Thank you Mari. I hope that you have a peaceful 8 hours of sleep tonight. BF

Dear Friend,

I hope that your night goes well.

M

I went to a new bar and grill today by myself to check it out and see what kind of food they served and if they carried any IPA'S that my hubby might like and if they had non alcoholic beer for me....no that would not be in for a couple of weeks, and not any IPA's for hubby. So we won't be coming here.
I did have some very good chicken enchilada soup and salad for dinner and drank water and watched a bit of foot ball. It was nice. I had a very attentive waitress. They have only been open 2 weeks. They threw up that building so fast!. The bar was fun... had open garage doors, very inviting and just 7 blocks from our house in the neighborhood.
I am waiting for jeff to come home, he is with a friend. They went on a car drive this afternoon, his friend mike drives an old volvo and they have a local club that does drives to small towns etc. I saw a new client this morning, his wife talked and talked my ears off. 1 1/2 hour non stop. She was very nice and so was he. I will see them every 3 months. I then went to my best friends 6 year old birthday party. I don't do well in groups of people and knew that I would not be staying long. I did know one other person there so I talked to her that was nice and we ate some pizza the kids were in the back doing gymnastics and fun jumps indoors. They had a great time. When they were done playing they all came into this little room.
That was my signal to leave so I hugged nicole good bye and gillian too. I will see her thursday night I am baby sitting gillian for a couple of hours.
Nicole thanked me for coming and understands my anxiety issues completely, had I not know someone already there I would have left almost immediately, I stayed about an hour.
bizi

Talked with a friend of mine who lives out of town in arizona. I told her of my drinking problem and now abstaining, she said she was proud of me. That felt good to hear. My aunt told me that when I told her the same thing. This is what support feels like.
thank you for your support.
bizi

Dear Bizi,

You did a lot Sunday.
That new place near has lots of promise.
The birthday party worked out better than you expected.

Here's to out of town friends and supportive aunts!!!

Mari

Thank you mari!
I really want to drink tonight....I am resisting the urge. I think the problem is I am feeling anxiety from drinking a bunch of iced coffee at 4 pm(I had a caffeine head ache and will now try to remember what the resulting anxiety feels like at 7pm). And I am feeling tired and stressed. My back is sore from leaning over today. My business is picking up which is good but that means I work longer hours, am more tired... etc.
I should go to the gym tonight this would distract me from drinking although I don't have anything in the house and don't plan on buying any. The bar just down the street calls my name.
bizi who thinks a nap might help my back, some hot tea might help with the anxiety. I should go to the gym!
bizi

laid down for half an hour and feel much better! am going to the gym!
bizi

Enjoy the gym, Bizi!

That bar is tempting you,but you are much stronger then that bar. You are doing good Bizi. I hope that things went well at the gym. How many days has it been?!!! Doing good. BF

Each time that you pass that bar,and say no inside,you get a little stronger inside. It's a process that takes place over a period of time. You have the power on the inside. BF

I've been there. I've made it. It can be done. God gave me the power that I needed.