K

I love hearing about your cats.
Re the DRP: You have good instincts about what you need.
The DRP might not be necessary and might be harmful.


M

My instincts tell me that the meetings would be harmful. Those same instincts tell me that talking about these things in any great detail in therapy isn't safe either because I'll bring the thoughts back home with me. I am dealing with things, privately, in bits and pieces, because that's what I'm capable of handling.

I am doing very well with my sobriety on my own. My 1 year is in July. It hasn't been hard despite living with a hardcore alcoholic. My cravings are almost nil, and when I do get them I'm very easily redirected. I have very good reasons to stay sober, and being on the right meds has made a world of difference.

Also, I don't know if the club would be the right place for a meeting for me even though there are a lot of people with bipolar disorder who have or had substance abuse problems…

I'm not quite sure it's the right place for me at all yet. I get so many comments that I don't look the part. I feel like I don't have the "right" kind of bipolar disorder to belong. I look so normal, and right now I can act so normal, but I'm sooooo ****ed up. I'm too crazy for the real world, but not crazy enough for their's… The funny thing is if I was really struggling right now, I would hide myself away. The last thing I would do is join a social club.

Kay

We all share where we feel safe and comfortable. So your instincts
are the things to follow.

Keep up the great work.

Donna

It's been so hot and humid here. Yesterday I had to turn on that huge fan when I was on the bike and I was getting blasted with air in the face the entire 30 minutes I was on there.

The odor of cat urine is back in the "cat room." I bleached out the cat boxes and changed out the litter about 2 weeks ago, and I scoop everyday. So that means the humidity is activating the odor of the old urine stains from the carpet/padding again. I would shampoo the carpet in there (it's a small room), but my husband moved a bunch of **** in there so it's impossible. He put an old love seat in there that we don't need. It comes apart in pieces, so he should be able to manage throwing it out himself. He won't get motivated until the smell gets to be too much for him. Unfortunately, I have a much keener sense of smell

I hope you have a nice day OK

I did another 1/2 hour on the bike yesterday and was able to get my heart rate up for a little while in spurts. I haven't really been able to do that in the past because the motion alone is so tough on my legs. I also did 15 sad little sit ups lol. I will stick to the 30 minutes on the bike with the goal of getting my heart rate up for longer periods now.

My Keurig is on its last legs. It's been brewing 1/2 cups on and off. The troubleshooting the manual suggests doesn't work. We've had it for years. I'm surprised I didn't kill it a long time ago with the work out I give it. My husband's been complaining about the problems, so I waited for him to bring up the idea of getting a new one, and he finally did. He doesn't want to upgrade, but I think if I can find a good deal, I can convince him otherwise. I'd like a machine that can brew hot and cold beverages. I'm going to enjoy hunting for a new one

My husband has started drinking during the week again. He was doing so well for a while. Of course I'm disappointed, but I haven't said anything to him about it. As they say in AA, "You are only responsible for your own sobriety."

I was content not going out yesterday. The laundry room was very busy, but I was able to get my 2 loads done. The kitchen floor was in desperate need of mopping, so I checked that off my list too.
I had planned on doing the grocery shopping today, but we're going to have 20-30 mph winds (and I don't know what the gusts will be like). We're not in desperate need of food, so I'm postponing that until tomorrow. Why go out if I don't have to? I can find plenty of things to do at home.
I was planning to go to the club today or tomorrow, but that will wait until next week.