slept late, 143 this am.
worked yesterday, all is good, thankful for my job.
hubby wants to go to breakfast so I better get dressed. The newspaper awaits my return. It takes me hours to read it.
I have much paperwork to do today, behind in billing, charting the usual.
have a great day!
bizi

Had a great breakfast of scrambled eggs with spinach topped with zippy black bean salsa, yum and a side of brocolli. delicious!
came home and read the paper(only 2 hours this time, I did not read it cover to cover). Did one big load of laundry and put that away.
For dinner I sauteed lemon pepper talapia in grape seed oil. and steamed some frozen mixed veggies, squash, carrots, califlower and onions and red peppers. very tasty!
Finished the billing and some filing but did not touch the charting. Charting can wait, billing can't!
Hubby is picking up a red box movie rental, some scarey movie.
I was going to pick up some ice cream that I saw earlier at the store. chocolate mint, my favorite.
on sale a pint for $1
I resisted but just now toyed with going back and seeing if they had any left.
I refrained from doing that now that I remember it has 640 calories for the pint which I would eat the entire thing knowing me!
so I will have a piece of fruit...
I was thinking about drinking alcohol tonight...
(I even have some in the house which is dangerous!)
but decided that I did not want to give up on my self.
I "said that this would be a dry june"
gosh darnit!
bizi

hey bizi
be proud of yourself for saying no to the alcohol it is a good step you sound like you are getting it together with getting the bill payed and filing done get yourself a pat on the back and feel proud

Very healthy too.
I am wanting some your scrambled eggs with zippy black bean salsa about now. ;)

But I think I'll have to make do with watermelon! :D
Prioritizing is good! :)
Good for you, Bizi! You can do it!! :Dancing-Chilli:

Hi, Bizi, :hug::hug::hug:

Thinking of you and hoping that you persevere in you goals.

M

thanks you guys! have to get moving, slept restlesly due to being uncomfortable woke up several times to use the bathroom then finally got some sleep until I got up at 7;45 before the alarm. Read the newspaper and had 2 cups of coffee.
Getting psyched up to take a shower....
before my 10am appointment, "they" live about 10 minutes from here so easy drive and plenty of time to shower and get dressed if I am focused.
I spoke with "them" on the phone last week...the name is carrey but could not figure out if it was a male or female voice. Jeff said assume it is female...anyway it will be a surprise!
Watched out of the dark last night...good movie. Ate a pear and an apple and some kettle corn yummy! Satisfying...but I would have rather had the ice cream:)
Have a great day!

Bizi,

That is a creepy move. Was it scary?
I love popcorn any time of day.

Have a good day.


M

we liked the movie a lot.
It was really interesting. the trailer spoiled the movie.
That is why I rarely watch trailers and I did not for this one.
IT was a little haunting.
It was not gross. I thought it was well done and creepy.;)
bizi

well today I ate well:
2 cups of coffee with half and half and stevia sweetener.
lunch was stuffed talapia with shrimp and spinach, purple carrots, collards and a piece of bread "pudding"..think cinnamon, raisins, thick moist cake. Not a big piece.
I snacked on some almonds before dinner.

