Thanks. I hope I go to bed soon. I took my meds. I can't stay asleep another minute.

M

Nite nite Mari

i hope you have gone to bed... just took my meds too.

i am struggling with sleeping too between not sleeping, and sleeping with nightmares, or half-sleeping with parents shouting in surround-sound.

but at night when it's quiet enough to rest better, i just want to stay awake and soak up the peace. i soooooooooo need the peace and i can't find it during the day. catch-22. i'd like for it to be night 24/7 with the rest of the world asleep - at least in my immediate surroundings.

well, i hope you do get some zzzz's and that the drive to the airport tomorrow is ehhh... productive, as in you get to return minus parents. ;)

(((hugs)))

~ waves ~

yes mari, i hope that you get to return your parents to the airport and that their flight goes off smoothly...that storm lee doesn't inter fer with their departure...hoping that you sleep tonight dear waves.
sleep
((((HUGS))))
bizi

I hope you can rest tonight.
((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Hoping the weather has calmed down in Texas for the flying.

Donna:grouphug:

ok so..........
 

i can't stand the suspense........

do we have a verdict yet, on parental departure?

HI,

They left here. I don't know what happened when they got to Atlanta.

M

I am so freaked out!!!!!!!!!
 

Hi,

I'm late getting to bed, have nothing prepared for tomorrow, have a huge list of things to take care of tonight and then more to remember to do at work. . . also tired even though I have been in bed a lot since dropping off parents at the airport Monday at 9:00 am. My mind is in the wrong place

That visit by the folks is going to take me two weeks to get back on track and I WAS BARELY ON TRACK!!!!! I'm sooooooo angry. I don't know why I'm angry. I need to get a grip, get off the computer, and find a way to relax so I can go to bed. I really need more drugs for this. All I have is Klonopin and I am worried about the hangover effects if I take more now.

Hubby was helpful for a change. He suggested an assignment for tomorrow for my class that will be fine for the students.

Maybe these should be my three goals:
1. go to bed soon. --- this requires that I disengage, find a snack, watch mindless tv maybe
2. get to work on time.
3. stay ok.

M


PS.

Maybe ask hubby to make me some tea. He has peppermint. I usually like peppermint to help me be alert but it has calming qualities.

i think the parents can have to do with it, even if nothing "overt" happened. just their presence, the vibe, you know. i think it put you in a different place emotionally. maybe a childhood place when your emotions were repressed. maybe now they are coming out.

i hope your pdoc can make a reassessment and find something to help you calm if you feel a med would help.

i am glad hubby was helpful. and those sound like excellent goals for tonight.
indeed peppermint helps the mind to be alert... supposedly, but i personally find it has soothing quality also. what i sometimes do at night is have chamomile + peppermint (1 bag of each... the peppermint flavor just about smothers the chamomile anyway).

i think the parents can have to do with it, even if nothing "overt" happened. just their presence, the vibe, you know. i think it put you in a different place emotionally. maybe someplace you used to be as a child, but the child is now in an adult body which may express emotions you weren't able to back then. just thoughts.

i am glad hubby was helpful. and those sound like excellent goals for tonight.
indeed peppermint helps the mind to be alert... supposedly, but i personally find it has soothing quality also. what i sometimes do at night is have chamomile + peppermint (1 bag of each... the peppermint flavor just about smothers the chamomile anyway).

(((:heartthrob: hugggs :heartthrob:)))

~ waves ~