TBI/PTSD Thank you. I almost joined the Marine Corp years ago,but family asked me not to. I deeply admire your service in the Marine Corp. I'm sorry that you got hurt in the service for your country. I just wanted to let you know that.

There are several things that I wanted to be. A scientist,or a soldier,or a policeman. I was not able to do any of them. I kept getting emotional problems. BF

I am sorry that you suffer so steve.
((((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Thank you bizi. BF

Acceptance is the key brother. That is what I am learning anyway. Sometimes I don't get what I want, I get what I need. Thanks for your note, I can relate.

I met w my doc yesterday and he confirmed BP I is my diagnosis. I think it was Waves that said "if your PDOC did witness the mania himself, you may be 2" not at all a direct quote and I am sorry if I minced your words! Have a great Friday.

This makes total sense based on what you said about having been super manic.

Yes, it's me you are thinking of. I did say something about your paperwork maybe showing something other than BP1, if your pdoc had not seen you manic.

--------

How are you doing with the Latuda these days?

Have you seen improvement in any symptoms since increasing it to 40mg?

Take good care

waves

Hi there!

Just wondering how you are?

waves

I went to see out new house with my folks for 4 days. We didn't have Internet but I have been thinking about my BP peeps. I love the house, loved cleaning it and making it ours, loved establishing boundaries. I MUST have my space be my space, they didn't know but they do now. There will be more incidents I am sure. I went for an 8 mile run down Main Street I have always wanted to live in a place where I could do that. The sad thing is I really don't remember much of the trip. I am a little worried about that. We worked hard and my sleep schedule was way out of whack. We went to Lowe's but I can't recall going. I was with my mom....thank God. I bought my very own new toilet seat and some other stuff but I found the receipt since I got home and that reminded me. I took them to dinner and hardly remember. I don't remember setting up our beds with my Dad when we got there.

I am not sure if it is TBI, BP, I took an Ativan but that doesn't slick my memory like that. I was super tired and anxious and stressed too.

Anyway, I am back I have missed being in touch!

Hey TBI/PTSD I'm glad that things are going OK for you. I know what you mean about needing your space. If you can,try to get some rest. Moving can be stressful. BF

Oh that sounds great! I am happy for you. I totally understand about the space. I don't exactly have it but I am fortunate to have a roof right now. I do miss it though. I know how important it is. Lots of things I don't do because of lack of privacy.

Wow 8 miles is a long run. During the relatively short period that I ran, I worked up to nearly 3 miles... I cannot imagine doubling it let alone tripling it, LOL, but it sure does feel good doesn't it? I too liked to run outside, especially in rural areas. I like the natural sights, sounds and smells. Well, it could be benzo-induced anterograde amnesia. It can happen with any benzo and there can be isolated occurrences of it. This kind of amnesia would impact recall of events shortly before taking the benzo and can include events while under the influence. I had at least one incident of this nature with a benzo I took for years without problems.

In my case, I was in hospital, parents visited, I had psych testing in the morning. 10 days later I asked when they would do the psych testing. It turned out I did not remember my parents' visit either. When the doc mentioned aspects of the psych test, he sparked my recollection somewhat. Similarly, my parents were able to elicit partial memories of their visit. But the overall recollection remained very vague. I've read "prompting" can sometimes help with anterograde amnesia.

I've also read that benzo-induced anterograde amnesia is more likely in association to
-- stressful or traumatic events
-- insufficient sleep

In summary, I think it's quite plausible the Ativan in combination with the stress and lack of sleep could be at the root of this memory lapse, and that it could be an isolated thing. I'd discuss it with your doctor all the same.

Glad to see you back!



waves