanted to mention that to you.
I hope you find a good pdoc that you trust.
bizi