I am sorry you are feeling under the gun about this. Wish it were easier for you.
If i remember right your parents were saying that you were being louder than usual....
that was maybe a week or so ago. and now the little need for sleep which is not good for us bipolar people. There could be no reason for getting manic no reason at all not saying that you are. Just verbalizing that sometimes I can get manic for no good reason it is just the way the beast works.
just concerned.
I could not open up your email this morning. thanks for remembering this is day one for me, I can use all of the support I can get. I got on the scale this morning and scared myself. this is the most I have weighed in over a year. not a happy camper....will have to really get serious about my eating habits. The not drinking should be helpful too. And I am going to go back to the gym more faithfully, no more excuses.
sorry that the pool did not work out for you today.
bizi

Bizi the little need for sleep is not just now - it has been this way maybe a month... I don't track it but it's been this way for weeks I can say that. Totally right about mania happenign for no reason it happened to me in spring and it went very fast, like it hit faster than I knew what was happening but I was a mess.

Maybe as long as the loudness... maybe one started a bit before than the other but probably not far apart. The parents shushing me is how i noticed the loudness and at the time they said AT LEAST two weeks - which was as far back as they could remember - it might have been more. I certainly couldn't remember. I asked because it was getting old getting shushed up so much. (Still happening, btw).

Along with that high energy, good mood (but to me just plain good, nothin' stellar), easily very excited and also riled both though -- more vivacious reactions in both cases, but no sulking or depression and no rage or anything.

And one other thing I won't say here. haha.

Oh and occasional spells of thoughts racing but not much.

Activation, definitely. Enough to call hypomania? dunno... who can say, but it seems mild despite the constellation of stuff. I really don't see this being to the point of mania because it just seems too mild to me -- my thinking seems linear enough and stuff -- that and I don't get like super antsy by the afternoon where I feel the need to guzzle alcohol or have someone whack me over the head.

waves

p.s. I excluded the swim stuff here, becaus that is more an ongoing thing not just something that happened to get past, plus I've had to research things / wanted to to try and make it work. Bit of disappointment also normal because I got really hyped and launched into it full force and maybe the initial hype and rush into things could be a bit not normal for me.

maybe a bit impulsive?
thanks for not getting upset with me about my post.
bizi

Yeah the swim thing was impulsive but i was also really reeeellly excited about it... that superexitement maybe was a bit extra extra but no major damage or anything.

np yu make valid point. just trying to explain all the other stuff... lots of it too. i think i am ok though.

thansk for your support!

love
waves

Well,

I slept more than 5 hours again last night -- about 7 hours. That's twice in the span of a few days, so maybe I am starting to level off.

We'll see. Energy, mood, all the other stuff still up there -- not complaining! NO mixed sx!

waves

Waves,

Right. I have done this but did not love it. Something tells me that serious swimmers do not notice the second or third swimmer as long as no one crashes into anyone else.

You can do your own stroke. You are expected to do what works for you.

Probably we should not be using the word "crash." Two people might swim into each other and depending on how fast they are going they might get hit. At most someone would be annoyed. Otherwise, both would go back to swimming. I hated focusing on staying in the lane because I had to have my eyes open or wear googles and that was a lot of work -- the watching the lane markers.

Form is more important than speed. You know that.

You are resourceful. These are good ideas.
I hope that someone cleans up the pool.

.I like the idea to go home in the wet suit.

People are indeed stupid. I try to cut them some slack. Maybe she was doign the best she could and she had other stuff going on that we do not know about. I know that sometimes I look stupid to others when infact I am working hard to manage.

THat should not have happened. People are morons. Some are careless morons.


I am going to read your other posts.
Mari

Waves,
Yeah. That is a stupid and entirely unhelpful response.
The pool is a "sunk" cost wether you go or not.
Go. Don't go. But at this point, your decision to go should not involve the money you spent.


I do not know where you are right now so I do not know if you think you might go back.

This might not be about only fitness. It is about doing something for yourself outside of the home.

It is easy to get thrown off plans I think because the plan is not part of a routine yet.
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Yes. I hope that you have stopped.

What a jerk. I am sorry that you had to see that.

Mari