Screw her.....
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

Yeah, that grocery store would be a disturbing moment.
Actually, it was probably more about something in her own life.

When that happens go somewhere in your mind to a Thích Nhất Hạnh moment.

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I frequent a tiny grocery store where the staff know me enough to recognize me and leave me alone.

M

I've been going to the same pharmacy for 10yrs. I went there to fill a script the 1st time I went out after my s/s attempt. The pharmacist took me aside and said, "Kathryn, are you okay? Are you getting all the help you need?" She knew exactly what the scar was from (it looks nothing like a surgical incision). She came from a good place, but I realized then I wasn't going to get away with anything.

I've run into a couple of people I know who hadn't heard what happened. I've heard, "What did you do to yourself?" a few times, and one person thought someone stabbed me in the neck.

I worried about going food shopping for a long time, but my neighborhood is "interesting." And my local supermarket is like a freak show. I'm probably one of the less interesting people there. It's also always extremely busy. So, people seldom notice until the checkout. No one's really rude when they stare and strangers never ask about it though, so I do alright now as long as I take Xanax/Klonopin.

The incident on Monday happened at a convenience store. I usually stay in the car, but I went in because my husband was buying my O'Doul's in addition to his beer. There was no one else in the store but that (expletive).

I'd say I can forget about it about 50% of the time when I go to familiar places now, but I'm 100% aware when I go off the beaten track.

I've always had a hearty (expletive) you attitude towards people like this before. Sometimes I do, just not in this department. I think all of this has to do more with my opinion of myself than anyone else's. I still have a lot of work to do in that department.

Good luck in your journey Kay.
I am glad that you are here.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Kay

I believe you are giving a very good learning experience just from what
the pharmacist said to you. Remember, there are many things that
cause different reactions.

I know when I was off my foot because of complex partial I always
got weird looks.

Donna

My husband and I went to that convenience store on Saturday. We go there because we're both smokers- it's over the state line and cigarettes are much cheaper. He thought I should go in. I thought about it. I thought about what I would say to that (expletive) if she was there and stared at my neck like that again, but I passed.

On Sunday we hit our regular convenience store because I was out of k-cups. A girl swore at me by the registers because she said she was in line... she was nowhere near the registers lol... and I had NO problem telling her where to go, but I didn't swear or raise my voice. She turned pink.
I stood up for myself. I enjoy seeing flashes of the old me. I made myself laugh.

I got permission (lol) to stay up passed midnight to watch the football game. It was a good game. I was quiet because my husband was in bed, so all 3 cats were on the couch with me. I can't tell you how much I LOVE that. The drawback of watching football is it really makes me want a beer. I got a few of those, "It's only one" thoughts but thankfully the,"that's BS," thoughts are a lot stronger. I'm tired this morning.

I don't know how, but I've lost over 4lbs in the last week and I've been eating a lot of crap. I hope I'm not headed for another slide. I feel well, and I'm stable. My PCP has never been able to figure out why I have problems keeping weight on.

This makes me smile! Do this more often!
bizi

Kay,

I appreciate the lovely picture of you and the cats watching football quietly.

'Weird about the weight. I could give you some of mine if it worked like that.

Mari

i hate to say this but one of my friends kept on losing weight and it turned out she had diabetes type one. I definitely hope this isn't the case.
bobby

My PCP keeps running all types of labs, including fasting blood sugars and A1C. So, diabetes doesn't seem to be the culprit.

I have hypothyroidism, but the panels are normal every time on 50mcg of Synthroid.

All my blood work is normal, no matter what he tests me for, and he's pretty creative.

We decided that the weight loss is related to my mental health issues, but right now I'm more stable than I have been in about 10yrs. and I haven't done any exercising since the bed sore. And I can easily eat my husband under the table.

I usually only weight myself once a week, but I need to keep an eye on this. I weighed myself today at the same time I did yesterday and I lost another lb. If I go down to a total of 10lb I'll make another appt with my PCP. At this point, I'm still at a healthy weight.