[OhKay]

Rocky can be very affectionate when he wants to be. He was back at it this morning around 4:30am and I got up around 5:30. Buddy is so affectionate with me it can really get annoying and he's pretty possessive. Dottie spends a lot of time in the bedroom, but she just turns up and either meows at me or head butts me when she wants attention. They all sleep with me when I take a nap. Only Buddy sleeps with us at night... in my crotch lol.

Winter Wonderland my ***! I'm sick of snow! But I hope Jeff is enjoying it
We are getting a break from the heat. It's going to be in the 60's to low 70s this week with some rainy days.

I didn't get to the bank yesterday, but things worked out because I got my new debit card in the mail!!!
My husband will be in NH today, so I will make him buy cartons of cigarettes, saving me a trip, but I won't have to make him withdraw money so I can buy cat food, etc tomorrow.

I slept a lot yesterday. I hope I have more gas in the tank today, not that I plan on doing anything. I decided to give myself the weekend off. Not sure what I'm doing tomorrow, aside from buying cat food.

[OhKay]

6 hour nap yesterday and was still exhausted. I don't know why I'm especially tired lately. I haven't done anything in DAYS

I have a lot of things I want to get done, so it's not a good time for me to go through another bout of extreme fatigue. I have a really hard time pulling myself out of these episodes, so I hope this is short-lived.

I absolutely have to go out and buy cat food, but I'm already ready to go back to bed. I'll throw my *** in the shower, and maybe I'll feel more alert. I think hoping to do more when I get home is asking too much today

[mymorgy]

you don't want to order it from chewy.com? it comes so fast

[bizi]

I am sorry kay that you have been so fatigued.....
((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[OhKay]

I didn't have my debit card in time to order from Chewy.com and ran out of cat food, so I had to go to PetSmart. I'll order from Chewy the next time I need it tho because it's a lot cheaper. I need to buy a cat carrier because Dottie is too fat for hers now, so I checked out their prices... very good.

I was so tired yesterday I didn't take my morning meds until I got home from running errands around noon. I know I can't make a habit of that, but it was a good choice because even though I skipped the Klonopin, they knocked me out. Had I taken them in the morning, I wouldn't have been able to drive, and the cats wouldn't have any food.

I'm doing laundry now. I was lucky and the machines were empty... no waiting, so it should be over with quickly, aside from the folding.

I'm hoping I can do more today.

[OhKay]

I made the very stupid decision to just clean the freezer yesterday...
Then water dripped down into the fridge and I got stuck having to clean that, too. I never got around to cleaning the outside of it, but I did that fairly recently. Please tell me how/why I had so much cat hair in that thing?
It was a miserable 4 hour ordeal (including many breaks of course) and I suffered/am suffering for it. I took 4 Advil when I got up and it is helping with the pain a bit tho.

I assumed that checking such a big project off my list would alleviate some anxiety, but nope. It's worse. It's like everything I look at this morning needs to be cleaned, scrubbed, packed, or whatever right away even though I'm ****ING EXHAUSTED. I am trying to remind myself how much time I have left to do things, but it is just not helping today.

I assumed I'd be spending today in bed after all that activity, but my anxiety isn't going to allow me to sleep, or even really rest, anytime soon. I could clean a little more, but that may be more activating. I'm considering going to get my nails done a day early instead IF, IF, I'm up to driving. I really don't know what to do with myself...

[mymorgy]

hugs
love
bobby

[Mari]

I hope that you rested today, Kay.

[OhKay]

Yesterday I went out to have my nails done, play the lottery, and get my coffee a day early. Leaving the apartment was a good idea. Not having to be constantly reminded of things that need to be done helped to ease my anxiety...

Until my husband came home and I showed him the form we need to fill out to officially notify the management here that we'll be moving when our lease is up. He totally flipped out because we need to give them 2 months notice, by June 1st (in 1 week), and we don't have another apartment yet. I have talked to him about the whole apartment situation in depth on multiple occasions, but now I have proof he NEVER listens to me...
He just kept flipping out in spurts, and I couldn't deal with his **** because I've been dealing with it constantly for a while now, and it's been making me sick. I decided to take another mg of Klonopin and retired to the bedroom where I eventually got what I guess you might call some sleep.

I'm sticking to my plan of making follow-up phone calls and resuming the apartment search starting on the 1st, but I'm going to try not to be too aggressive or obsess at first because I realize I may not be able to get anywhere until the middle of the month. I'm going to have to TRY not to panic and to be okay with that.

The plan is to stay in today. I'm feeling less anxious and better physically. I'm sure I will do some cleaning, but I'm going to try not to go overboard.

[Mari]

Dear Kay,

It sounds like he listened to you.
I am hoping for you that the next place is the right place and that you get
things done re moving within the time constraints.


My memories of the last time we moved . . . Hubby was adamant (angry and anxious) about not renewing/having to stay where we were so he was motivated.

But I had a little stroke sometime in the last few weeks of the last place so
some of that is hazy to me. (I was doing a lot of sleeping)
Maybe it was a blessing in a way because he was really really wound up and I was able to not pay attention as much as I would otherwise.


M