[Dmom3005]

I'm sorry about your butterfingers too. But am sure the kids really
appreciated them.

And you can always replace them.

We don't ever get the treating, unless Derrick sets a table up
at the side of our house. He was here when they treated, but
wasn't up to it. Maybe another year.
Donna

[bizi]

Had my first AF day in a while.
weight was scary high at 186.3. today 185.5
I measured myself...boy was that enlightening.
I kept track of my weights and measurements....there was a time when I weighed 125....
Those were some hypomania days(doing the stair masters machine too much) where I was 122(not documented) and looking at trying to get to 120. That is when I fell and broke my collar bone.That stopped the mania in its track. And I realized that I was looking really bad, too thin to fast. My bone density test said I was osteopenia. and my vit d level was low. So now I take 5,000 units of d3 every day for the most part and now take 1000 mg of calcium. divided doses.

anyway. I know how to lose weight...it is just being disciplined to do it.
Went to gym last night and walked 3.1 miles, a 5k so that was good.
Used the water massage bed so that felt good.
Up this morning before hubby. Need to get him up. He came home from school yesterday sick and went to bed. He has been dehydrated and that made him dizzy, nauseated, sweating. he was still in bed when I got home. I had put a crock pot of pork roast and onions and carrots and green beans and cream of mushroom soup on yesterday morning so dinner was ready to go.
I need to see if he is up yet.
bizi

[bizi]

"A life without discipline is a life without joy." ..........................Muriel B


Wait a minute. Isn't joy a matter of doing what we want? Isn't freedom the state of never having to do what we don't want to do? And isn't discipline - which we learned from our parents - the burden of having to do what we don't want to do?

Actually, joy is the freedom to do what needs to be done. And gaining that freedom takes discipline. Why? Without discipline, we usually ended up doing what is familiar to us. And our experience clearly tells us that old thinking and old behavior bring us anything but joy.

It takes discipline to say no when we need to - when ever fiber of our being may be urging us to give in again. It takes discipline to stand up and be counted when our pattern has been to fade into the wallpaper and blend in with any situation.

Discipline isn't easy or fun, but it's the best friend we can have. To practice self-discipline is to move through our days with a sure sense that we'll get where we're going.

[Dmom3005]

Wow, well said.

Donna

[OhKay]

Congratulations on your AF day, Bizi

Mania has rendered me a virtual stick figure in the past, too

"A life without discipline is a life without joy." ..........................Muriel B

I think someone who would write a quote like that would also say that the key to joy in life is beginning to love oneself, and it's hard to do that if one makes too many choices that they regret, so that's why discipline is important. I know that I have been too undisciplined and made too many bad choices in my life to love myself. In general, I would say I do not live a joyful life.

But I like your take on things, Bizi. You have put a lot of thought into it

[mymorgy]

i think it is hard to be disciplined and to be bipolar

[bizi]

muriel b wrote all of that.
I just reposted it.
I think you are right bobby, it is hard being discipled and be bipolar.
I will try even yoda says that there is no try. There is either do or do not.
bizi

[bizi]

another af day.
came to trivia late because I got a nail fixed. Then ate dinner there off the food bar. Shrimp with cheese and tomatoes and some chicken soup on the top and microwaved it.
Sat in the bar while they played trivia. jeff was there and he was started on his 2nd big 13% beers and had not eaten. Really stupid. I tried to get him to eat a reuben or something. So I got some cheese chunks and he ate some. Great tasting cheese. I probably ate 2/3rds of the cheese. I probably ate 3.5 oz.
Any way Jeff left early to go to his students jazz combo concert so I paid for his bill then left early telling our friends that I am dieting and it is hard to not drink and stay in the bar. They understood.
So I left came here and ended up stepping into some large amount of cat vomit and smearing it all over the floor. I hate that. So now I have a big mess to clean up. It was probably hattie. hazel never gorges herself, she is a slight cat and hatty is a bruiser.
Anyway I had better go clean it up.
bizi

[OhKay]

Bobby, you are right. I would like to meet someone who is bipolar who has been able to maintain discipline throughout their life. I think it's f'ing impossible.

I'm so sorry you stepped in that cat puke bomb. It sounds like it was a gross one!!!

I found a present of my own in the bedroom when I was heading off to bed. It's a good thing we love our cats so much.

[bizi]

Me onto day 3 of my diet and not drinking means losisng weight. I gained 50 pounds over 3 years and I know that it was from drinking all of those craft beers.
So I am going to do a dry november, and see how much weight I can lose.
I will aim for a low carb diet with out getting crazy.
Meats, eggs, veggies(no really starchy ones), dairy and nuts. Only berries for fruits.
No flour, no sugar, no potatoes no rice.
NO BEER!
wish me luck
bizi