What a good way to think

katiebell.

Donna

acemagoo...........please spare the next 7.35 mins and watch this link
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f198pJXYZOs

pay it forward is to me [and katiebell] truly inspirational by design...........you actually do get to fix another human being [you just don't wait about to see the success story]

I too have BP diagnosed in 2006....though probably had it from when i was 13.....1977......[first suicidal thought and crass attempt]

throughout life i muddled on.................

1993.....big year............mutilated my body in big attempt............

but for the last 18 years i have been a support worker in two fields....8 years with disabled adults.....last ten years homeless adults........with varying support needs.addiction..criminal backgrounds...mental health abuse victims and perpetrators.......etc..........

when you have or can walk a mile in someone else s shoes..........you become a semi professional...........and believe it or not many listen to you more than fully professional people.......[why?,,,, because youv'e been there.......felt the pain]

.Disability..............is only such if you allow it to dis-able YOU

and don't think for one min...... I've mastered this demon...........i have not............August 21 2011 last overnight A&E stay suicidal thoughts..............[they don't always go AWAY..........you learn to live with emmmmm. [don't act on the thought act on the fear..........get to a doctor or hospital............


you can overcome this crappy time in your life........... Just learn to dance in the rain...................

David

Dear Lizzo,

"Challenged differently" is a good way to explain things. 'Sorry that you have been through so much.


M

Dear Ace

i haven't been able to hold a steady for a good while now... kept trying, and kept falling apart. usually it's the job though, so i am going to try a different field. however some things are me.... i am searching for solutions through therapy but i am so scared i just will not make it. i understand the feeling. i also have migraines that in periods of stress get worse and do not respond to medication, making me not viable for work, or at best less productive, for about 7-10 days of the month (non consecutive, 2 here, 3 there... etc.)

i don't have disability, i don't know how to get it, i live in a different country and nobody (not my doc, not the social workers) seems to be able to help me get it, and from what i can tell there isn't a type that actually gives income here, but only protection in the work force... very limited protection... so far so i gave up... at least for now....

i also want to invite you to read, and when you feel up to it, introduce yourself, to the understanding group of folks in our (link follows)

Survivors of Suicide Forum

that BrokenFriend mentioned above. several of us post there more or less often as well as here, but you will find many other folk there who have been touched by suicide in various ways - those who lost a loved one to suicide, those who themselves attempted and failed, and those who have (or still do) go through feelings of suicidality. they are a supportive bunch with a lot to offer. be sure to read the "sticky threads" at the top of that forum, including
Thoughts from Pter on Suicide
and
What to do if you are alone and thinking about suicide.

another good resource: http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/

all the best to you - and welcome to Neurotalk, and to the Bipolar Forum.

~ waves ~

Dear Lizzo

I see you are new too... so... Welcome to Neurotalk, to the Bipolar Forum, and if you wish i do encourage you to visit the Survivors of Suicide (link is in my post to Ace, right before this one). I don't know if you ever go through feeling suicidal any more, that you need support yourself, but certainly you would have much to give to others there.

I appreciated your post as a whole, but i am sorry that it took an accident and TBI to get you "out" of a job that was hurting you. yet, i can see how that can happen... i clung to my field for years, despite being burned job after job... going crazy each time (it's like, if it burns, don't keep touching it, yathink??? nope!) well, i am glad your accident at least came with this silver lining of sorts, even if you are now "differently challenged."

take care, and again welcome.

~ waves ~