Jeff cooked dinner: sauteed 4 oz of chicken in a peanut thai sauce, was not spicy and 1 cup steamed califlower, and half an avacado. 2 dark chocolate kisses= yum!
Went to the gym tonight and walked 3.5 miles in an hour and my leg felt fine while walking.
Even though the quad lateral muscle is still sore getting up and down out of a chair etc. I am so much better. I came home and did a modified pigeon stretch which is hard to do.
I am supposed to start doing squats and lunges and leg presses when I am healed. Think I will go to the gym tomorrow and talk with the trainer. She may have some ideas about specific exercises and when I should start them.
I did shower this morning. Last week I went a whole week with out showering:o.....this not jogging and sweating and then needing a shower is killing me. I want my routine back.
sigh
Feeling a bit peckish, maybe I will just have a lime greek yogurt that sounds good!
Jeff is at Pauls, his best friends house. My friend Susan stayed in north carolina with her sister while her hubby drove back with his daughter.
I believe she will stay there until friday and come home then he will drive her to his sisters farm in wisconsin where she will stay for weeks I hope. I think she could work on the farm and feel good about it. It would be good therapy for her. And her daughter stay here and will sleep at her friends because Paul will be gone for 5 weeks, he teaches at a summer camp music for kids. Makes good money doing it. And Abigail new high school grad, will be working at sonic 30 hours a week. and if susan stays at the farm she can work on herself. She texted me that she was having non stop anxiety.
She started taking lamictal weeks ago.... very small dose and I could not see that was a side effect of it. I read some posts from people saying that it really helped with their anxiety. She was put back on zoloft. and is taking hormones due to menapausal symptoms.
estrogen with progesterone.
I wonder if that could be causing all of this anxiety. He did switch her from xanax to ativan don't know the doses.(.5mg 3 times a day????), maybe that is the problem?
Any way. needless to say I feel sad for her and frustrated with the medications not helping her.:(
anyway....
I am sure that Paul needed to vent to jeff who is still not home yet.
Earlier I did the check book and some of my business stuff. May was a slow month for me...don't know why but that always makes me nervous.
My twin texted me pictures of my nieces graduation pictures from the police academy. Today! She already has a job with the sheriffs dept. She was the only graduate that had a uniform on...she had kept that a secret from them, small group of grads.
Very proud day!:)

Now where is that yogurt?
bizi

jeff came home and told me the story it is not good. :(

Bizi

I always love reading about your day and eating. I'm hoping things
start to look up for Susan.

donna :hug::grouphug:

Thanks Donna, I do too.:(
While she was in N.C., well rather she still is there....sorry
while her husband was still there they ended up taking her to a psych hospital, for 11 hours which sounded dreadful. She was not admitted.
She may be flying home on friday...
don't know for sure.
Ate too much tonight. We had gone out for cheap boiled crawfish.
It was not a good experience.
Had char broiled oysters that were not that good. And the crawfish stuck to the shell and they shredded apart and did not taste all that good. Corn and potatoes were good. Dipping sauce was fair.
WE are so used to dwights and love their food but alas the crawfish season is almost over, dwights stopped last week, *sniff sniff.
Going to a greek restaurant tomorrow with my lunch buddies instead of Sandras.
I have a busy day tomorrow need to go to bed early tonight.
bizi

My leg is getting better every day I can feel it less of an issue.
I was a drenched rat yesterday when I got caught in the rain so had a rain coat today. I put 92 miles on my car today and managed to stay out of the rain for the most part. Drove thru a down pour!

Had a great lunch at the greek place. Ate off the buffet but did not over do it and only had one plateful. But at $12 I don't think I ate my moneys worth. Had cardamon tea with honey and milk. did not taste any different but is supposed to be very healthy. grilled chicken pieces, tabouli, grapeleaves, hummus and 2fried eggplant halves. It was good.
There ended up just being 4 of us.

After lunch I went to see emily my 56 year old client who lives in an assisted living home, She had fallen and broke her shoulder a month ago. felt sorry for her. I have seen her for years and she has some sort of autism, mental deficiency but we connect and our visits are great.

I had a new client this afternoon,"miss priss" in her 70's I think.
She was a smoker, lung disease...wears oxygen when she is in the house...not smoking. She has hired help. Getting over pneumonia, has a terrible cough. She kept me waiting inside while she finished her cigarette....also has diabetes and was eating fried pork fat and offered some to me. It is called cracklins. I gracefully declined.
She told me she used to live in brazil and would get pedicures for 25 cents. That some times she would get 3 pedicures in one day. I told her she was spoiled! I gave her a good pedicure but really just wanted to leave, hope she doesn't call me back....am I a bad person for that....?
I am used to geriatric patients.
anyway.
I saw an Alzheimer pt after her. Sweet bell she lets me do her pedicures but doesn't want me to put lotion on her...which is the best part of a pedicure!
She is very frail, walks with a walker and help and has 24 hour around the clock sitters. I see her every 2 months.
For the most part I love my job. Thankful for the work and my ability to do the work.
Jeff cooked baked teryaki ginger salmon for dinner tonight with green beans and half an avocado. couple of strawberries and 2 hersheys dark chocolate kisses. Delicious!

