that is so great that he didn't drink last night. he must be trying...oh how difficult.
bobby

You called it!

I felt a lot better when I woke up this morning!

I took 750mg the last 2 days and was still having symptoms, but I stopped at 700mg today. I'm not sedated, and I feel pretty good

I have pdoc's blessing to go up to 600mg of Gabapentin. That might mean fewer prns, but I'm worried about taking that much along with 600mg of Seroquel. I felt comfortable enough this morning to wait for the prns to kick in. I wasn't feeling desperate like I was the last 2 days.

It's only been one day (it seems like I say that too often). I'll see what tomorrow brings.

I forgot to mention that pdoc said that the FDA is putting out a new warning for gabapentin re:addiction. Apparently people are using it to enhance the effects of narcotics.
Lyrica, new-gen Neurontin carries an addiction warning on its own merits. I've tried it for my neuro pain. It works well, but I stopped it because it's highly sedating. Also highly expensive.

Kay

p.s. I did check out that site, Mari. It's interesting, and aptly named lol

I only needed 650mg of Seroquel today. It's an improvement, but I feel wiped out and I'm in a rather vile mood because I've had a (expletive) day...

Kay

hi kay, I am sorry you had a rotten day.
bizi

hope you are feeling better today
bobby

For the last couple of days I've felt well enough in the morning to try to treat my anxiety before taking any Seroquel...

But this morning when I woke up I had quite a bit of anxiety, but knew right away I wouldn't need a prn, and the anxiety responded well to the Xanax.

I feel like I might be coming down

I'm guarded though. I've made progress several times over the last 2+mo. only to escalate again. A very wise friend of mine has pointed out that Gabapentin is used off-label for many things... it may be acting as more as a sedative than a mood-stabilizer. This may very well be the case, since I've been very tired the last few days. If it is indeed acting as a sedative, the effect will probably wear off and I will need to increase the dosage over time.

And if I've learned anything over the last 2 months, it's that my BPD is difficult to control.

While I'd rather have more history behind this progress to fully enjoy it, I'm going to try my best to cast away my doubts and enjoy this day

Kay

I hope that you enjoyed your day!
bizi

I was hypomanic yesterday, but didn't realize it until later in the day. Maybe I didn't pick up on it earlier because I was tired in the morning, my symptoms were milder, or I was looking for symptoms of dysphoria...

I started having rapid thoughts and spent about 4hrs cleaning my fridge (a departure from dysphoric mania, and a return to more goal-directed behavior again). I decided it was too late in the day to medicate, but I probably should have.

I took the Gabapentin early last night to avoid the tired side effect, but stayed up too late (the 600mg of Seroquel didn't sedate me). And I woke up 3hrs later than usual- symptomatic. I treated my anxiety, per usual, but I haven't decided if I'm going to take any more Seroquel yet. So far, my symptoms are on the milder side and I don't want to be sedated.

I have a feeling I will end up having to medicate though. The typical witching hours are approaching.

I'll have to work on the timing and dosing of the Gabapentin. A wise friend is helping with that. It's obviously been helping in some way to reduce the severity and quality of my symptoms, but I don't like waking up that tired in the morning and it makes it hard to catch symptoms early.

I'm disappointed, but It's still a good day. At least the hypomania is milder and more pleasant. I can still play around with the meds to see what will work for me. I know some of my friends here have had some success doing the same thing.

Kay

keep playing around with your meds until you get them right. wouldn't it be great if you could just use a pill box and take them the same way every day and you not have to worry so much and question yourself.
I hope that the rest of your day goes well.
bizi

Kay,

Those of us who never make it to mania and who are always slightly depressed even on good days, do not aim for perfection. A more or less "good enough" day is good enough.

On days that I do not have to be at work, waking up sleepy from meds is o.k.
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That's good that you are getting help with the Gabapentin.

I remember years ago I used to take my "night" meds at two different times in order to avoid the waking up sleepy for the work day that started at 7:15 a.m.

I took the Tricyclic antidepressant at 5:00 p.m. in the afternoon and the other "sleep meds" 9:00 p.m. for example.

The 5:00 p.m. dose somewhat worked.

M