kay, I did not know that you are a candle maker.:)
have a good day and yes keep us posted. And good for you for feeling brave....
bizi

Good luck with the amantadine, Kay.:)

M

Thank you ladies :group hug:

I took the amantadine at 9 and by 11:30 I had to lay down for a nap and didn't get up until 3. It was very sedating. I'm so disappointed :(

There's a warning label on the bottle that says it may cause drowsiness, and I'm sure that the other meds I take didn't help.

Maybe if I keep taking it, I'll get used to it, but I can't see how this med can possibly go from putting me to sleep to helping my fatigue?
I'm struggling with the thought of taking it this morning… I know it's going to wipe me out and I don't know if it's worth it in the long run.

I didn't get to watch any candle-making videos yesterday, so they're on the agenda for today.

Guessing it was prescribed for morning. But can it be taken at night. Then
you sleep as normal.

Just curious. If then you would wake up with less fatigue that way.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

great suggestion donna.
bizi

Thanks for the suggestion Donna :hug: But it has to be taken during the day in order for it to help with fatigue (most people take it twice a day). And if taken at night, I guess it can cause sleep disturbances.

I figured only taking it once wasn't giving it a fair shot, so I sucked it up and took it yesterday…
It neither hurt nor helped. My other meds were the same (1mg Klonopin both days). I have no idea why it was so sedating on Tuesday, but had no effect on me yesterday… maybe I was just predetermined to have a really bad MS day on Tuesday and it had nothing to do with the med. I've had plenty of those days before.

It takes time before this medication starts to work. I know it doesn't have a high rate of efficacy, but I'm encouraged by the fact that I could at least tolerate it yesterday. Now I can give it a fair trial.

I have an appointment with the substance abuse counselor today. I'm not going to take the amantadine because I'm afraid it may wipe me out again. I'm going to write down some talking points prior to the appointment (this is common for me to do before therapy). Some of those things are points she just didn't get last time. I think it will help me prevent her from running away with the appointment again. I am nervous about seeing her again, but not as much as I expected. I guess time did some healing there.

I watched several videos on candle making yesterday and picked up some great tips. I think my candles are going to come out a lot better this time because of my research! :)
I ordered all my supplies yesterday. They ship so fast they'll be here Friday! I have to wait until Wednesday before I can do anything though because I'm waiting on a hot glue gun (to fix the wicks) I ordered on Amazon.

I'm going to have so much fun making candles! I'm so excited! :)

good luck with your appointment today kay. and happy foryou about your kit coming in so soon. You will have to take pictures please if you can if finished candles.
good luck today.
bizi

Glad to hear yesterday was better. Good luck with the therapist
today.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

Kay,

I hope that the appt yesterday went better than last time.

Have a good day today.

M

Thank you ladies :)

I only ordered enough wax to make 2 batches of 3 large candles. I ordered blue dye, but I already have a bottle of ivory. My husband is all about sandalwood, so it's the only fragrance I ordered. I'll have enough jars, wicks, fragrance, and dye to make tons of candles. I'll just have to order more wax when I'm ready for it. I chose one that can hold a higher concentration of fragrance. The last candles I made may as well have been unscented, but everything I used then came as part of a kit.
I will post pictures, as long as they come out looking good :)

This session with my counselor went much better. She said she thought I was feisty and she liked the fact that I could stand up for myself. She said she'd never had a client tell her she had her own therapist, and she got a kick out of it. lol.

I told her how much the comment about me not going out alone or driving bothered me, and admitted it bothered me for days. As it turns out, most of the concern there came from the fact that I'm handicapped (not bipolar) and she's afraid I'll fall. I told her I've been handicapped since 2008, being independent has always been very important to me, but it's something that has been lacking lately. Apparently she had an MS patient who wasn't as handicapped as I am who was very dependent. So in contrast, she thinks that I take on too much. She thinks in general that I will have problems asking for help if I need it.

We did get onto the subject of my drinking. While I believe I'm an alcoholic, she thinks I fall short of that. She's not surprised at all that staying sober is much easier since I'm stable on the right meds. She recommended having someone who's kind of like a life coach my life, the opposite of an AA sponsor, because the person has to have no history of substance abuse. She wasn't as concerned that I live with an alcoholic as I thought she would be.

She told me that by looking at and talking to me that you would never know that anything from over the last year had happened and that I show no signs of decompensation… that's good to hear.

I never got a nap in yesterday because I was afraid I wouldn't wake up in time to put the chicken in the oven. I was all excited to try my new digital meat thermometer. Woo-hoo! It was reading that the chicken was over cooked, but the juices were still running pink. I threw my old thermometer away, and I can't rely on my oven for cooking times, so I intentionally over cooked the thing to avoid salmonella. Crappy chicken dinner. $15 down the drain. I'll be on Amazon hunting for a new one later today.