[bizi]

Thought I would start a new thread.

WEll I am back and was so afraid to get on the scale after my over indulgent vacation. As I have said before...I am either on a diet losing weight or I am gaining weight. I wish I could learn to maintain. I now weigh the most that I have weighed in years and my scrub pants are so tight.
I have decided to give my liver a break and abstain from drinking any mood effecting beverages, I think if I drink just water it will help with my weight loss.
I just started a liver detox cleanse, it lasts 3 weeks.
My sisters and I are going on a 4 night cruise to celebrate our 50th birthdays this year. I hope to be in shape by then. It will be in feb. that gives me 8 months to be in a bathing suit.
Wish me luck.
This will be the hardest challenge for me. Time to make an appointment with my therapist again.
bizi



I am on day three of caffeine free and have had a slight headache which they say is normal but that it should only last about 3 days. we'll see.
I have been drinking this cinnamon tea that I like. Tastes really good and sweet with out any sugar just plain rooibos, not sure of the spelling and am too lazy to get up and go look at the box. lol
Cutting out sugar from my diet has been very hard. I have an unopened big bottle of mango margaritas that I put away for now.
Ate healthy today. turkey meatloaf and kale and chard and beets for lunch.
Had left over pesto chicken and lentil soup and a big salad with feta cheese for dinner.
Day 3 of my cleanse and it is not working.....
I don't know what I am going to do.
bizi

[waves]

Dear Bizi

well i simply must inaugurate the new thread with a post.

you won't normally see "results" from a detox/cleanse in 3 days. Please be patient.

Also be aware things might feel worse before they feel better. That happens often with cleansing/detox protocols.

Hats off to you for embarking on this healthier eating. I wish you well regarding the bathing suit for Feb... I know I would not want to go near one just now lol.

Keep us posted regarding how you go forward with the therapist.

(((hugs)))

[Mari]

Dear Bizi,

You are doing great. You lay out a good plan for yourself.

M

[Dmom3005]

Bizi

We are hear to listen when you need.

I think yo will do just fine. Just keep at it.

And yes, one of the best things to drink is water. And it gets easier
all the time to drink water. I learned how much as time went on.

I stopped and missed it. And am back at it again.


I am not eating as healthy as I should, but lots of the reason is
its to hot. But as long as I eat, I feel its okay.

I found out yesterday as long as they have a little give in them.
I can wear a 16w, in blue/black jeans. Wow, this is something
I don't believe I have done, in 3 or 4 years.

I was so proud of me. I bought a new outfit.

Donna

[bizi]

good for you Donna! Happy for you that you bought yourself a new outfit.
I need new clothes, I need new capris. all of mine are too tight....sigh
I live in my scrubs during the weekend and have been wearing moo moos sun dresses on the weekends.
bizi

[Addy]

Dear Bizi...

I see photos of you and I would NEVER, in a thousand years, think of you as heavy!! I'm not saying this to make you feel good about yourself... but to give you my perspective (from way up here in Canada!).

I've "known" you for several years... and of course, known "of" you for even more. I have a soft spot in my heart for you - and part of it is because I "know" and love your Momma, my friend, Alffe. But the biggest reason I admire you is for your compassion, your sensibilities and for continually seeking to better yourself. You're smart! and.. Like many people here in these forums, you're constantly growing.

Growing.... now, there's an interesting choice of words... which we can chose to read 2 ways.
1. Physically growing... our bodies change regularly.
2. Mentally growing... that's the one I meant

I was moved to respond, several times... but held myself back wondering if my observations would be helpful here. I read tremendous support from the Dmom, Mari and Waves. They gently remind you of what you may or may not already know... and more importantly, they're pulling up a chair and listening.

This jumped out at me again today:

As I have said before...I am either on a diet losing weight or I am gaining weight.

Patterns... yuck... I get so down on myself when I repeat a pattern... but the ticket is, I am now much quicker to recognizing the path... as I think you are, too, Bizi... its the "wrong" path for you... keep trying to find the right now, my friend.

Last night I watched a repeat of a "Nature of Things" documentary which featured Dr. Gabor Mate. This man started me on my path of helping me figure out myself (over 12 years ago) when my youngest son was dx'ed with mild tourettes syndrome and adhd. (<< amazing that I have 4 possessive ME's in that sentence - shows how connected I was in playing a role in my son's development!) Last night's documentary reminders can be seen here in this 10 minute video - when you've got the time... I encourage you to listen to it. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CadOdHUGfwU Dr. Mate works with extreme heroin addicts and his discoveries of how our minds and bodies are connected is amazingly deep. This video is only a snippet.

(((Bizi))) ... its a tumultuous time in this world... and I may be bold to say, its worse than anything humans have ever experienced. Let's all reach out for each other!

Addy