[bizi]

your scripts will run out before the next week?
bizi
sorry it is crazy at work, it is for jeff too.

[Dmom3005]

Hoping this new doctor can find the answers for you.

I would just tell the old pdoc that you forgot the list.

I can't answer the problem with the two appts in a week.

Donna

[waves]

Good luck with this new doctor, Mari.

I wonder if you have enough meds to get by. Maybe the pharmacy will have good news.

waves

[Mari]

Hi,

I drove 30 miles and back to see my sleep doctor (60 miles).
(Why are my docs so far away? I live in a suburban metropolis. )

He was very nice.
He probably spent 25-30 mins with me.

I love that he did not have a 1-10 (1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10) question for me.

He asked me how Alert I was:
How is your alertness?
~good
~fair
~poor

I said poor. He asked a second question using the same scale. I am going to try to find a reason to use that scale at work tomorrow because it is wonderful. And if I use it, I will remember it.

I told him my anxiety is much worse than my depression.
He remarked that the anxiety explains why I was contained/ or something I forget.
I think he noticed that I was freaked out but trying to hold everything together.
(I got lost in the parking garage and needed to call his staff for directions to the office from the garage . . . do not think he knew that.)

[Mari]

Regarding enough meds to reschedule / postpone:
I probably have enough because three hours ago I picked up
~Verapamil
~Klonopin -- he wrote it slightly different
~Gabapentin

I probably have the Lamictal I need (because he probably scripted for 75 and I am taking 25) except I am not ahead on Verapamil and I am confused today ESP about the Klonopin and will not be making decisions until I get my head together.

I might need to go up to 50 on the Lamictal --- I am in low mood.


Mari

[bizi]

I hope that you are able to understand you stance on your klonipin, that being the most important med you have...IMO.
hope things become clearer for you and that your mood lifts. maybe the 50mg is a good idea?
bizi

[Dmom3005]

Mari

Good luck if you should decide to try going up on the lamictal.
Could I suggest you wait till at least Thursday night if not Friday night.

I'm not sure which would be better for you incase you have problems.

I also believe that you can think about maybe calling the first doctor
and rescheduling for after the other doctor if you find this one isn't
one you like.

I hope its one you like. Especially if closer.

Donna

[Mari]

I am in a very long meeting and doing the best I can not to do something wildly appropriate. So far i have limited mysel to rolling my eyes and grimacing and taking bathroom breaks.
I am as anxious as I have ever been.
'Could use a nap before I try to drive home.

[Mari]

I cannot edit much on my phone . . . I meant to use a different title on the last message
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I am tired and feeling crazy. The good news is that traffic has cleared out enough for me to drive home on quiet enough roads. I am trying to gather strength for that by listening to Guns N Roses before I go down to the car.
'Work tomorrow . . . do not feel like coming back here.

[Dmom3005]

Sorry you are having so much trouble with this.

Hoping you can get some rest.

Donna