[Pamster]

Now it's the hard part, the long tedious waiting, I washed up all our non-essential kitchware and packed a storage tub full of cookware that we don't use daily and other plastic containers and such. It felt good to get the kitchen started since I have to clean it to a degree before we leave. I am so anxious to get this move over and done with. I packed away three garbage bags full of clothes and stuffed them behind the bean bag chairs in the walk in closet so I did a LOT today.

But also I am waiting to hear about this grant I applied for, called The Gift Of Freedom, check it out here:

http://www.aroomofherown.org/

Its a fifty thousand dollar grant over two years, and it's give to struggling women writers. I hope that my essays moved the judges and that they picked me. I wrote some of the best essays I've ever composed for this application package and I hope that it's enough that they will choose me to receive the grant so I could get a new car, pay off my wheelchair, get some dental implants, things like that.

SO I won't know until the middle of June before they announce the winner on their website. I am just wondering if they chose me and I've moved before they chose to inform me that they might be put off that we moved you know? I don't know, I am just worried because I put so MUCH effort into this process, it took me MONTHS to compose these essays, and if I am not the one they chose I plan on trying again in the next grant period, for 2009.

Not about to take NO for an answer on this one. So any tips on how I can get through the waiting? Besides day dreaming about living in the new place? Jackie will be in summer school by the time they update the site naming the winner, they updated recently and have four finalists listed which my name was not among the four so I am greatly encouraged that I will have been picked because they almost picked a mother with two handicapped children and I think they will appreciate the disability awareness I focus so tightly on in my writings.

HELP! I don't know how to make this waiting period bearable, I know each day it's closer to knowing and to being in the new place, but I am so anxious it's just driving me batty! Any advice for me is appreciated.

[Nikko]

Wow - you sure did get a lot accomplished, that's great!!!!!

I hope you win the contest......the only thing is to try and keep busy or get into a good book while waiting. I know easier said then done. I am not patient either. LOL

Wishing you the best of luck...........


Hugs, Nikko

[Pamster]

Thanks Nikko! I appreciate the advice, I have "Still Me" the Christopher Reeves Memoir to read here and I have never gotten into it, so maybe tomorrow I wills start on it. Thanks again for the luck, I need it because this is one hard competition.

[befuddled2]

Pam,

I don't know what to tell you. I know how hard it is to wait for things to happen but perhaps telling yourself that wishing time away is just wishing your life away.

befuddled2

[Mari]

Pam,
Good luck on the grant!
You worked hard for it.


M.

[BJ]

I know it's hard waiting Pam but time is so precious. You never know from one day to the next about the dreaded "time". So enjoy your time while you have it. Bottle it up and put it in your back pocket and next time you're pressed for time, pull it out and savor it.

[Pamster]

You're right, I guess I should just enjoy what time we have left here in the old place. It's not much longer until we're starting the real packing. I have to get some boxes from Walmart and hopefully get them packed away in the final days of our being here. I think I will work on cleaning out the cabinets which I cleared out yesterday, not that we have many, this place is like living in a mousehole or something. Thanks for the replies everyone! I will work on enjoying the moment.

[fiberowendy2000]

Its called hurry up and wait. Gotta love it!
Good luck!

[Pamster]

Thanks Wendy! I just got done cleaning out our Condiment drawer where all the ketchups and taco sauces are and it was a nasty job but I got the bad stuff thrown out and the good stuff packed into glad lock baggies so that's one more thing done and ready to go. I am still thinking I need more baggies so I am going to run off to the store and get some. Hope you have a great day Wendy!

[Nikko]

It won't be long now, you will be in your new place. I know how it is living among boxes and stuff. Yet, the more you get done the better you will feel.

One thing I have tried to do and think I am doing pretty well in, is live in the moment, otherwise I drive myself right up the wall with worry and other thoughts. I still have my days though.

Hang in there, your doing great!

Nikko