i'm so sorry...
 

Dear Steve

my sincere condolences for the loss of your former classmates, and the tragic circumstances in which they occurred.

i am sorry, too, that you happened to find out just now, when you are already sailing stormy seas. however that isn't your fault. how could you ever have imagined. :( you could not foresee this. in fact, looking them up could have been a positive, reassuring experience for you, had the reality been different. so, please don't blame yourself. (that's some false guilt coming in, methinks.)

i do hope you start feeling overall better soon, although i know the shock and grief over these events will take longer... that is natural.

maybe can make it out today, or tomorrow. i'm sending warm thoughts and hugs :circlelove:

~ waves ~

i am so sorry. what a shock.
bobby

Dear Friend,

That is all distressing. Perhaps you are grieving.
Lots of hugs.

M

Thank you Waves. It was a shock,and those people mattered to me. My childhood best friends sister commited suicide right after high school graduation. I wanted to know why,but never asked. She didn't seem that unhappy,but I guess she was. The other deaths where news to me,and so many of them.

Another shocking suicide was my other childhood friends niece. She stepped out on a railroad track in the New Jersey area last year,and the train was going about 130 miles an hour. What's going on!!! Why didn't she reach out to get help?

I guess I'm all depressed. I got to the bank,and went to the store today,and got what I needed to get.

I was singing yesterday in my den,and the cat came over,and licked me on the cheek,and then she went back to her little bed. I thought that was so cute.

I just don't feel like doing anything right now. I had pain much of last night due to this anxiety. I'm so tired. I don't have a passion for any of my hobbies,or anything else right now. Therapists sometimes say,"What do you have a passion for in life?" I feel sort of numb right now,and don't enjoy anything.

I'll get through this. I hope that I don't get into a obsession of intense anxiety,and fear. That's the worse. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Hy bobby I hope that you are doing OK. Thank you. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Thank you Mari. I was depressed,and anxious before the news of those deaths. It is distressing like you said,and I do feel grief.

Benjamin Franklin said,"With the passing of time is the healing of grief".
This to shall pass. BF:hug::hug::hug:

maybe after some good sleep you might feel better in the morning.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

I'm sorry that I don't read to many posts at this time. It seems to cause the anxiety pain in my chest to get worse. I do have a reading problem,and I have to force my eye's to keep going some times. Maybe it's pushing through my OCD,and that's causeing the anxiety. I seem to be the only person I know to have this. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Thank you Bizi Your right. I need to get to bed earlier. If I stay up beyond a certain time,I can't seem to sleep unless I'm exhausted. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Dear Friend,

I hope you sleep tonight. :Zzzz:

M