Went to the gym and and walked on the tred mill for an hour and tried to do a weight machine...I am not ready for that yet.Did a pigeon stretch and even that was hard, tight to do. Tried to do a lunge and that was really hard to do. yesterday I tried to do a squat and could not do that. I am so out of shape.

Jeff just came home from having a few beers with a friend. Going to watch another x-files episode and go to bed.

bizi

Bizi,

You have a lot of compassion for your patients.

It is good to hear about the leg improving.

Hubby likes cardamon tea. I buy the whole spices for him and he uses his pestle and mortar.
People use cardamon in dessert foods and baked goods. 'Can be in oatmeal, on a sweet potato . . .


Have you had pork rinds?
They are zero carbs and can be used in cooking -- like as a type of breading for fish and other foods.
http://www.genaw.com/lowcarb/peggys_ovenfried_fish.html

I do not let the pedicurists put lotion on me. Sometimes I am even slightly rude about it (I do that to make a point and so that they remember) (I guess everyone is different.)

Take care.

M

Bizi,

We have Pork Scratchings over here, made from the skin and fat from the back legs of bacon pigs. Cut into strips about half an inch long and fried to leave a thick layer of fat attached, then heavily salted.

We buy it in little bags, normally with a Pint in the Pub. It is not a snack for diets or those with heart problems - it is addictive. It is also lucky to find a piece with a hair still attached:D

Boy, do I miss them!

Dave.

yes dave that is them I do believe.
and mari I have tried pork rinds before...not fond of them on several levels.
thank you for your kind words to me.
bizi

tonight was a hard night.
I WANTED TO DRINK SO BADLY!!!!!!
We went to this dinner that at first I was not going to go..then was encouraged to go from a friend who was going to be there. so I went.
there was another couple there and I was talking to her, she was very nice and I was so self concious and in my head was wolfie telling me that I needed to go out and buy some alcohol to deal with this. I was not even able to have a conversation with her.
sigh
Social anxiety sucks.
I resisted.
this is day 11, I said it was going to be a dry june, gosh darnit!
I just started my cycle today...sigh
That is why I got up early because my back ached....AH HA!!!
I heard from my friend.
She said that she was better today! and that she found an OCD website that she could relate to! so this is positive!
not sure what she is doing this summer, yet don't think she knows.
The farm in wisconsin is still an option for her...which I think is a great idea, farm therapy.
Will just have to wait and see how this turns out.
Feeling so stressed at the dinner that I was holding my head and my friend asked me if I had a headache and I said yes.....
I used that as an excuse to leave early.
sigh
If I had been drinking I would have been able to tolerate the dinner.
I have a low tolerance threshold.
bizi

oh bizi
sorry that it was a hard night but practice makes it easier don't despair it will get easier with time I am proud of you for not going out and buying alcohol well done and you should give yourself a pat on the back for effort.

dianne

Bizi,

I have been using the headache reason for a long time.
It is vague enough but potentially serious enough.
One time one person asked me if it was a migraine. I had the good sense to say no. He started giving me migraine advice. Weird.

Your friend's ocd possible DX could explain a lot.
I think pdocs can get distracted if there is other drama involved and
miss something that 1. is huge and 2. potentially treatable.

Does she like the farm in Wisconsin? Does it have pdocs within driving distance?

M

Bizi, it's ok that you let your friend believe you had a headache. People do mostly accept headaches as a reason not do things, but because it is a common excuse, people do sometimes think it is made up, even when it is real. Socially, it wouldn't matter much if you are believed or not. Even if they thought it was an excuse, the message would be, "I am having an issue right now that is too personal to explain, please don't ask me anything else."

IKR. That is annoying as all get out even when one does get migraines... :rolleyes: but especially if one is in the middle of one!

And I forgot to say... but more importantly...

Well done, Bizi,for making it through that evening without any alcohol. :)

It sounded very hard indeed, but you DID IT! :yahoo:

waves

I am unsure about the farm. That is certainly a good question.


thank you for your support....you all are part of my support team.

bizi

Hi, Bizi,

I hope that your Friday goes well.

