IF I got a DUI then I would lose my job and our life style.
It would be very hard financially. WE can't live on just what jeff makes.
If jeff got one I could drive him to work.
bizi

I am sorry that you are having to go thru all of this.
Congratulations on your sobriety!!!!!
bizi

Thank you Donna, I know you would, but I also know you have enough on your plate already

It's okay Bizi, I'm sorry I misunderstood I guess it's a good thing that you're getting to hear about all the **** I'm going through. It's a reminder to continue to make responsible decisions when it comes to drinking and driving. From posts on your thread I know that you already try to plan ahead.
There's another deterrent you may not have considered: If you did get a DUI there's a possibility that you would be disciplined by the LA board of nursing… maybe would be put on probation and put into their substance abuse program. Different states have different rules though.
I'm really impressed by how much thought you have invested in your alcohol use as a whole lately: naltrexone, substance abuse counseling, and avoiding DUI. I think this kind of attention and thoughtfulness is a big step towards future change. I did hit rock bottom, but it was this kind of thinking that got me started on cutting back, and then quitting


I don't know if it was the amantadine working or what, but I got a lot done yesterday….
I spent several hours working on the candles between the initial pour and the extra time I had to spend preparing more wax to top them off. I went over my taxes a couple more times before I finally e-filed my federal return. I finished my state return, but have to send it in because my address is too long to e-file? I went through the process of printing out our copies and filing everything. We went grocery shopping when my husband got home, and I made dinner after everything was put away. This is a lot more than I can get done in a typical day, and I didn't get a nap. I was in pain from all the activity and very grouchy from being overtired. I went to bed at 10, and still woke up at 6:30am as usual.

Since I'm not used to that level of activity (especially lately), and even though I was exhausted I didn't notice much of a drop-off in cognitive function (which is a rare occurrence), I'm going to be paying very close attention to my behavior today. I remember I was having jumpiness/jitteriness on Monday and was questioning where it was coming from…
I'm going to have issues trying to determine what is the potential benefit of the drug vs. what should I be concerned about. The potential benefits to me are so similar to mild hypomania, but the drug could also trigger hypomania…

you are very good at paying attention, we will help if you like????
bizi

I would love the help! I have no problem with any of you giving me your input, or letting me know about something you pick up on that I've missed. I'm not a China Doll.

I don't think I'm hypo right now though...
I had a couple of good hours in the morning yesterday, but got extremely tired and lazy thereafter. I got absolutely nothing done outside of scooping out the cat boxes and making dinner. I spent half the day with my feet up, and needed my afternoon nap.

Hypomania usually doesn't take a day off. With MS I have good and bad days, but maybe the amantadine is starting to help, too

Hypomania is something well worth watching out for though. It really sucks that I have to be afraid of the same symptoms I'm hoping to get and that there's such a fine line there…

I have my 3rd appointment with the counselor today. I remembered that I have to bring her a letter from my husband that says I'm living a sober life. I wrote up something very simple and brief that he was satisfied enough with to sign. He's BS about the whole thing because he thinks she's treating me like a baby. I agree.
I've decided I'm not going to skip an appointment even though it's going to be a financial hardship… we have tax refunds coming to replace the money that will have to temporarily come out of the savings account. I'm going to have to pay for that session sooner or later, it may as well be sooner so I can get my license back quicker. If I keep up with weekly sessions, I can finish on the 17th. Soldiering on and having a specific end date to these sessions not so far away makes the denouement seem more within reach. But then there are more steps ahead of me to worry about before I finally get there.

I'm glad you guys liked the candles. We burned one last night. My husband was happy.. it does smell like sandalwood! It will be even stronger when we burn it some more because the fragrance I used in the wax to top off the candles wasn't as concentrated as the wax I used to pour most of it.

Katm

It is good that you are not going to skip an appt.
Being steady with the appts shows those people that you are consistent and serious about the program.

Does your husband find the sandalwood "calming"?
http://mentalhealthdaily.com/2014/02...ty-and-stress/


M

I haven't noticed a difference. We don't light the candles until the evening, and he's most prone to his temper tantrums right after he gets home from work in the late afternoon. Maybe I'll light the candle shortly before I expect him home…

That sounds like a good plan!
kay have you ever heard of rescue remedy?
I have heard one way to use it is put some in a spray bottle with water and spray a room. It is meant to help disperse anxiety...the tonic can be taken in a tea to help calm your nerves etc.
I believe you get it in the homeopathic section of a health food store.
might help to spray the room right before he gets home???
bizi

The sandalwood candle isn't calming

He's had a couple of good temper tantrums…

I even had a little one of my own when the pizza place we ordered from sent me the wrong sub and I got someone unresponsive on the phone when I called about it.

(((((HUGS))))
frustrating when things don't work out right. maybe some other person got your sub instead/???
bizi

Yikes.

'Sorry to hear about that.

M