I asked him yesterday if he would be interested in making the candles with me, but he turned me down and said it was my thing… no interest at all. It's okay though. I do spend A LOT of time alone and it is a good way to pass the time. And it is probably for the best. I have OCD and like a lot of things "just so," so I doubt it's the kind of thing I could play nice with others anyway.

I hope today turns out better than it started… I woke up to find my darling husband left me with a clogged toilet and one of my precious cats left me with a huge pile of puke in the living room…
The plan is to stay at home and wait for my candle supplies to arrive. Hopefully I can't get into too much trouble doing that.

I would not like those 2 things to attend to, in the morning no less!
I hope your candles arrive today.:)
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Yesterday turned out okay with one exception… when I woke up from my nap and was getting out of bed, I put one foot on the floor directly in another pile of cat puke. lol. Gross. lol.

I called drunk.org yesterday to check on the status of my case. The girl I spoke to said my file was on the list for completion, so if I call back on Monday they will probably be able to tell me it's done. However, she also said my case manager (who doesn't work Fridays) had a long list of files to complete. So, we'll see…
Even the prospect that it might be completed Monday is exciting though. It means I'm close to getting my license back. Drunk.org will fax my completion report to the NH DMV when it's done, so I'll be able to request that letter I need to take to the MA DMV the same day they do that and then the ball will start rolling.

I have GI problems that have been ongoing, but have been worsening lately. It's nothing serious. I was going to go to the club today, but I'm not feeling well. I have an old follow-up appointment with my PCP scheduled for next week that I was going to cancel, but I guess I'm going to have to keep it. Another ****ing appointment, probably a referral to another ****ing doctor…

hope you feel better soon and all the paper work happens faster than fast

bobby

nothing worse than stepping into cat vomit....
been there done that.
Man I hope your paper work gets completely timely for your sake.
all of the stress may be contributing to your gi issues. hope you get some answers or relief soon.
bizi
((((HUGS))))
bizi

The GI issues are from all the meds. All the doctors are going to do is throw more meds at it. I felt terrible yesterday, but I woke up feeling okay today.

It was 72 degrees yesterday, and we may get snow tonight. We will get some snow Sunday and Monday… crazy.

it is so awful to feel awful. glad you are feeling better. take care
bobby

My stomach feels fine today :)
The appointment with my PCP is scheduled for Thursday. I hope I continue to feel better on the meds I'm already on so I can avoid having to go to it.

I went back to taking 50mg of amantadine in the morning. I was not adjusting to the 100mg dose. I am taking the 100mgin the afternoon and it's not sedating, but the jury's still out on whether or not it's actually helping with the fatigue.

Friday was 72 degrees. When it woke up this morning it was 31 and snowing. I was planning on going to the club tomorrow, but we're expecting another 3-5". It will be a good day to make candles.

that is crazy kay!
it's April for crying out loud!
bizi

It got sunny yesterday and started melting the snow. It was a nice day aside from the 20-25 mph winds and 40-45 mph gusts…
We went out to run errands and when when we got home, the wind blew my car door open into the car next to us when I was trying to get out. I feel just terrible :(
I left a note with my phone number and apartment number asking the person to call me, but they seldom move their car, so I may call the leasing office and ask them to call the owner to notify them.
There is a light whitish mark on their drivers side door, but there is no dent. The damage is minimal and there's a 99% chance it just needs to be buffed out, but I did still damage their car. I took pictures. It's better to be safe than sorry.

I hope the owner will agree to let us pay cash for the repairs. Our insurance is already going to go through the roof once I start driving again because of my DUI, so going through insurance is the worst case scenario. If they give us an estimate, I will pay them in cash the next day (same day if it's early enough) as long as they sign as receipt saying we payed for the repairs in full. I don't even really care if it's a written estimate or not as long as it's fairly reasonable.

My husband was already in a bad mood yesterday. He didn't lose his temper, but he was not a happy camper. He said it's just another day "living here." In other words, it's just another day living with me… and I'm nothing but trouble. I feel horrible.

Depending on how expensive these repairs are, I may have to delay getting my license back by a month or more. After the NH DMV sends me the letter and I take it to the MA DMV, I only have 30 days go to get insurance and I will have to put down 20% of the cost of the policy at that time and it will be a lot of money. I don't know when we'll be able to afford it if the repairs are expensive.

This whole thing has me so worked up. I really ****ed up bad. I feel just awful. I'm not looking forward to this phone call. It's 7am and I've already taken a full mg of klonopin… very unusual for me lately. Things were going really well, but the funny thing about anxiety is it only takes one thing to make everything else look like a ****ing catastrophe.