M

I spoke with susan tonight. She sounded better. :)Did not know when she was coming home. She is staying with her one sister and her other sister is coming to visit on the 19th so she will be in north carolina for a few days after that. I asked her if she was going to the farm, she said that was an option.
It was good to hear from her....did not really learn much but is reassuring that she called me. Oh I forgot....can't rmember if I told you this but her mother has been in the hospital for 3 months and can't be weaned off the vent. Her mother is basically in a vegetative state. Her father can't just let go of her and let her die in peace she has been like this for 8 years, she had several strokes long ago. I wonder if all of the daughters coming together are trying to talk some sense into him. so very hard.
WE went out and had pizza for dinner, jeff did not feel like cooking and I got home late from work at 6;30pm.
It was a very yummy pizza, we each had our own.
mine was called the garden, (meatless), olive oil sauce, onions, mushrooms, garlic, spinach, tomatoes, artichokes, feta and mozzarella cheese plus jalepenos. It was delicious!
WE also ate some onion rings which were good too.
Now I am stuffed and it is getting close to bed time.
I am working tomorrow.
Have to get up earlier than normal. Agreed to go out of town for a 9 am appointment.
Jeff and I have taken a walk around the neighborhood about 2 miles it is cooler after all of the rain that we have been having.
Can't remember if I told you that they finished the shed, roof fixed and painted it looks so nice. WE finally had the dining room chandelier installed and jeff got a new outlet in his bathroom. So we got those two projects crossed off our list!
supposed to rain all weekend!
bizi

Well today went very well. In fact it turned out to be an excellent day!
Up early before the alarm went off. Coffee and out the door at 8:30am.
Saw 2 clients and picked up Jeff (His car has some sort of electrical problem and is unreliable...the car has an appointment on tuesday)and went to lunch. Had delicious chicken and sausage gumbo, like our usual Saturdays.
Dropped him off at home and then saw 3 more clients, getting home before 5. Even though it rained off and on all day, I managed to stay dry!
When I got home, Hubby was drinking a beer so I decided to make some coffee and had 2 cups. Jeff made dinner tonight, sauteed boneless pork chops and steamed mixed veggies and 2 kisses. It was very tasty!
After dinner I changed out of my scrubs and into a long summery Orangey cotton sleeveless dress for Art walk. Think down town Art galleries staying open until 9 pm and serving free wine and snackies. This is the event that happens every 2nd saturday of the month.
We frequently partake in this activity.
We usually see people we know and have fun seeing the art.
Packed with 2 small umbrellas because it has been raining off and on all week (rain forecasted for next week as well) we started at one of the smaller galleries. WE probably went thru 6 galleries total.
The only thing I ate all night was some fresh fruit at the first stop, a bank: pineapple and strawberries and a piece of melon. Refreshing!
Water from a wine glass was the only thing I drank and that was very unsatisfying. So I ditched the wine glass pronto! There was a recycling container on the street which I was happy to see!
I survived an art walk even though they were serving free wine!:)
The last gallery we went to was the ACA, Acadiana Center for the Arts.
There are many rooms/spaces there housing beautiful artwork this month.
The Artist Mare Martin was being exhibited in the main gallery.
She is from a neighboring town called Opelousas which is about a 45 minute ride from here in Lafayette Louisiana.
The huge main gallery was filled with her work.
WE LOVED THE EXHIBIT!
So much so that I overheard a guest speak to one of the curators and followed them to a piece of work that she had a question about. I then spoke with this man about how much I loved her work. And was curious about one of the pieces for sale. At the front desk, he introduced me to Mary the other curator. Well I gushed on and on to Mary about how much I loved the show. Price sheet in hand, we went back into the main gallery and she told us the price of one of the pieces that we loved was $3,000. I thought she was going to say $5,000. She then took me around to other pieces and told me their prices. She said we should buy a new piece of art every year. We closed the place down. Security locked the doors behind us as we left.
Much to think about.
WE came back home and talked about some of the work that we saw and where it could fit into our home and we really don't have any wall space for a big piece except for our bedroom.
I did a face book search and a google search to see if she if she has a site.
Nope.
There was a link that led to a gallery in New Mexico but unfortunately could not find any art work to view once at the site.
Rats.
We decided the only way we could afford her work would be to take it out of our vacation fund and we did not want to do that.
So that is that.
It was very exciting to be in the ACA Gallery and see so much good work there. Best group of work that we have seen in a long time.
Between 2 cups of coffee and going GAGA over her work, I became a bit dizzy and had to write this day out.
I am feeling a bit peckish so will have an apple.
Jeff is practicing and watching the bride of frankenstin.
What a great day!
bizi

What a lovely evening you had!

