congratulations steve that is truly wonderful news! decades wow!
bizi

I was 28 when I was able to stop drinking alcohol. My mind was on alcohol allot up to that point. Now I'm in my fifties,and still dry. I received God's strength to stop.

Now I get council,and take medications. The medications are different then they use to be. BF

I am planning a surprise birthday party for jeff for next week...am getting all worked up over it only about 10-12 total, going to be at the texas road house. I spent $$$ on cup cakes to be sent to his work place to share with his colleagues then will arrange balloons for the tables a girl friend is going to help me set up ahead of time.....anxiety!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
bizi
I am feeling really anxious and want a drink so badly.....
sigh

Dear Bizi,

You recognize that this is only a birthday.

You recognize that your health is more important than anything else you can do.
Focus on your needs. The party does not matter.
I care about you.

Do what works for you. Go to the gym. Please.

M

Mari This is sound wisdom. Things like this will be forgotten down the road. What is really important. The mind is tricky. It will rationalize most anything as being O K. Bizi We will be here for you. I sympathize with you about the anxiety. Dealing with the anxiety in a healthy way is imperative. You will learn a whole new set of skills that will be stepping stones to continued health,and strength. BF

Thank you.
It is his 50th and I did not have anything planned for his birthday. I am taking a cruise with my sisters for my 50th in feb(I am a new years twin!). He finally told me he wanted a keyboard, a nice one. So that is what he is going to get for himself. I am so happy about that. I had been after him for months about this.
I snacked after coming home because I was hungry and forgot he was coming home late. After cooking dinner (I cooked spicy lemon pepper talapia, and a big salad) we went for a walk, I will go to the gym tomorrow and shower there. I got a hair cut this past saturday, she cut 3 inches off, I like it. It lays off my shoulders now almost to my chin like my avatar picture.
When jeff came home I told him how anxious I was and wanted a drink, he said "you could have some and I would not tell anybody."
I was mad...I turned around and said that is not helping me.
He doesn't understand.
I don't think that I am an alcoholic I just think I have a drinking problem.
I tried to explain and I think he gets it now.
anyway thanks for your support.
bizi

Bizi,

You are doing great. Keep doing things for yourself.

I am happy to hear that you explained things to him even if he does not wish to be helpful.

M

I went to the store and bought a box of different kinds of tea. I made some last night to drink while I was doing paper work, a substitute for drinking my ciders, I used to drink when I did my paper work. Now I will drink tea. It tasted good.
bizi