Those are good goals, Kay.

I hope that you went to the club and that things worked out.

M

I was actually able to do 24 minutes on the exercise bike!!! When I wasn't getting out of the house I wasn't getting anywhere close to that. It's something good to build on. My legs are very sore though. I'm only going to weigh myself once a week. I think that's enough.

I did go to the club and I just reported directly to the kitchen ;) I cut 2 big sacks of potatoes into french fries. I enjoyed it.
I had a nice long conversation with a nice man who is very easy going. He suffers from BPII. He has had a lot of issues in his life because of it, including some legal issues, but it sounds like things are finally starting to improve for him. He seems so much better than the last time I saw him about a month ago. I'm very happy for him.
I had to convince yet another person I didn't work there because he said I "look too pulled together." lol. If he only knew… He did a great deal of proselytizing, which ordinarily bothers me, but given the environment, I just thanked him for his concern for me, and told him that I thought it was beautiful that he could find comfort in God, and meant it. I don't know his diagnosis, but he said he refuses to take meds.


My husband came home in an absolutely vile mood. He had a terrible day, dropped his iPhone, and cracked the screen. After he took a shower and calmed down a little, we drove to the AT&T store. I asked him to pull over and let me drive because his road rage was out of control, but he wouldn't. We didn't realize he had bought the insurance. So, instead of hundreds of dollars, it's only a $99 deductible to replace it :):):) Instead of being happy, he yelled and swore at everyone the whole way home.
We had problems because he couldn't remember his username or password for the AT&T site. He ended up locking himself out of the website trying to guess rather than requesting the info be sent to his email address as I suggested. Then I got locked out of the insurance website trying to use his SSN as his passcode, not realizing he never set up a passcode for the AT&T account. I ended up calling AT&T customer service and resolved all the issues after 2 straight hours of his yelling and swearing.

Hopefully he comes home in a much better mood today. I got an email with the tracking info for the phone. Fedex will have it here by 8pm tonight. After he wipes the old one clean I'll send it back to the insurance company.

I'm going to go to PetCo today to buy cat food and litter. I'm also going to the butcher shop and the grocery store. I am going to leave the heavy things in the trunk for my husband to bring in this time.

Tomorrow I have to go back to the club to do some work with the administrator. I know I have to set some goals for myself. For some people that means re-entry into the workforce. That would be nice, but highly unrealistic.

glad that you got to work in the kitchen!
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Thanks Bizi, I do like working in the kitchen. One of the guys got me a little stool and set me up with everything I needed. Then he took away all of the potatoes when I was done because I couldn't carry the pot. I cleaned my workstation myself.

I'm heading over to the club today to get the goal something-or-other done around 10:30am. It will take about half an hour. I don't think I'll be staying much longer than that. I'm going to test to see if I can carry the quilt, etc to bring it to the laundromat, and will go if I can manage it. I also have things I want to get done at home.

My husband came home in a great mood! I had his phone for him when he got here. I knew he didn't remember his email password, and would need it to set up his account on his new phone, so I retrieved it for him before it became an issue. It was nice to have him in such a nice mood :)

He hasn't been drinking during the week for a couple of weeks now, but drank a lot last night. In my opinion, he is still doing well and I told him so.

I planned on getting on the exercise bike when I got home from running errands yesterday. I'm glad I didn't do it in the morning. I got plenty of exercise running around and my legs were screaming at me all day. I took a 3 hour nap. I'm going to get on there before I get into the shower this morning though.

I hope everyone has a good day :)

Great that your hubby was in a good mood.
good luck with all that you are doing today!
Have a nice weekend!
bizi

I only managed 14 minutes on the exercise bike yesterday morning vs. the 24 I was able to do on Wednesday. I was very sore the day after, so I probably pushed it too hard the first time doing it in so long. I have been active doing errands as well. I'll probably stick to 15 minutes again today to be on the safe side, then play it by ear.

