I have had my terrace not drain before and immediately recognized that it needed to be snaked. I have had a few floods in my apartment. I lived here for about fifty years. That is why I found it so frightening that this was the first time it didn't register that it was clogged rather than just a puddle and didn't take action but had the building notify me

Benzodiazepines Can Cause Dementia and Other Serious Side Effects – Citizens Commission on Human Rights, CCHR
the above is a disturbing article about xanax and explains my short term memory problems. I don't know if I want to stay on it

I take the risk as my sleep is the most important thing I can do to help stabilize my bipolar.
bizi

Do talk to the pdoc first if you want to go off it or switch to something else.




M

I am going to call the doctor this morning and tell his receptionist about my memory problems and that i want to go back to klonopin even though it doesn't do much. Yesterday I didn't even recognize the word horsepower and couldn't remember part of the alphabet or somebody's husband's first name. I am fighting with stella over multitasking. ugh. Now I am worried that Marci is going to quit because of my behavior. I am lazier now because of the new drug.

Bobby

Try just seeing if taking it at night for sleep will help. And its so new.

Maybe its an combo of things. See if there is something else besides
Klondine you can try.

Donna :grouphug::hug:

You may still be adjusting to the Xanax, need a different dosage, or have to take it a different way... IDK.
But Klonopin is also a benzo.

I can't tell you what's best for you, but I know that you need something to help you control your anxiety.

There are a lot of reasons for memory loss, and unfortunately, sometimes we have to weigh the risks vs. benefits of medications.

I'm sorry that you are finding yourself in this situation right now, Bobby. I was so hopeful that the Xanax was going to help you :hug::hug::hug:

The years that I took the Xanax, I only took it at night with the Klonopin.


Getting off the Xanax was hard and I needed my pdoc's help.
He did some math and gave me more Klonopin because in his mind they worked in similar ways.
Even with the extra Klonopin, I felt like
I was going through a detox. It took a few weeks. I am so grateful to that pdoc.


I know someone who stopped Xanax abruptly and things did not go well.
I really hope that you talk to the pdoc.


M

the dosage lowered the daytime dosage to 1 mg and he is on vacation next week. That article I out the link to really scared me besides all the memory problems. I had actually lowered the daytime dosage myself but didn't tell him. Yesterday wasn't bad.

I think I just switched right over from Xanax to Klonopin, and I don't remember having any problems, but I was kinda in and out of it at the time, so who knows.

I'm glad that things went well yesterday, Bobby :hug:

today I couldn't wait to take it
bobby

Bobby

I have days that my memory are really bad too. Its not the medicines
I'm on. Its just me and how my mind is doing. Right now its the
cold symtoms and how my thoughts are effected by them.

I can't get my poor dogs names straight. I call them both Doby who isn't even here, he is Derrick's dog. I can't always remember my poor cats names.
Sometimes I just say hey boy cat or girl cat. Or black cat or white cat.

Mine is honestly from having had post concussion syndrome, and I've had
this happen at times. My son's all tease me that I don't know their names.
I call them all each other. But the day I call Devin, Will I think he may
really look at me odd. Heehee, I honestly think I've done it before.
When I had Will alot of the time.

Its just life for me at times. I've called Kortni, Harmony and knew I did
it. And she has looked at me weird. And I've corrected myself. We just
laugh at it. I'm really careful to not call either of my now son's girlfriends
there old girls, which for me is really hard.

I have to just about black out their names in my minds to not do it.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

boy, you really have had your share of things and wow do you take them in stride. I look up to you!
fondly
bobby

Donna, your post really made me think of my mother, who constantly called us all by the wrong names, including by the cats' names. Funny, but not at the same time :hug:

I look forward to taking the xanax but I am still depressed. bought a ton of chocolate 80 ounces and a lot of hard candy. then really worried about my prediabetes and weight and wound up after eating some throwing them down the compactor. Marci and talked over the phone about her health for 1/2 n hour so all is okay between us and okay between stella and me.rereading a book i already read recently but really enjoyed. wish i weren't depressed. cecilia asked
i wanted to go for a ride today and i said no.

I am sorry you are depressed.
A ride in the car sounds like a good distraction?
glad that you are ok with your friends.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

I just felt like staying i bed and reading and isolating. I am so depressed and not taking care of myself. The sheet keeps on coming undone and now it is totally undone and I can't put it back on. I also lost my kindle. I keep on searching for it but to no avail. I am getting enough sleep but xanax is making me tired so I want more sleep. I feel like crying but cannot. My back still hurts from the exercise the p.t. had me do but now I have stopped doing. I hope it stops hurting. I am a mess. yesterday I had crackers and soup.

Bobby,

Sleep sounds good.


I hope that the kindle shows up.



Mari

I still haven't found it but was finally able to make my bed.brushed pudge. played a staring game with abby. almost finished with another book.my depression is worse. I wish I could cry. My friend who killed himself had ECT a few times and said it was waste and only lasted a few months.

I wish you could cry too, bobby. It can be so therapuetic/cathartic.
I rarely cry, if I did it might be in a therapy session.
bizi

I'm glad that everything's going okay with Marci and Stella, and it sounds like all is well with Cecilia, too.

