i have no idea where my tax information is. my memory is a blank. another crash. I got practically everything from the internet and I am sure I din't owe anymoney. I am going to have it done this year which might cost 250-money keeps on flowing away. i just feel so unhappy and helpless and out of control and fat., I don;t knoow what i am going t say to the doctor tomorrow when i call him. I am still spending but don't feel as compulsive. I don;t think i am going to buy anymore rayon pants. it is sort of nauseating. no more bags or bag cleaners. buy time for my new cell phone when it comes and robert is available. I wish i could tell cecilia not to buy me any more tiramisu. it is so fattening.
abby put on a show for me tonight with little stuffed toys. I petted pudge for almost a haalf an hour. she let me
i wish i could cry,. i feel so defeated.
it has been bothering me that my nephews have made no attempt for me to meet their children. I expected it
i wonder if the reduction of the antidepressantss for the mania is beginning to bring back the depression

just awakened when my cat found her way into our room tonight and woke me up. either I left the door a jar or she managed to open the door. either way I am up. Just for the moment.
I read what you wrote and that is a lot to process.
I wish you could cry to bobby. I think you could have some healing.
It is sad that your nephews have not made attempts for you to meet their children. Have you asked specifically to meet them?
I hope you get some sleep.
Wish you had a therapist to talk to, a professional's opinion...I feel so inadequate to help you.
You are quite complex.
I am glad that you are opening up more to us.
Thank you for that.
I wish I had some magic words to say.
What I can say is that I am sorry you are struggling.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

thank you so much. it is so nice to have a place to be an exhibitionist or to be able to vent. I wish i could telll my nephews i amso glad to be excludedd and not have to meet their children and that they are truly not jewish although they make such a big deal of the rituals.
I am worried about pudge again. I think it is probably pure jealousy of abby.
Myguru cat person told me not to do any exploratory surgery. I haven'teen her eat again/
I ama calling my doctor now and telling him I am depressed but probaby won''t be buying anymore pants or bags.
thanks for being kind.
love
bobby

Sending you good thoughts. Today is your cleaning lady correct.
So enjoy her.

Donna

thank you so much. I gave her a swing coat. it looks nice. last week i treated her to coffee and today she will treat me to coffee. just heard I have a pdoc appt march 9 at 10:45. I write it here so I don't forget

I'm so sorry about your nephews, Bobby. I wish that they were more supportive and showed more interest in your well-being. It must be very hurtful

I'm glad that you are going to get your taxes done. You don't need that kind of stress. You have plenty of time to find the documents you need, so you can look when you are feeling better.

I'm happy that your cat lady advised you against doing exploratory surgery on Pudge, and I'm glad that you can tell that she's eating okay by looking at the litter box now

I understand the mixed feelings when your bid is accepted. I used to have Ebay issues of my own

I hope that you are o.k.


M

I had a big cupcake gained weight and decided i will keep on spending til it goes away. I cannot deal withh not spending
bobby
am i okay? I don't know about my decisions

I think that Skeezyks was responding to post #8 on this thread when they asked if you were okay because you sounded so down/depressed.

Try not to weigh yourself every day. Weight fluctuates can fluctuate from day to day. You are too rough on yourself, and don't need to make it worse