Thank you Mari, I know you're right on all counts. I am a worrier but in this case I feel badly because I won't be able to help move stuff. Hopefully it will all go well, but we've just got two people helping us, my mom and dh's dad. It will be so awesome once we're there, Jackie will have a park to play on and we'll be taking him there almost daily.

You're right when you said we were sent this home by our guardian angel, I had given up on this place when I called another apartment complex to see if they had any openings and was told they didn't BUT that this other place we're approved for now did and to call there to reactivate our previous application. It was so difficult getting them all the paperwork they required but it's worth it in the end I think.

Thank you for your kind words, I feel better this morning. I know I will worry about things until we're in there sleeping there and living there, but hopefully it will not be nearly as bad as how I worried about whether we'd get approved or rejected based on our application. THAT was the most stress I have had since Jackie faced surgery on his tonsils and adenoids.

hang in there Pamster,
you can do this... you can do this....
(((HUGS)))
bizi

Thank you bizi, deep down I know I can too, but that floating anxiety I have just won't take a hike. I think it will work out all right it's just that I wish I could be more help then just packing stuff. Times like these I really hate my physical limitations. But I have to learn to accept myself as I am, my dh and my family have, so I should too.

It will all work out. Moving is stressful to begin with, and then the anxiety of everything you have to do to move.

Try and just take it a day at a time, it will all happen, and before you know it you will be all settled in.

Hang in there........Hugs, Nikko

Thanks Nikko, it's hard to try to live in the moment sometimes, especially when stressing about something looming a couple weeks ahead of you like this move. I am really glad I can talk with all of you about my feelings and I really appreciate all your support. Thanks everyone!

I know the waiting is the worst. Then living among the boxes and all until the big day. It's good that you can get the keys and start moving little things or some boxes you don't need, it helps. Even if you get the keys the day before or so.

Everytime I move, I start packing things that I know I won't be using, or knicknacks, books, stuff like that.

We are all here for you....Nikko

p.s. I hate packing, yet I don't mind unpacking.....LOL

Thank you Nikko, I really appreciate the moral support, it really helps so much. I wish I could just stop worrying about things but there's not an off switch for anxiety unfortunately. I am so grateful for this forum and for all of you, you really understand the trauma and the anxiety problems I live with and that really helps, being validated and understood really helps.

My dh doesn't really understand the anxiety factor, but he makes an effort to be there for me so I don't feel so isolated. I thank God for him every day, it's been about twenty years that we've been together off and on and I can't see myself with anyone else. I know you just broke up with Mike Nikko, and I wanted to say that I hope you find a really nice guy when you're ready to start looking again.

I lived on my own for a year and did okay, it was hard being alone, but I had my son and neighbors which helped because I didn't have a working computer for months into that year. It's so hard when you're isolated from people like I was back then, I really suffered a lot of anxiety before I got the dx of BP II. I am really glad I have a good T and that she understands I need the avitan to help with the anxiety that is just gut wrenching.

Two and a half weeks and counting. I hope it's going to be a smooth move, but I am sure we'll hit a snag or two but with my dh with me I won't be worrying nearly as much.