[Mari]

Originally Posted by waves

does this mean you are not going to tomorrow's appointment, or is the jury out on out on that for now?

I will call the pdoc's office to change the appt to two or three weeks from now or tell them that I can wait to see him in July -- my appt I have for a while. This makes me feel weird about old tdoc.
She called me the day after she threatened to call 911. She asked how I was feeling. I said ok and that I was waiting for a call from the pdoc. She said to get back to her with a text or a phone call. Well I already had deleted her cell phone numer so no text and I have no update to call to leave on her office phone. If she does call I might need to tell her something.

My insurance company gave me an option where in they call the pdocs in my area and find out who has an available appt.

When I get home from being out, I will call to ask for that service. Then I will call the pdoc with the June option.

I am pretty sure I will want the next pdoc to

[Mari]

( . . . . typing from my phone)

Earlier ( first ) I called mdoc's office to ask for references. The phone messaage said that it could take 3 days to get back to me. I left my information.

I will want the new psychiatrist to have records from current pdoc before I get there --- at least dx and meds. I need the dx to say bipolar because my list of meds does not immediately say bp.
I probably first started seeing pdoc 10(ten) years ago when the old pdoc ( of 14 years or so )left town and sent a letter to all his patients. I was freaked out when I got that letter but things worked out for me I believe

Mari

[Mari]

Waves,

Thanks for being with me.

-->> I canceled the Thursday appt -- I had to do that with the service and did not get the office because I called after 3:00 when apparently the office phones switched to the service.

-->> I called my insurance company to ask that they find someone for me. They will get back to me in three to five business days.

-->> I have an appointment with the pdoc I was considering earlier: June 28 in the afternoon. She is two doors away from the new tdoc and only ten mins from my home.
The guy on the phone said that I can call in a few days to see if someone canceled so I can get in before the 28th.

During the chaos of the phone calls (reaching for my medical cards and such), I noticed I do not have my drivers license. I am going to deal with that later . . .. like maybe tomorrow. I did enough for now.

M

[waves]

Mari,

you have accomplished bunches in a complicated situation and unpleasant state.

The pdoc you made the appointment with sounds convenient... it would be great if she and the new T both worked out. I will be hopeful for you. And maybe there will be a cancellation. We'll just see what the insurance company comes up with too.

If you're anything like me, you probably have your driver's license... somewhere. If you ever change purses or have to take it out for anything it could be loose in your purse, or in a different compartment than usual. Once, I "lost" mine and went nuts looking for it. After maybe a couple weeks I figured I'd have to replace it (argh!) but I put on a pair of jeans I'd only worn once before and...ta-dah! It fell out of the pocket. Another time I "lost" an earring - for several months - on the armrest of my sofa. Yeah, in plain sight, just camouflaged by the upholstery.

Take it easy tonight. Do something relaxing. Maybe you can do your yoga DVD or just listen to nature sounds recordings.

Sometimes I really wish we had RESET buttons, like computers. (And I wish kids had OFF buttons, lol.)

I am exhausted from trying unsuccessfully to adjust to a day schedule. Despite the sleep deprivation and daytime exhaustion I perk up around midnight and can't sleep, ugh! I can hope my meds do something but they don't usually. So I don't know if I'll be around/awake or sleeping during the next several hours.

Anyway pamper yourself tonight. See you tomorrow if I'm not on later.

waves

[Dmom3005]

Mari

I think you are doing good getting things solved.

Donna

[bizi]

Mari, I think that you are amazing!
((((HUGS))))
bizi

[Mari]

Originally Posted by waves

Mari,
If you're anything like me, you probably have your driver's license... somewhere. If you ever change purses or have to take it out for anything it could be loose in your purse, or in a different compartment than usual.

Waves,

The diver's license was indeed found in one of my compartments.

on the armrest of my sofa. Yeah, in plain sight, just camouflaged by the upholstery.

Yes, that has pretty much happened to me before. That is why I do not look real hard for things sometimes. I call out and ask them to show up when the time is right. In most cases, they show up --- even if not on my time table.

Sometimes I really wish we had RESET buttons, like computers. (And I wish kids had OFF buttons, lol.)

I agree. And we could do reset for other things as well. . .

I am exhausted from trying unsuccessfully to adjust to a day schedule.

That movement of the body/mind clock is difficult but possible.
I wish you good sleep.

Mari

[Mari]

. . . astonished by the depths of depression I have . . . .

[Mari]

Hi,

Today, I got a call from my insurance company telling me that they found a psychiatrist who has an opening for June 5.
But the person on the voice mail read and spelled the name wrong. She left the phone number that is probably correct.
I found the phone number in a reverse number search that puts him in a practice near the old pdoc's office ( 45+ mins from me).
Think of name like this with the first and last name going either way: Bennett Barrett.
Anyway, I made lots of guesses and found him on the state's web site for License Verification.

• He looks fine.
• So does the therapist (looked her up before our appt last week)
• And the psychiatrist I have the appointment with at the end of June looks fine.

Now I do not know what to do. Today is not a good day to decide.

Mari

[waves]

Dear Mari

You now have options which is good. It is weird how sometimes this "advantage" is offset by the burden of decision making.

You don't sound well at all. Definitely not a day for decisions... but June 5th is almost two weeks away. You have time to let things settle down some and maybe in a few days you will have a feel for how to proceed.

Remember to be gentle with yourself.

(((hugs))) and good thoughts to you tonight.

waves