I haven't heard from him. I heard from cecilia. she said she couldn't do it this weekend. she said could I make Pika happy. It would be traumatic for her. I said yes because she is coming from a great background . she asked if I asked the board since we are supposedly only are supposed to have two cats and a dog. I said no but after three months it is okay. I don't want to ask them and she is a little kitty. that gets me a little nervous. the worse I think could happen was I would have to find another home for her. they couldn't thrown me out I don't think at my age.
I think she is out of town this weekend so I don't know what to write courtney if he is still interested. I want to write him something. I guess I will say that cecilia is going to agility trials this weekend but next weekend should be find. I pray we are still on. I am so wound up and depressed. I am so stressed. I might try to read. the itches are all back all over the place. I put on calamine lotion and so far it is not working.my whole body is itching and crawling sensation.

I just sent an email to courtney to see if we are still on next weekend. I feel rotten and stressed and whatever

I ams orry about the itch returning.
Are there any new products that you are using soap washing detergent, shampoo?
You sound miserable.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

nothing new. I wonder if it is stress. I haven't heard from him. I bet he has changed his mind about me. scratch scratch

S- so unhappy to read that you itching is back! :hug::hug::hug:

I'm glad that you finally heard back from Cecilia, but I'm so sorry that you're still in limbo and stressed out :hug::hug::hug:

I hope you hear back from Courtney soon, too :hug:

I think it is over. I haven't heard from him all day. I am beyond upset. I haven't taken any medicine all day for blood pressure or anything. can;t get myself to do it

bobby,
I don't understand your not taking your meds?????
bizi

just couldn't get myself to do it. i am feeling very self destructive. I just feel so awful. I was so looking forward to that kitten. Now I am not looking forward to anything. I can;t feel compassion for myself. I am having a hard time feeling compassion for cecilia. I got into a bit of a disagreement with zeynep.

took my medicine. physically I was really hurting. My back, legs and stomach hurt. My depression is full force. I tried to read but couldn't. this kitten thing was a shock to my system. also this cecilia thing was a shock. she added in her message what was wrong. my voice sounded funny. i wrote and said I was very depressed. I hope she doesn;t call me for a while because I don't know if I will be able to control myself. Abby isn't that affectionate

bobby, maybe the new kitten will be affectionate?
Are you still getting pika?
sorry about your depression being so bad right now.
And for your troubled relationships.
((((HUGS))))
bizi