[bizi]

hope your kitties adjust to the new food. And that their tummies subside.
sorry about your added anxiety, NOT GOOD!
How is your neck?
do you think it isanything happening today that is triggering your anxiety?
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[OhKay]

I didn't wake up with an anxiety attack this morning!!!
But my anxiety is still WAY too high...
I have a lot of problems because I have several anxiety disorders. The severity of my GAD (the culprit right now) really waxes and wanes and sometimes I don't know what triggers it, but it can stay really high for a while. I just went through a really rough patch with my OCD so I don't know if that's somehow related.
I was supposed to go out yesterday, but I stayed in in favor of taking more Klonopin (not that it worked). I really have to go out today tho. Once I get home I'm going to try taking a clonidine, which I've only been taking at night, and see if that helps at all...
I'm not going to worry about the potential sedation. If it adds to my hypersomnia, it does. Right now anxiety is my most pressing problem because I'm so ****ing distressed and uncomfortable.

I'm still having the same neck and right shoulder problems and my right arm is weaker than normal. I'm alternating Advil and Tylenol now, but it's still not helping. It's been going on for about a month now. I have a history of neck problems, so I know I should go to the doctor, but I don't want to yet.

Bobby, I did check out Chewy.com and they have a larger bag of the cat food I bought that will save me a significant amount of money. I will buy from them once I'm sure that the food is going to work out, and I think it will. They seem to love the it tho because they keep cleaning out the dishes. Aside from Rocky getting sick that one time from overeating, no one else has thrown up, and everything in the litter box looks normal... a good sign

The chicken I was supposed to roast last night was rancid even though the sell buy wasn't until the 6th... it's the second time in a row this has happened to me at my regular store. I had plans to make chicken pie with the left overs. So even though I was just at the grocery store Monday, I will have to go to a different one to pick up a chicken today. Not happy about it.

[bizi]

Tell the store about your rancid chicken, they will replace it for you.
sorry that that happened. glad that you did not wake up with a panic attack. wish you did not have GAD.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[OhKay]

I remember the clonidine was effective when tried it a couple of times for intrusive thoughts, but I didn't notice any effect on my general anxiety yesterday.

My anxiety isn't quite as high this morning
I took 1mg of Klonopin, and am much more comfortable. I can handle THIS level of anxiety

I finally called to make an appointment with my neuro. The medical secretary said they were booking in July (I already have an appointment in June), but when she asked what was going on, she gave me an appointment for today at 4:30. I have to start making a list of things I want to discuss and hopefully by the time the appointment comes around, I will have remembered everything. My anxiety may be down because I finally took step to address some of the issues that have been plaguing me even though I might not like the answers. IDK.

The timing of the appointment is awful for me though because I'm usually sleeping. I'm worried about taking a nap because I sleep so long and it's so ****ing hard to wake me up. And I'm worried about not taking a nap because I don't know what kind of condition I'll be in if I don't, and I have to drive.

I haven't had to clean any cat puke since Monday night (knock on wood)… I think that is a recent record. The cats will be 100% on the new food today and I hope things continue to go well…

Also, I stopped spraying the Felaway a while ago, but have a diffuser still plugged into an outlet in the bedroom. I'm keeping up with clipping their nails too, and they're still not scratching the furniture!

[mymorgy]

i also buy the big bags of litter and save a lot of money. it all adds up. this time i will buy two lasers. abby loves her lasers

[bizi]

how did you appointment go with the neurologist?
((((HUGS))))
bizi

[OhKay]

He ordered a MRI. I think my copay is $250 though and I'm pretty sure I owe the company money. I will begrudgingly pay the copay, but if they want me to pay the whole balance before the MRI, I don't know if I'll be having one even though I need it.

I haven't had one in 2 years, so IF I have one, he'll be looking for changes since the last one. But he'll really be looking for signs that I may be having a relapse too- not that anything will be done about it. Treatment for relapses is IV steroids, which I can't take because they induce mania. But if I am having an episode at least there would be hope that there could be some improvement…

He can't do anything about the fatigue and cognitive issues. The meds that could helps are off limits for the same reason I can't take the steroids. I've tried all of those too with the same results.

Friday and Saturday night I had really bad night sweats and was sweating all day Sunday (I'm usually cold). I had them before and after the surgery.. a day or two at a time, not associated with a daytime fever, and the only other symptom I had is I felt like ****. I didn't mention them to the neuro because honestly I forgot about them because I can't remember **** anymore. They could be caused by the MS, so I will drop him a note, but I should see my PCP to rule other things out. As far as that goes, I feel fine this morning.

My husband is being a totally unsympathetic ***hole. He thinks I have a bad attitude and am being miserable. It's probably because I am miserable. I've been having a really hard time for about a month, and really didn't need the developments over the weekend to make matters worse…

I'm worried. I don't know what the hell's going on

[OhKay]

The order for my MRI was faxed Thursday, so someone should have called me Friday. I got impatient this morning and called them. They had no order. When I called my neuro's office to get the order faxed again, I got a moron on the phone, but I hope she got the job done.

[bizi]

maybe the night sweats are from hormone imbalances. You just had surgery, did they end up taking one ovary out?
sorry I can't remember.
But maybe that has something to do with it.
Or you could be starting to go thru menopause,
you are in your 40's right?
I started having nights sweats years before I started having other symptoms.
They say we can take up to 10 years of symptoms before we are actually finished with menopause.
sigh
bizi

[OhKay]

I'm 36.
I didn't have to have an ovary out, thank God.
I had the night sweats before surgery too, when I still had the cysts, my fallopian tubes, and was on birth control… the symptoms are the same now that I'm off the birth control and don't have the cysts or my tubes.
I've had 2 regular periods without breakthrough bleeding now that the cysts are gone and I'm not taking birth control… so I don't think hormones are the problem.

An hour and a half after I had called my neuro's office to ask them to re-fax the order for the MRI, I called to make sure registration had received it, but of course they had not. I called my neuro's office back to ask them to re-fax it again and spoke to a secretary who sounded competent, so I didn't call registration back to check on it. So, I'm waiting for them to call and schedule me…

I found out that my neuro only ordered an MRI of my brain, and I'm not happy about it because 1) I would have liked to see what MS has done to my spinal cord in the last 2 years 2) I would have liked to see what the discs in my neck look like now and 3) if he decides later he wants to look and my spinal cord, or I have to go to an ortho for my neck and he wants and MRI, I'll have to pay another $250 copay. I should have asked him about it at the appointment, but I didn't, and it's a little late in the game to ask him to rewrite the order.

I made an appointment with my PCP about the night sweats, will let him know about my other symptoms, and let him figure it out. I had asked my neuro to run my thyroid level because I'm due anyway, and my PCP will have access to the results of that test. The appointment is at 3:15… bad time of day for me.

I went grocery shopping yesterday, but probably should not have. At least it's done and I don't have to worry about it for another week or so.
I'm doing laundry now. 2 loads. It will take care of all the clothing, but I still need to wash a set of towels, a set of new sheets, and that quilt Buddy puked on. I have plans to wash all of that at the laundromat sometime when I feel up to it.