[Nikko]

Oh, had a nice time last night, but made an *** out of myself. I got drunk.

I feel like such an idiot. I am not making excuses, but they upped my oxy, and I was finally feeling good and excited about getting out, and I screwed up. Long Island Iced Tea's, woohoo they are strong. Yet, I ate really well, we got a bunch of appetizers and entree's.

Have to call my girlfriend today that we went to dinner with her and her husband that don't drink at all, I hope she understands. Plus my other girlfriend works there. I want to crawl into a hole.

It started over a stupid bugs, we were sitting outside at the Irish Pub,I got pissy, the waitress was upset, I started about not paying the bill. Oh, I hate myself, then I felt sick.

I guess Dirk is mad at me, yeah he must be. I haven't had anything to drink in awhile and it hit me bad. He drinks beer.

I never drink at home or during the week or weekends, unless I go out, but I never got like I did.

How could I lose it so badly.

I should know better. Feel crappy, got home early enough, now I can't sleep, my mind is beating myself up for good reason.

Sorry, needed to vent.

P.S. My divorce will be final August 6th.

Hugs the IDIOT Nikko

Will crawl back in bed with the covers over my head and Thank God for my Dogs who love me unconditionally. I am so embarrassed.

[befuddled2]

Hi Nikko,

I hope your getting much needed sleep now. Your not the only one to have ever done something we regret later if that makes you feel better. Try to get some rest and then think about it. Perhaps after you talk to your friend you will know where to go from there.

befuddled2

[Nikko]

Thanks, I will get over it. Feeling tired but better, it's now 6am.

Need to go back to bed. I just feel terrible about being such a fool.

I don't know what happened, I guess I just let loose or lost it.

Alcohol is not for me.

Dopey, Nikko

[mymorgy]

I for one am glad you overdid it. You needed to let off some steam after all the pain and suffering you have been going through. If Dirk and your friends don't understand, they are a bit too rigid...You handled your pain and suffering like a trooper so there is no reason for you to feel like a fool. You need a release. You don't make it a habit. Also all those pain killers probably lowered your tolerance and you could have probably handled the stuff a lot better. DON'T BEAT YOURSELF UP.
when I went out with my two friends, I had too much sangria and they at one point were talking about the pain of being a mother of a serial killer and having to turn him in. I got into the act and what about a sadistic mother...
they obviously both know my background. One said it wasn't the same. I wonder if she thought it was the alcohol talking....IT WASN'T LOL.....I was shocked that I backed down gracefully. I really feel like getting more sangria...We are under so much pressure being bipolar and you have been under so much physical pain on top of it all.
Bobby

[Mrs. Bear]

Tequilla does that to me.

I drank too much at a biker ralley, ****** off a local chapter president of a biker club (the Barrons) and proceeded to pass out.

They laid me out across the bar and served drinks on and over me.

Yeah. We all do it kiddo. You are not alone. And you needed to let off some steam.

Yah ever need more stories about what Erin does when Erin gets drunks. Just ask. It will make you feel a whole lot better love. LOL.

[bizi]

Oh yeah....
Hitting on my hubby's boss at a dinner party....
You could send a little card to those involved if that would make you feel better.
I just sent a set of nice measuring cups to my mother in law...I threw hers out because one was cracked...(I should not have done that)
I apoligized with a quick note.
I am sure it was the oxycontin increase that did you in. It is time released too.
Hope you feel better real soon Nikko.
Please don't be so hard on yourself.
((((HUGS))))
bizi