I used to like rereading some of my much-loved books because I found them comforting. It is hard for me to read now. I thought about buying one or two tho because mine are packed up and buried in the closet.

I'm sorry that you are so depressed :hug::hug::hug:
Can you try doing one or two little things today to take care of yourself?

I'm happy that you spent some quality time with your kitties yesterday. Did that make you feel a little better, at least temporarily?

I hope today is a better day for you (((HUGS))) & Love

it does make me feel better while I am interacting with my kitty cats. I now wish I had named Abby Rascal.

lol. All my cats are being just terrible right now.

Bobby

You could always rename Abby, Abby rascal. Or call her both.

Reason I say this is it seems after years of being called avenger.
This beautiful yellow fluffy big kitty at my son's has been renamed
teddy bear. Because my daughter in law Meluvja thinks he looks
and feels more like a teddy bear. And as it would turn out he comes
to the name teddy bear. Heehee, Not sure my son Devin likes that
he likes the name Avenger.

I did tell Devin I think the cat is remembering all the time he lived
in the shelter and the people that passed him by with the name
avenger till Devin came around. And he meowed at him and it
was love at first site.
But I think he reminded him of Derrick who worked there at the
time. Heehee

Donna :hug::grouphug:

that is neat. abby comes to shrimp as in treats but i tthink she knows her name

yesterday was a disaster and once again I am afraid that Marci might quit. i spent a long time looking for the kindle at the bottom of my bed and in the trunk there. at least three times in the chest if not more.i told that to her. we spent 20 minutes looking under the bed with no flashlight and couldn't find it. later she put some things in the trunk and found the kindle. she was so angry
-the we wasted another 15 minutes looking for objects in a five pound bag of powder-couldn't find them because three hours before i had put them in the container.

I have been so jittery that I just took 2 mg of klonopin besides the 1 mg of xanax. My doctor is on vacation so I haven't told him. I have a lot of klonopin
left over. I didn't know what else to do. I just ordered a lot of aspirin which might help calm me down besides help the aches I have from the p.t. My physical therapist is away for two weeks but she wants me to use the rollator in the hall twice a day and I guess do the bed exercises. Marci should come this morning. The Rabbi said he would come tomorrow at one

oh I am glad that the rabbi is coming to see you tomorrow.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Marci should not be angry. She does not seem clear about her
job description. Maybe you should get a copy of it and give it to her.

She's supposed to help you and if that means spending the whole afternoon
looking for the Kindle, that's what she is supposed to do.


'So glad that you are seeing the Rabbi.


M

I really tried her patience. she is doing me a favor by working on tuesday afternoon when it is her day off. she is a wonderful cleaner. I trust her more than I trust myself. she likes to be appreciated. she is the boss. I don't know what I would do without her.also the agency had a very difficult time finding workers for me. I do love her. she tries to put things in order besides cleaning up. I don't understand how I mess up so.
i took the xanax and klonopin today. i am afraid to take my bp and pulse

Bobby

You need to remember that she is an employee of the agency.
She can be your friend also. But unless she comes at a time that
she isn't being paid to look for the kindle, she doesn't have the
right to be angry, even upset with you.

You need to get your self to realize that someone on the clock
is an employee, even if paid by others. But can also be a friend.
But that if you need them to look for something, and they get
angry then they shouldn't be paid.

So if she is angry ask her if its on her own time or the companies
time that she is looking. Or if instead of being upset with you
she is just having a rough day. If that is the problem, then maybe
cut her a little slack.

But then its not you she is upset with.

Donna :grouphug::hug:

i made her upset by sending her on wild goose chases and trying her patience.
I found out this was the last day for the Rabbi to come. He said another one will come but not have as much time. I will miss him.

Oh I am sorry about your having a new rabbi. Maybe he will be as helpful as this one.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Bobby

Maybe you can find an volunteer agency that would have someone that
would come over and help you find things. And just visit with you.

This is something that is needed in lots of areas.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I don't know whee I would lo and Marci always finds what I have been looking for.

Maybe Marci has anxiety problems, too? She searched the place where she ultimately found it at least once before, so maybe she got worked up and it prevented her from seeing things clearly (happens to me all the time). Also, sometimes when people are anxious they can get/appear to get angry...

You two seem to get along well, so I don't think that this incident will end your relationship. She has free will, so she could have ended the search at anytime.

Did your pdoc say it was okay to take Klonopin with the Xanax?
Please be careful :hug::hug::hug:

my doctor doesn't know and I won't tell him. I will tell him that I have been jittery. Marci is a perfectionist and put a lot of effort into the searches. they really tried her patience with no satisfaction at the end.

Are you still cutting the Xanax in half? How are you taking it?

I am still taking it. as the doctor prescribed I am cutting it in half in the morning for 1 mg and taking 2 mg at night. today I will skip the klonopin and see how it goes, I will continue to skip the klonopin and see what happens. I will wait til the doctor comes back this coming week. I just took my blood pressure and pulse and they were amazing good. I don't get it because I still feel jumpy. My sleeping is definitely better even though I woke up at 2:30. I was able to go back to sleep til 4:30 and then went back to sleep til 5:30.
I started taking aspirin this morning for my aches and pain.

I just started taking bio flex or rather the generic form of it. It has glucosamine chondritin, and is supposed to help with arthritis.
bizi