Dear Friend, :hug: :hug: :hug:
This could indeed be depression. I hope you can feel better soon.
Your plans to push yourself to buy food and cat supplies are good -- as long as you are up to that. Sometimes getting out to bring stuff home is how we nurture ourselves. I feel better when I have my supplies . . . . maybe this makes sense . . . I don't know.

Are you sensitive to sunlight or only light in the house?

Mari

(((Steve)))
i agree this sounds like a depressive phase. taking care of the basics, like you are trying to do - get food for you and kitty, is the most we can do sometimes, and it is hard to do, too. so i wish you well with that. you also describe a lot of anxiety which often comes with depression, but may partly be left over from that bad spell you had with the obsessions. and could be the depression is sort of a backdraft of that too. but if it doesn't pass, or if it gets worse that you feel unsafe, please call your doctor, ok?

but fo rnow just focus on basic survival - get food. let that be your mission.

we are here. come back and tell us how you are doing when you are up to it.

sending lots and lots of hugs :hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug;:hug::hug:

~ waves ~

Dear BF
 

I so wish there was something I could say to lift your spirit. My son too is in a deep depression, and I have been there before too. It does make just normal existance hard. Is there anything I can do for you to help? I do not even know why my own depression lifted. I take zoloft. Maybe that was it. It sure broke through the fog I was in. I am facing another surgery which usually triggers another go round, but this time I am keeping my head. I have been somewhat diagnosed as bi-polar, but I don't know. I just know that coming back here to NT has helped more than anything else I did. I will keep you in y thoughts and prayers. take care of yourself, do something nice for yourself today. ginnie

I agree with the others this sounds like depression andr you anxiety. Try to not watch tv if that seems to be a major trigger for you. And also watch what you watch on the internet.
keep posting we are listening.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Hey Mari Thank you. I think it's depression,and it sometimes wants to dip into despair,and fear.

I seem to not want to see sunlight. Then I don't want to see any light. With tv,the reruns of the shows that I like have disappeared. It sure seemed to help to see,"Star Trek the next generation",and shows like that late at night.

I made a mistake at Facebook,and went to the obituarys of my fellow graduation class members,and saw that some have passed away early. Two committed suicide. One I knew about years ago. This is bothering me. One was in the Marine Corps. In fact,this bothers me allot.

I was not able to go out today. I'll try tomorrow. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Oh I am sorry for your face book mistake.
Good luck getting out tomorrow.
hugs to you steve
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Waves Thank you so much. Yes. I'm still am not over that 18 hour strong obsession. That was so painful. I don't even want to go outside,and see anyone.

This has happened before. It's not the worse time that I've had. It's a group of unpleasent experiences that can come at any time. It mostly started around Christmas. BF:hug::hug::hug:

ginnie I'm so glad that the zoloft has helped you. I'm so glad that the Bipolar forum has helped also. It's good to talk to people who understand,and don't judge.

I hope that the surgery goes well,and I hope that you don't get depressed during that time. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Bizi I think that your right. TV is not very good,and the news is a real big trigger. I've never seen so much bad news at one time. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Bizi Yes. I should not have explored my graduation class news. I saw the death notices,or whatever they called it. I clicked into the link,and was shocked. I wrote down names,and couldn't believe it. I got in touch with a friend,and he told me about one of the suicides. Very tragic,but aren't they all. The other one was so sad. BF:hug::hug::hug: