Hi,

Four hours of sleep last night.

I spent the last hour on an easy form to email. I was so confused. I gave up.

I'm not going to bed. I'm so messed up.


M

Dear Mari,

So sorry you are feeling this unwell.

what about - could you try 5 minutes (or even 1 or 2 minutes) of meditation?

Do you have a space where you can do that?

If i could transfer some of my night's sleep to you, i would. (i can sleep more in the day time to catch it up )

Sending s and calming thoughts, dear friend.



~ waves ~

I am sorry that you are going thru this.
Wish you were able to sleep better.
Maybe you can rest today some?
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

Hi,

Saw pdoc. 'Told him I was fine.
Reported to him that mdoc had given me Gabapetin. Pdoc called Gabapentin a third line med that works for some people. It is good that it helps me.

He crushed his ankle in a fall from a 5 foot ladder two weeks ago. He is going against several doctors' recommendations by refusing surgery he says because surgery is complicated and 40% of the time results in infection.


M

Mari

happy you were able to see your mdoc and the doctor seemed to like the medicine being used. And hope you are doing well.

Donna

Thanks, Donna.

Why did you go see pdoc? If you told him you were fine?

Dear Mari
whew! one down, one to go... hope you get in to see your T soon. i am glad the Gabapentin helps you too.

I hope your pdoc's ankle heals up ok...

~ waves ~

Hi,

I got email from my colleague's window and an undated poem of his.

Reading his words threw me. I don't know how long it will be for me not to be moved to sadness when I think about him. My sister says apparently it takes as long as it takes. Maybe tdoc would say something helpful.

M

((( Mari )))

yes, there is no fixed period... you will slowly come to terms. it will become less intense, but it is a very personal thing. you may experience smaller waves of it at different times in your life, too. it is all good but it is hard. i am sorry you are going through this.

lyesterday, a world class motorcycle racer lost his life on the track. i just heard the headline blurb in a movie break. i looked up the story. i don't fully know why but it affected me very deeply. i couldn't stop crying. i didn't even know him as a "fan." i lit a candle for him.

continue to find ways to celebrate your friend's life as you mourn his loss.

the motorcyclist died making his dreams come true. he was a vibrant and warm person, and not least, courageous.

(((hugs)))

~ waves ~ of sadness