Dear Mari

i hope you made it through work ok today.

2 more days and then weekend, whew.

i hope you can sleep sometime, somehow, between now and tomorrow. i hate that sleep is so hard for you.

sending soothing thoughts and

~ waves ~

You sound so exhausted Mari!

I can only wish you the best balance (sleep-wise).

i feel so badly for you. My father used to verbally batter me until i became hysterical. Only then, did he seem to calm down and lose all his anxiety.
I never found a way of dealing with it........does your husband have a conscience?
bobby

I'm sure he has a conscience. Maybe he is less aware. I remember Mari said he also deals with OCD.

Really tired and depressed.
I got a credit card in December at the store in the mall and neglected to keep track of paperwork. I owe money. Cant reach them by phone ---- long story. I will have to go to the stupid mall tomorrow to pay the bill.

Was going to go somewhere tonight with a friend. Have to cancel. Can't deal with much.


I'm spending my day off trying not to go to sleep. This is sooo not logical. It goes against nature -- to be so self-destructive about not sleeping on purpose. I'm getting upset about this.

M.

Dear Bobby,
He's not nice when he gets ramped up into that mode.

He cares a great deal about right and wrong -- that is part of what he is obsessing about. But he is not as kind to me as he should be.

M.

Hi,
I wrote the post in the middle of the night and thought I deleted it without notice.

Essentially he is nice except when he is not.
Most of the time I can deal with him either way.

Last night we were both stressed and he was horrible because
1 first I got caught up in his repeating talk in order to calm him, and then
2 responded in a way that did not satisfy him.

In these situations he accuses me of being un supportive because he wants to keep pushing and pushing his worries until I can't take any more.
. .. I know to leave the room and find something else to occupy myself -- except when I am stressed and my guard is down.

He got over it within minutes.
I'm not over it. I feel that he is cruel and selfish.

M.

I feel very sorry about that for you....
I wish he were nicer to you....
bizi

i am really sorry.

i am wondering...

was he always like this? i mean do you feel that he started behaving differently (more selfishly) after you got married?

does he feel that you are selfish in other ways?

is he always like this, or is it episodic?

it really sounds to me like you guys could benefit from couples counseling but i know that's easier said than done, between work and sleep and life in general, plus it is something both parties must be vested in for it to help....

~ waves ~

I'm so depressed. . . . Eating decently, hygiene, . . . . out the window.
Sleep on the couch at really weird times even though pdoc told me I absolutely have to sleep with the cpap or I could have a stroke.

I can't find a way around my stuff piled up in the computer room or living room. Lots of work I need to do for Monday and sleep / not sleeping is in the way of that.
As long as I ignore everything and I mean everything, I am fine and hubby is nice to me.

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He's always been like this but we lived 40 mins away from each other until around the last hurricane 5 yrs ago. We often spoke about renting / buying two apts next door to each other so that we could each keep our own space. It sounded ridiculous to others (like my parents).
My tdoc diagnosed him from my talk about him over the years. I've brought him to sessions for my stuff three or four times.
I'm not exactly sure if it is ocd -- maybe a huge anxiety problem.

There is no way in heck that I am going to counseling with him.

M.