Hi Mrs Bear

I hpoe you dont mind me commenting on your dilema!

I'm now 43 years old and for many many years suffered what the doctors was just depression. My earliest thought of suicide was 13 years old and looking back it wasn't a serrious attempt just a SCREAM of adolescent anguish. At 16 i joined the Royal Navy [ i'm English by the way] that was when my illness realy took hold of me. I left shortly after the Falklands war in 1983. Relationships were my hardest endevour. I could love but never be loved, something of a vicous circle, I hated my own company yet sought to issolate myself. Over the years and with the help of my wife of 18 years i have now reached a stage were i know what is wrong with me, and God willing the contstant thought of Suicide has now been put to rest. 15 years ago i cut my wrist so badly i nearly severed my hand. If only then a Doctor had diagnosed BP my life would have changed then.

Your sons life is valuable to you and to him. Insist he is seen by a Doctor who can explain this dreadful pain and anguish he feels is real, and that without medical help the consequenses of his actions will remain with him for life. I have pins and needles in my left hand and will have them forever. Medication is not always the sole answer, yes since October last year i have been on Medication and i'm feeling 100% but talking is a great help and Exercise is a fantastic cure for stress.

With a Mother like you your Son will survive, BUT HE NEEDS TO KNOW THAT Death is not the answer Life IS........

Take Care