I should have gotten the letter from tdoc yesterday, but didn't. I'm worried I never updated my address from last year. I should have confirmed my address… If it doesn't come today, I'm going to call the office tomorrow to see if there's a copy in my chart. If there isn't I'm ****ed. If there is, I'll have to take a cab over there to pick the letter up prior to the evaluation. Round trip this will cost me about $40 and it will be a pain in the ***. It will add stress on a day I don't need it. Nothing is easy.

I went to the doctor Thursday...

I like my scale a lot better than his. I am the heaviest I have ever been at 156.8lb. I've never weighed more than 152 on any scale and that's when I had a lot of muscle. My PCP was pretty shocked by the weight gain (over 20lb in about 4mo), but my BMI is still good. I don't care. I'm not comfortable in my own skin right now.

He ran labs, including thyroid levels, but I haven't heard anything yet which isn't unusual. It could just be the seroquel causing the weight gain, but it also can cause hypothyroidism, which I already have. I don't know.

He said he was worried about how much seroquel I'm on. He repeated it a couple of times. I agree with him.

I'm on 750mg right now (100am/650pm). The max is 800.
I went up to 700 because of intrusive thoughts and violent imagery caused by anxiety. I went up another 50mg because I started exhibiting sx of hypomania…
My anxiety level is pretty low right now and I'm stable. I'm going to try reducing my daytime dose by 50mg. I won't go any lower than that without talking to pdoc, but I'd like to get rid of the daytime dose altogether.

It's a new year, so my insurance benefits reset and I'm not in the Medicare donut hole anymore. No more clipping coupons to get prescriptions for me for a while. As an added benefit, I'll be filling almost every script (5) at the same time today so that means less trips to the pharmacy in the future. Unfortunately it also means a big chunk of change all at once... I've never filled some of these scripts through insurance before so I have no idea how much they'll cost.

I'm glad the surgery was done on your own terms. It was convenient that they could get your gallbladder out at the same time, too.
I'm not going to have children so I wouldn't worry about that part of removing an ovary if the subject came up, but I'm only 35 so hormone replacement would be an issue.

They're still unsure of the culprits behind most cancers. I'm sorry you had to go through that Donna

The letter from tdoc did arrive yesterday! No problems to deal with there!

My GYN just sent me the radiologist report from my ultrasound again. I don't know why they do that. They should call. The right sided cyst shrank by almost half its size as expected I don't have to see her until March when I have a repeat PAP.

My husband was in a foul mood yesterday. He didn't take me to the pharmacy. He'll have to take me there today and we'll also have to get the food shopping over with as well. He'll be in a bad mood again.

I watched the Texans vs. the Chiefs game last night. It was pretty one-sided, but entertaining because of all the turnovers. I wanted to watch the Steelers vs. the Bengals, but my husband had too much football for one day and put on a movie. After he went to bed, I put the game on, but was too tired to watch more than a half an hour of it. The two teams absolutely hate each other. At least I got to see a big scuffle on the field before I hit the sack.

I'm looking forward to the Pats game on Saturday. I hope they get their **** together because they haven't been looking much like a play-off team lately.

I am glad you got your letter kay!
Have a good sunday.
bizi

My husband was in a terrible mood all weekend. I guess he was making up for the good mood he was in last weekend.

I got to watch a good deal of football and enjoyed that, but the rest of my weekend was absolute crap…
I couldn't say a word that didn't provoke my husband in some way. He kept claiming I said things I didn't, and said I didn't say things I did. Stupid ****. To avoid conflict I kept saying it was "miscommunication," but I know damn well I was in the right. He blames things on my cognitive problems and can be very condescending. There is no point arguing issues with him. He's super-stubborn and can never admit to being wrong.
We haven't been food shopping since last Thursday because he kept putting it off. We were supposed to go on Saturday, but he made plans with his mother. On Saturday we agreed to go Sunday. Yesterday he drove right by the supermarket and refused to go claiming we never discussed it. I won't get out of the eval until 4:30 today and I know he won't want to go afterwards.

I picked up 6 scripts yesterday and it only cost me around $55 (it helps that everything is generic). I am so glad I can use my insurance again! Using coupons was saving me mucho dinero when I was in the donut hole, but I would have still been paying about 4X as much.

The substance abuse evaluation is today. I'm getting pretty anxious about it now (before 8am) and it's not until 3pm. I'm also worried because I woke up at 6am and some extra sleep could have helped. I think I will need some klonopin. I'm hoping to be in good enough shape to take 1/2mg around 11am. It's long-acting so it should help a little.
I'm going to do a little more work on my time line. Being more prepared will probably relax me a little.

Good luck with the evaluation.

It is good to hear that you are a football fan.
I have not watched it in years but I remember being able to get out
of my own head when I watched.


M

Kay, am so sorry that your hubby can be so difficult.
I feel badly for you for this.
Happy that you were able to watch some foot ball.

maybe you could take a nap after lunch before your meeting?
((((HUGS)))))
here with you.
bizi

I haven't got a call about my lab results yet, but I signed up for the physician's portal and was able to view my lab results online. My thyroid levels are off. 5 other lab results are borderline. I expect a phone call.

How are you doing?
bizi

I'm concerned that so many of those lab results were off, especially because of the rapid weight gain and the fact that I've been so tired lately (but I can't judge that well because of the MS). At the very least, the labs should be redrawn sometime in the near future. I'm going to call my PCP's office when it opens and communicate those concerns.

I was honest when it came to the substance abuse evaluation. Fortunately for me, the evaluator also has MS so she understood why I was not at my best. I told her why I quit drinking so she knows I have a very good reason to stay sober, she knows I have been since July 20th, and she has the letters from pdoc and tdoc, but I don't think that matters. Because of NH law, I think they have to base the majority of their treatment plan on the answers you provide to the standardized questions they ask. She asked a lot less questions than I thought. I had a hard time answering some questions because my drinking patterns were never consistent. There were periods in my life where I was cycling, but didn't have problems with drinking. Based on my answers to medical and mental health questions I don't expect a good outcome, but I live with an alcoholic and that alone ****s me over. I don't even remember how that slipped out.

Anyway, it's over with.

I have to make an appointment for about 2 weeks from now to get my "treatment plan." In the meantime, I have to find a counselor in my area (hopefully in my city) who is accepting new clients and can accommodate my unknown treatment plan. I guess my case manager will help me with that. At the next appointment I'll hand over the first monthly payment of $60 for them to monitor me via phone, and $350 for the honor of getting my counseling in my home state. I guess I'll find out how much the actual counseling is when I start looking for a provider. My pocketbook hurts.

A woman from the main office called my evaluator while I was in the office. I caught bits and pieces of the call. Apparently they talked about me in a meeting. They said the situation was confusing. I can only imagine it's because I tested negative for a substance abuse problem initially, then later admitted I was an alcoholic. They're unsure of how to handle it in some way. I still worry that there will be repercussions with the court.

Oh well.