[Brokenfriend]

I don't understand why some dreams of specific bad experiences keep coming back in a different situational variation.

I dreamed about that supermarket job at least 2 different days this week. I haven't been there in years,and I still dream about the pain of it all. I still have nightmares,or vivid dreams about that manager.

I was doing the owner of the business's special jobs,and he was either jealous,or angry that he didn't have total control of me. I did the jobs that the owner wanted me to do,and did them well. I dreamed about her in my dream today when I was asleep also. I was pulled between the owner,and the manager. The manager would say do this,and the owner would say do that. When I told her what the manager said,she would say who signs your paycheck? She does.

There where so many problems growing yearly at that store. I could not stand it anymore because pressures were hitting me from different people who didn't let me pace myself. I just through myself into many tasks with all of my energies.

I was treated bad by many employees for no reason at all after years of working there. I was doing more,and more jobs before I had to move because the apartment complex where I lived was sold to another business. I consider this a blessing,but not at the time because of all of the trouble that I went through in the details of the move.

I don't know why these dreams keep coming back. Shouldn't I be getting over that job. I left that job in the beginning of 2005. I knew that place like the back of my hand. There where allot of people there with mean streaks,and secrets. BF BF

[anon1028]

I had dreams of my job from 2005 but that's just because that was the last place I work that before I got sick and is the last memory of work.

[Brokenfriend]

Originally Posted by markneil1212

I had dreams of my job from 2005 but that's just because that was the last place I work that before I got sick and is the last memory of work.

Hi markneil 1212. Welcome to the Bipolar forum. Brokenfriend

[Mari]

Originally Posted by Brokenfriend

I don't know why these dreams keep coming back. Shouldn't I be getting over that job. I left that job in the beginning of 2005. I knew that place like the back of my hand. There where allot of people there with mean streaks,and secrets. BF BF

Steve,

What you describe could be PTSD.


http://www.npr.org/blogs/health/2012...caused-by-ptsd

Scientists wanted to find out the reason why people with PTSD can't sleep and dream normally. One theory comes from Matthew Walker, a psychology researcher at the University of California, Berkeley. His particular interest lies in rapid eye movement, or REM. It's the time during sleep when a lot of dreaming occurs.

Walker's theory suggests that in people with PTSD, REM sleep is broken. The adrenaline doesn't go away like it's supposed to. The brain can't process tough memories, so it just cycles through them, again and again.

There is a medication that helps some people but it has side effects:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Prazosin
It is a blood pressure medication:
Prazosin

This medication has shown to be effective in treating severe nightmares in children and people with PTSD symptoms.[4] Veterans have also been treated successfully at Seattle's VA Puget Sound Health Care System (VAPSHCS) for sleep disturbance related to PTSD. Doses are lower for this purpose than for control of blood pressure.[4]

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/dr-dou..._b_422368.html

Recent research shows that the decision about what memories to keep and which to discard is made offline as we sleep. As we sleep our brain unconsciously sorts through our daily experiences, associates them with other memories, and decides which ones to discard and which to keep. So using high-blood pressure medicine to relieve nightmares and dampen the horror of traumatic memories, which seems so odd it first, makes good sense in light of how the brain uses the past to predict the future -- the mechanism of memory.

It is the fundamental mechanism of memory that captures people with PTSD in perpetual fear. The memory of the traumatic event is unforgettable because the stress and adrenaline of the experience engraved it permanently in memory, and the nightly repetition of the event in nightmares reinforces the memory like a stuck record, preventing them from getting past the event. Blocking the effect of adrenalin with the high blood pressure medicine prazosin breaks the cycle.

M

[Brokenfriend]

Mari Thank you. My NP says that I have a PTSD variant. I don't like these dreams,but I like to sleep.

Since I worked at that store for 14 years,the abuse is deeply engrained in my thoughts. I forgive them,but at the time I had become very angry with them,and their treatment towards me. Different people showed their different mean streaks,and in some of them their mean streaks went deep.

No one can control this. Not the Department of Human Services,or anyone will deal with this. BF

[Mari]

Originally Posted by Brokenfriend

No one can control this. Not the Department of Human Services,or anyone will deal with this. BF

Steve,

Ask them about the PTSD medication (also used for blood pressure).
It is generic.

It costs the Dept less money than specialized talk sessions.

I take a blood pressure medication for my anxiety/bioplar.

M

[Mari]

Hi, Mark,


I am sorry that you are not feeling good.

M

[Brokenfriend]

On a work day before I entered the store,I'd see pictures in my imagination of being fussed at,or screamed at while walking into the door on my way to my locker.

When I did things fast,It could cause me to get hyper sometimes,and obsessive,but I got allot of work done. It took it's toll on me though.

I would advise anyone working out there to pace themselves,especially if you have anxiety problems. Remember to (((Pace Yourself))). BF