I've had a lot of personal and medical issues going on...

We owe over $2000 to the IRS from last year and add another $650 from this year. We're always squeaking by- living paycheck to paycheck... considering bankruptcy now. We have over $20K in unsecured debt between us, not including medical bills.

My husband got a new job that he says he likes, but he's not getting any overtime. He's making less. We emptied his old 401K to help pay off some of the IRS debt. We may have to use the rest to pay a bankruptcy lawyer. My husband's not sold on that yet tho.

My husband and I both smoke (at least I got him to switch from Marlboro's to a cheap brand) so that's $80 a week. He's drinking more, add a lot of beer to our "budget."

Add my PT at $30 a whack... twice a week $60. Sometimes I have other appointments... some weeks $150.

In addition to neck and shoulder issues, I have increased spasms in my legs, lower back, and butt; my balance is off and I'm much more fatigued. My concentration and cognitive issues are worse.

Now I have to see ANOTHER orthopedist because I have hip problems- just had an Xray on the right side that showed a cyst (I don't know where or what kind). I want an MRI on both sides because I need early intervention cuz I have enough problems walking and can't afford to be laid up.

I have to use a forearm crutch now... it's an adjustment. PT said I need both. I'm not ready for that. I had to pay $104 out of pocket because I need adult sized crutches (I'm 5'9") but need a pediatric cuff because I have a very small forearm. I'm trying to get reimbursement from my medicare HMO, but I doubt I'll be successful.

My husband is violently angry all the time now- but NEVER directed towards me. He throws things and screams. I don't want to be anywhere near him when he's like that, I think he's drinking more again because of anxiety and depression, but he absolutely refuses to see someone.

I've been battling depression and high anxiety for a long time now. My pdoc adjusted some meds. It's mostly helping with the anxiety, but not the depression.

I'm sorry I haven't been around, but I'm going to skip the excuses.

Love,
Kay