Thank you every one. I'm in a lot of grief. I've been thinking about how he supported me,and sent me to doctors. He didn't know what was wrong with me,but he knew that I had many emotional problems. He had a stroke about 13 years ago,and then my sister started to help me. Now she's in a hospital because of MS,and about to go to a nursing home for physical therapy. BF:(:hug::(

Dear Steve, :Heart:

my heart is heavy for you. you have been on my mind all day.

i hope your sister will have a good recovery in the nursing home. it is probably good that she will continue to have wrap around care during her convalescence. i am going to think positive for her. know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

love

~ waves ~

It was so very sad watching him struggling to breath while he was in a coma,in the last hours of his life.

I tried to call my counselor today,but they where closed because it's Presidents Day. I don't know what to do. BF:hug::(:hug:

Steve I am so, so sorry that your dad went to heaven. As someone else has said, he is in a better place, but I know you & your family will miss him.

"The LORD is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit." Psalm 34:18

I pray that God be near to you now more than ever, and that you can feel His love & presence. :Heart:

Dear Steve,

Hopefully you can speak to your counselor tomorrow.

Meanwhile... can you cry? read Psalms? Pray? ... it doesn't matter if you just ramble, just open a channel you know... God already knows your suffering.

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There is a prayer for (all of) the dead which is also offered, in Catholic tradition, when a person passes away. I have offered it for your father. I will do again, also. I learned it in another language and it is beautiful in that language... it imparts a sense of peace. Here it is in English, if you want to try it:

Eternal Rest grant unto them, o Lord
And let perpetual light shine upon them;
May they rest in peace.
Amen.

hang in there dear heart. :hug::hug::hug::hug:

~ waves ~

Prayer to your guardian angel
 

This is a prayer to ask for help from your Guardian Angel:

Angel of God,
Appointed by the divine mercy to be my guardian,
Enlighten and protect,
Direct and govern me this day.
Amen.

I feel better. My brother in law who is a doctor said that there is a nickname for pneumonia. He said it's called,"The old mans friend". If a old person is suffering,pneumonia may take them out of their misery.

Dad had been mumbling for a while now,and he didn't seem to know what was being said. He seemed like he couldn't hear very well. This is what my brother in law said. I noticed that dad couldn't remember things last Sunday,8 days ago.

They put him on morphine yesterday. I didn't know this,but it helps dying people to breath. They also put him on Ativan. So he may not have been suffering. I prayed for him. A pastor connected to the nursing home was going to come to see him also, I was told by one of the administrators of the nursing home. BF:hug::(:hug:

Dear Steve,

I am so glad your brother-in-law spoke gave you this new information about your dad's condition, and regarding his medication. It does not take away the loss and grief, but it is a relief to know he was not suffering the way you thought. And it is good to know that a pastor went in to see him, too.

Thank you for sharing. :hug::hug::hug::heartthrob:

~ waves ~

Hi BF
 

I am praying for you. I am glad your father had morphine, both my folks did too and it was a mercy. We are all thinking about you during this grief. All of us care about you. ginnie:grouphug:

Dear Steve,

'Thinking about you. :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:

Mari