Hi David,

I think everyone has given some great input. Mari hit the nail on the head, with the stress and anxiety you are going through. I feel for you.

Is there anyway you can take some personal and/or sick time to get your stress level down and your anxiety under control? Maybe this would be something to discuss with your Doctor.

You need time for medication a adjustment and time to decompress all that stress, find an outlet, like Mari said whether it be a form of exercise or just something you like to do.

I do believe in SAD, when I lived back Northeast, I had it really bad in the winter months, actually once they changed the clocks back and it got dark early. Now I live in the Southwest and I don't have that problem anymore.
Rain also bothered me A LOT. Here, we hardly get any, well that's the desert for you.

Don't ever be sorry to rant. We are all here for you.

Good Luck with the Dr. keep posting........let us know how it goes.

Hugs, Nikko

{{{{David}}}}}

You've had a lot of stresses going on so I thought you could use a hug. I usually give out a hug when I don't know what to say. Sometimes for me though if I can concentrate that brighter days will come and that it will not always be caotic sp? I can deal better.

befuddled2

Dear David,
Bizi here posting uder my mothers user name...
Perhaps a short term leave of absence...any way to talk to your boss about this until your meds are more stable?
This sounds so stressful.
I wish it were easier for you.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Hi David,
I just wanted to check back with you.
I know your feeling of enjoying the reward to work, your job. I was in law enforcement, PA.'s first female municiple police Chirf. I worked years to be hired, had to fight discrimination, then excelled until an underage driver hit me and robbed me of my career.

I had to retrain, or rather I had a terrible time reinventing myself. Two years and great chronic pain psych that supported me, I finished my BA in Criminal Justice and sociology. I wanted to teach part time at local Jr college...hitting the discrimination and political powers to be there again.
But, I do work part time, I am a visitation caseworker. I monitor visits between parents and estranged children, or those that are deemed by the court unable to see their children unsupervised for many reasons.

I am now considering and looking into a program to be certified as a child advocate. I feel if I am going to be in this field I at least want to use my education and experience to help the kids caught in all this mess.

I am so restricted in my program as we are non-theraputic. But, with advocasy, I can really help....

So I thought maybe not wanting to leave your job, that maybe there is a stepping stone to take to another position using your skills, maybe even in a new and improved way.

I morned my job for eyars, I could not accept I lost it all....Now at 52 I accept it is getting to rough out there for an older fart like me. I am better off helping my kids, and maybe yet someday to teach....or perhaps advocate for the courts for these kids.

Just thinking of you and saying a prayer for reduced stress and peace in your life.
Di