I love her pieces.

https://maremartin.wordpress.com/abo...-and-her-work/

https://maremartin.wordpress.com/current-exhibition/
Current Exhibition

https://maremartin.wordpress.com/

Check out her Studio and Garden... beautiful

thank you lara, you are a genius!
love the levity new work on the home page at her web site:
www.maremartin.com
bizi

Sounds like you enjoyed the evening a great deal, as did I just now, through your telling. :)

It's nice too, how you and Jeff discussed the practicalites of buying something from this artist. Sounds like your feet are firmly planted on the ground right now. :hug:

thank you waves, I loved her sketches...full of details etc. Did you look at her Levity piece? she used to be a landscape designer, some of those drawings were exhibited as well from the 90's.
bizi

I did not follow the links when I posted before -- I just enjoyed your step by step description.

I looked at the Levity piece just now... the way she captures light is amazing.

At the gallery there was one wall filled with some of her sketches/studies for different paintings. Fascinating! the minute details that she wrote/observed where so special.
bizi

Bizi,

I missed your update :):):)

I hope that you are doing well.


M

I am bloated and have pain in my pelvic area, never have had this before. lots of pressure when I walk, have tempted to call in sick this morning and go back to bed. It started last night, thought maybe it was a high constipation, not sure. very uncomfortable in pain this am. Maybe just gas pains????

bizi

It really could be 'just' gas bizi. Gas is under-rated, lol.

Avoid milk, eggs, beans, and cruciferous vegetables for a few days.

Chew on some fennel seed a few times per day (2-4 times spaced out). Eat about a teaspoon of it at a time if you can. More will not hurt you btw, just chew well.

:hug:

Is the fennel an anti gas seed? It is too late to get some tonight I am just seeing this and jeff has the car, his is in the shop.
I took 2 gas-x last night, it said only take 2 in a 24 hour period. So I will take some more tonight.
I am on my period but this is not cramps. I do use tampons.....
Of course I worry about having some awful female disease....
bizi
I have not changed my diet at all....
sorry friend if you are reading this..

Bizi,

I was hoping that it would be better by now.
Maybe if you are up to it, try light exercise --- like some walking.

Perhaps anise seed, caraway seeds, fennel seeds.

M

hi mari, thanks for the suggestion of fennel seeds waves suggested that too.
I will get some today.
I took extra magnesium last night hoping to "go" today...I guess it has been a few days since I went.still bloated this morning. I have not been to the gym, not walked on the tred mill for about 5 days. That could be contributing to the problem. I will go tonight. Making that a priority.
thank you for your support.
bizi
golly I hope it is nothing serious. I am not a good patient. I have a low pain tolerance. If I am not better in a few days then I will go to the walk in clinc and see if I can get an ultra sound.

I am feeling better today after a bath room trip.
Took your suggestion about the fennel so I picked some up at the health food store that I frequent and took 3 pills of crushed fennel. I also bought organic yogurt so i had some of that. I already take a probiotic at night.
I don't know if it was the smartest thing for lunch today: lentils and black beans. oh well. still bloated with pressure in my pelvis area.
I hate this.
bizi

Bizi,

Look at a low FODMAP food plan for tonight and tomorrow.
http://www.webmd.boots.com/healthy-e...e/fodmaps-diet

http://fodmapdietrecipes.blogspot.co...food-list.html

>Chicken soup with rice/potato

>Fish with rice/potato

Bananas
Raspberries
Strawberries
Blueberries
Cranberries
Honeydew melon
Cantaloupe melon
Grapes
Grapefruit
Lemon/lime
Oranges
Kiwis
Pineapple

Carrots
Celery
Tomato
Green beans
Squash
Spinach
Potatoes
Zuchinni
Yams/sweet potato

M

Thank you mari,
That was overwhelming.....
Had chilli with beans tonight, jeff cooked so i appreciated his meal.
This sounds alot like a paleo diet. the gluten free, no dairy, no legumes.
bizi

IT hurts below my belly button all the way down to my pelvic bone, I am puffy every where and it hurts when I push in, sides are fine.
sigh
bizi