I showed up to the club yesterday to do the goals thing, but the admin 1) forgot I was coming and was in the middle of something else when I got there and 2) we couldn't do it because the program wouldn't run. I know it wasn't her fault the program wasn't working, but I was not happy because I was waiting there for 45 minutes and would have much rather have stayed home. I really wasn't feeling up to going out to begin with. I tried to hide the fact that I was ******, but I don't think I'm very good at that. She asked if I could come in on Monday to get it done. I told her I would try, but may not be up to it. No promises.

I had already decided to go to the laundromat yesterday since I was going out anyway, so all my linens were in my trunk. I felt like crap, but I wasn't about to haul it all back into the house and make up the bed with dirty sheets in order to take a nap. It took less than 2 hours to wash/dry/fold. I used a jumbo washer and I'm worried I might have used too much detergent and it didn't all rinse out, despite the extra rinse cycle I paid for. I hope we don't get rashes… that would be just wonderful. The last thing I want to do is have to go back to the laundromat.
I was very self-conscious while I was there because while I was moving around my sleeves kept riding up and my scars were visible. I had to keep pulling them back down repeatedly. I was very uncomfortable.

I had another 3+ hour nap when I got home. I did not want to get up.

I have no plans to go out today. It would take a lot to convince me to go anywhere. I'm exhausted.

That was one hell of a day, kay.
sorry about the mess up at the center, waiting for nothing is not any fun.
rest today my friend.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

KAY


Good work on the bike. Continue to monitor and take it easy if necessary.

That was obnoxious of the administrator that you sat for so long for the program goals thing.

Laundry is so hard because (1) it has to be done and
(2) can take a lot work/time/planning/stress/physical labor/certain focus.

M

I let the sheets and towels build up with the idea of taking them to the laundromat with the quilt in mind. I'm back on schedule and have 2 loads of regular wash to look forward to on Monday or Tuesday. Yay! It takes longer to do here and eats up a lot of time.

15 minutes on the bike was plenty. I won't get back on until Monday morning. My goal was only 5 days a week for now anyway. I will weigh myself again on Tuesday.

Showing up to the club for nothing on Friday was my second negative experience in a row there. The first being an incident with the director on Wednesday. Basically the girl selling lunch tickets sent me to look for something I couldn't find, so I asked the director for help, but she didn't listen to what I was looking for, who sent me, or why. She also didn't listen to the answers I gave to her repetitious follow-up questions, even though I was not having any communication issues. It was so frustrating. She then enlisted a third person and asked the stupid ****ing question, "Is somebody selling lunch tickets?" That person was confused as to why she was asking the question with me standing next to her, and asked what was going on. I said, "She didn't listen to one goddamn word I said." I would never go to the director for anything if I was having an off day. I can't imagine what it must be like for anyone who has trouble communicating to deal with her when she's like that.

I have patience with people who are ill or have disabilities, but I hold others to different standards. I'm highly judgmental of doctors and people in the mental health field now for good reason. I hope I will have more positive interactions with the staff because I won't want to go there anymore if there are ongoing issues. I don't need the stress.

I'm probably not going to want to go out Tuesday or Wednesday because we're expecting heavy rain and thunderstorms. I plan on going to the club today to finish the work I need to get done with the administrator, but I'm going to call first to be on the safe side. I probably won't stay for lunch because I have to get a couple of errands out of the way.

I didn't mail back my husband's broken phone on Friday because when I read the instructions I realized he was supposed to remove the battery (but include it in the box) before shipping. He refused to do that, so I'm returning it as is today. I'm glad he reminded me to do it last night because I'd forgotten all about it.

I weighed myself this morning and I actually gained a pound. I'm not happy about it. It may be because I've dramatically increased the amount of water I've been drinking though. I'll be back on the bike for another 15-20 minutes this morning… I'll see how it goes.

I've been trying to train Buddy to stay on my lap while I'm on the computer instead of climbing all over the desk and printer. I've been too lenient. The results have been so-so. Yesterday he had ants in his pants, got on the printer and dangled his gross kitty litter foot in my coffee. This morning he's been a good boy and has stayed on my lap.

Now that I'm leaving the apartment more often, the cats are more affectionate in general. Buddy's always been very affectionate with me, but he's really all over me now. It's driving my husband crazy. I think he's just jealous ;)