Thinking of you today. I hope you got to scream. I hope you got some sleep.

I hope you know you are loved and cared for here.

My dear friends, each of you have made such strong points and it has given me so much comfort to have my friends.
I can't even begin to express how much I am moved by the thoughts and words.

I do not have any suport from my siblings chosing to support my abuser instead of me. They never attened my childs funeral, but in spirit you all have held me up a deeply care to help me get through my loss with all the love you can.

I feel i do have ot watch because at some point family and friends want me to move on, get stronger. I try to feel her and can't I see her picture her, smile, walking up here, sitting in my chair, I draw from taht, but then I remember the end..
The condolance book the newspaper has online has given me great comfort reading from those that loved me and De. I will have it printed after the 2/23 it will be online.

Friends, family, forum members, highschool friends, so many love us and I will always have that to comfort me when I need to pullit out and hug.

I bought a 15" ty BENNIE BABY Angel Bear for my bed, or to hug....
I will stop tomorrow and bring up some of De's angels to have near me.
I wish there was something more then her bedcovers to hug and cry into though.

Thank you nfor loving us
Di

Oh Di,
hug your angel bear tightly....
more hugs for you my dear.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

the bear and angels sound like such great ideas...
STAY AWAY FROM TOXIC PEOPLE
DON'T STAY STRONG BUT TAKE THE TIME NEEDED TO HEAL HOWEVER LONG
bobby

Di, YES, HUG THAT LITTLE ANGEL BEAR TIGHTLY. Everytime I come back to this thread, I cry (you would think I would have learned my lessons by now, but I still won't stay away!) I disagree with you, tho, saying that I'm much stronger than you. We are all strong in our individual ways. By now, tho, I know it seems pretty certain that I will never have a 'normal' life or family, which is a bit sad to say. I pray to God that I'm wrong, tho. It seems like we go from one crisis to another, and I was just talking to my supervisor the morning of my daughter's birthday about how much better she is doing with this last addition of Abilify to her meds. That was only about six hours before her accident. Guess I spoke too soon .

I am glad that we are able to at least give you some measure of comfort. Take it wherever you can get it, you deserve that and so much more. It's good that you have returned to work, that might serve as a distraction, but returning to your empty home, no matter how many family members are there. You will always have that void, but I hope it fades as time goes on....For now, hug, scream, do whatever makes you feel better!

I am off today (Lincoln's BD) but I still have 2 doctor's appts; one to get my Procrit shot, and the second is my PM monthly appt...no rest for the weary!

Gentle hugs, Jacquie

I just wanna let you know i have kept you in my prayers.
Dont let what other people think about how long you should grieve clutter your mind.
You will move on to the next stage..WHEN YOUR READY!!!
I like what My morgy said.
I am very sorry that your siblings are treating you this way.
Remember you cant choose your family.Only your friends,and i think you have alot of those right here!!
Take care

Meet Isabella, She is traveling from California today to our home in Pennsylvaia today. I will be able to watch ehr travel by UPS.
I can't wait for her to arrive. I have a TY beenybaby Angle coming too, I will keep them close.
Di
She is just a perfect Angel for my bed and me to hug.

PS- I got a note from the seller, that Isabella is bringing a tiny friend with her on the trip so she won;t be lonely. I was so excited to hear she was not going to travel a lone!

just so precious...you are on one of the right tracks.....
Bobby

Dear Di,
Isabella is just perfect...what a wonderful bear to have and remind you of your De.
((((hugs))))
bizi

The bear is so precious looking.

{{{Di}}}

Still thinking about you.

befuddled2