[justired]

I've been having difficulty with my ECT lately as I've posted a few days ago. Now they are messing with my meds again because I've been feeling suicidal again. I recently finished coming off my seroquel and maybe it was a mistake. I just couldn't work with all the meds I was taking and seroquel is so sedating.

I honestly am so very tired of struggling with this and constantly fighting my way through each day. I just want to give up. I don't want to do this anymore.

Thank you for letting me vent/post this...

Debbie

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Dear Debbie,

i am sorry you are going through this. do you see a counselor or therapist as well as the doctor(s)?

i want to let you know of another forum here that you might also want to participate in, or read...

Survivors of Suicide Forum

these are all folks who have in some way been touched by suicide - some have attempted and survived, some might be struggling with thoughts of suicide, some have survived the loss of a loved one to suicide... etc.

also here is a good online resource: www.metanoia.org

~ waves ~

[bizi]

can I ask again what your meds are?
I am sorry you are feeling this bad, want to encourage you to keep posting, venting sharing....we are listening.
((((((HUGS))))))
bizi

[justired]

Thank you both so much for your posts. Right now I take Lithium and Elevil. Plus I do ECT every two weeks. I used to take about 5 different meds but since November I've been slowly weaned off them and switched to what I'm on now. My medication psychiatrist just raised my Elevil as I'm on a fairly low dose. I'm really hoping that will help.

Debbie

[Dmom3005]

Debbie

Good luck with the raising of the elevil.

I don't know much about ECT, but I sure hope it helps you.

Donna

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Dear Debbie

I too hope the increase in the Elavil is helpful and that you feel better soon.

Alas, we are all familiar with the medication merry-go-round... sigh. the important thing is finding a combination that works. different things might work at different times, too.



try to just take 5 minutes at a time.

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[ginnie]

I am sorry you feel that way too. I am ginnie postc-6-7 and don't know if i want any more of anything eithor. I am very tired too and think about giving up alot. I reached out to this list in hopes I can gather strength for what is happening to me. I am way past just depression. I hide most of what I am feeling. I don't have a desire to face years more of pain and surgeries for a condition that is not reversable or curable. The DDD and DJD just keeps going. You can list like I am doing in hopes of getting some relief from all that presses down on us. I do not know what I am going to do and I am afraid. Do keep posting to this list, I think there are others here that can help us. Ginnie

[Mari]

M.

[bizi]

HI there virginia,
ewlcome to the forums.
I am sorry that you suffer with depression.
Do you think you need a medication change? you have adequate pain control?
could you see someone different who maybeable to help you?You you take meds for depression? they are so helpful to many people.
when one antidepressant doesn't work then try another....that is the thing with depresion not just one thing works.and somehow you have to pull up your patience pants to deal with the medication merry go round.
keep posting, we are here.
bizi

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Hi Ginnie

welcome aboard!
i am wondering the same things Bizi asked, also.

Dear Debbie,

keep checking in with us. what is the situation with work now, did you decide to take more time off, or ... how are things there?

~ waves ~