[bizi]

Thanks Mari.

Busy day scheduled. 6 clients when I am used to 4 on a regular day.
So I won't be home until 63-7pm. Then have to do laundry 2 loads of uniforms, out completely!
Mari, I hope you have a good day too.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[OhKay]

It sounds like you will have a VERY busy day!!!

I hope there are no bumps in the road and you have a good day tho

[bizi]

I am a little concerned about my self.
Over the past week, I have hurt myself on a scalding chili dog the roof of my mouth still hurts! I rammed my head into the kitchen cabinet bent my glasses and have a painful area on my left temple area.
Almost ran off the road, I was distracted while driving. I have been being distracted by signs etc. for a while now.
My drinking has increased and so has my internet usage. My picking has been bad also. My rosacea flared up and I could not stop picking at it. I have been picking at my cuticles etc.
I really need to be careful.
Have not been to the gym, my weight is the highest it
has been IN YEARS!!!!!
I stopped practicing my banjo ukulele...it was an impulsive buy.
heavy sigh
I am not happy.
bizi

[ger715]

Originally Posted by bizi

I am a little concerned about my self.
Over the past week, I have hurt myself on a scalding chili dog the roof of my mouth still hurts! I rammed my head into the kitchen cabinet bent my glasses and have a painful area on my left temple area.
Almost ran off the road, I was distracted while driving. I have been being distracted by signs etc. for a while now.
My drinking has increased and so has my internet usage. My picking has been bad also. My rosacea flared up and I could not stop picking at it. I have been picking at my cuticles etc.
I really need to be careful.
Have not been to the gym, my weight is the highest it
has been IN YEARS!!!!!
I stopped practicing my banjo ukulele...it was an impulsive buy.
heavy sigh
I am not happy.
bizi

Do you think the additional clients are having an effect on you maybe causing additional anxiety...????



Gerry

[OhKay]

Bizi

From all your symptoms, it sounds like your OCD is out of control

Usually when my OCD flares up there's a reason, or reasons. As Gerry pointed out, you have been very busy. You also have a couple of close friends, whose lives are in disarray, who are going to be moving soon. Those are good reasons why your anxiety could be up, and may be in part why your drinking and internet usage have increased along with the other OCD behaviors

I have a picking problem, too. I ended up putting lower wattage bulbs in my vanity so I can't see as much or find as much to pick. And when the habit gets bad, I won't allow myself to stand close to the mirror at all, or in it look as often. I know it's still hard not to do it, especially because of the flare up of your Rosacea...

Since you've been easily distracted, try your best to stay present while you're driving, so you stay safe

I know, like me, you can't take SSRIs for treatment. I've had mixed results with Klonopin, but limited and only for some sx, and only if my OCD is acting up because my my general anxiety is out of control. I know you only take it at night and are tapering it tho...

It may be a good idea to see if you can get an appointment with your tdoc to see if she can help you improve some of your symptoms. You may find that just venting helps a little.

I would like to see you happier... soon.

[mymorgy]

hugs
bobby

[bizi]

Thank you!

You are right kay.
I think my OCD tendancies are acting up. Which maybe hypomania in my case.
Restarting 5mg of abilify today. It is a major traquilizer.
Have to get going, running behind schedule, slept in late felt good.
Will try to be really present and on task.

My cuticles and face don't look that bad so will try to leave them alone.
The roof of my mouth has an ulcer on it, I looked in the mirror.It two is healing slowly thank goodness. I was considering going to the walk in clinic.
Have a good day yall.
feeling better today after a good nights sleep.
bizi

[Dmom3005]

Bizi

Ugh, I can't spell the face thing. But mine is also acting up.

Just wanting to keep it under control. I'm working on that
with my cream.

Donna

[OhKay]

My dad has bad rosacea and takes minocycline when he has flare ups. He just washes his face with baby shampoo to dry things out and doesn't use any creams. It works for him.

I'm glad that your rosacea is getting better

And I'm glad you are going back on the low dose of Abilify
I think it will help with your anxiety once it kicks it, and if I remember correctly, it kicks in pretty quickly.

[mymorgy]

how did you get the ulcer? It sounds painful.