I'm really glad that you feel like the Xanax is helping :)

I used to take Xanax and it worked well for me, but switched over to Klonopin because the Xanax didn't work as long. I didn't know they had an extended release form... maybe I should consider switching back in the future? IDK.

I don't like the fact that your therapist talks to you about other patients- even in general terms. Age is just a number. Everyone faces different health/mental health challenges, and she should know that, and not make or imply a comparison. She sounds absolutely tone deaf :hug::hug::hug:

just woke up from another nap. had coffee with stella. she didn't make a comparison overtly. i did from what she said. thoughtless. i felt so bad

the xanax is definitely working for me and the klonopin wasn't. I also got more sleep. Not enough still although I took two naps in the afternoon.

I got another hour plus sleep. this is exciting. now I have my hopes up high. I still feel tired this is the most sleepI have gotten in ages.

That's wonderful!

I liked Xanax too.



M

I just got another hour of sleep. why did you stop? I am hoping that this tiredness will go away once I catch up on all the lost sleep. I still feel exhausted and haven't taken my pill yet. I am depressed but hopeful. I am not anxious.

excellent report bobby.
I am so happy for you that you are getting more sleep.
yay!
bizi

I cannot remember why I stopped the Xanax.

It was causing an issue. My pdoc upped the Klonopin to replace the Xanax.


M

xanax is definitely working. I felt lazy yesterday, all i did was relax besides helping cecilia cut pudge's nails which was very difficult. two were ingrown.

I slept for at least another hour. I wonder if I am just catching up for all the lost sleep or if this is going to continue. It is a totally different life. I have no nervous energy. It is so different from klonopin. Even in the beginning of taking klonopin I didn't have this reaction. I did have more energy yesterday with p.t. yesterday. she has six kids. I thought she was was in her late thirties but she is 59 and has 6 kids. i don' remember if i mentioned that

bobby, I am so happy to hear that you are getting more sleep.
that is wonderful.
(((((HUGS)))
bizi

I just woke up again. all i am doing is sleeping. I might need a lower dose of xanax. I have been tired for so long

maybe just lower it during the day and keep the night dose the same?
bizi

Happy to hear the that xanax is working.


M

It may take a while to adjust to the Xanax. It's a pretty strong med. I have no experience with the extended release, so maybe it is more potent as well?

I assume since it's extended release, it comes in a capsule so you can't cut it in half... so after another week (max) you still haven't adjusted to it, I would call your pdoc to see if you can get it in a lower dose, or switch to regular Xanax.

I'm happy it's working for you tho :)
I hope you just adjust to the dose.


I clipped my cats' claws yesterday, too!
Buddy and Dottie are a breeze, and maybe take 5 minutes each, but Rocky fights me like a bear. It took me 4 tries to get all his done. I felt bad doing it cuz he's not well, but I skipped him last time around, so his nails were really long. He seems to be happy I cut them tho.

I haven't had the energy to read the threads and post. just mine. I will catch up tomorrow. I got rid of my therapist. The pill you can cut in half so thank you bizi I didn't a nap but I was still tired. I spoke to my friend suri for almost two hours. she just came back from china and was there for almost 5 weeks. she had an incredible time. she let God and said God took care of her. she found the place thru the internet. Only one person spoke rusty english but it got better as he talked more to her. they believed in being happy.
qi dong

I let a message on the phone of my former therapist that I discussed her with my psychiatrist and I wasn;t anything out of it and often times she was upsetting me and could I speak to her supervisor to get another therapist.
she called me back but I couldn't understand the last part of the message so i called her again and got to speak to her again. she said she was an independent contractor and she was sorry she couldn't help me and she would tell whom she reports to that I needed another therapist, she was not at all nurturing.
I woke up at 1:30 but then went to bed again for two hours

I hope you like your new therapist when ever you get anew one. I really liked mine but stopped seeing her as I was paying out of pocket$100. I did not feel I was getting anything out of it. she wanted to talk about my drinking and i did not.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

I got my lease

I'm so happy that Siri had a nice trip and had such a positive experience! :)

I'm happy that you got your lease, too! :)

I have been angry and depressed for a while now. It is not related to the new medication. today I slept at least six hours. I have been having trouble with the pharmacy.Finally they were supposed to deliver it yesterday but they didn't/
It is two blocks away and I am afraid I will go this morning and call them mfs. they have really been screwing up on this drug.
the cats are doing well and i finally got on the scale and i didn't gain any weight. i have been having trouble with ants because of the wet food. now i am throwing out after ten minutes

I haven't been able to read much so that may be part of it

I am glad that you slept at least 6 hours!!!!
bizi

I had the most incredible afternoon! I no longer see my therapist on friday afternoon. The young rabbi called and asked if I were free. I said yes. He freed me from guilt. I always felt badly that I couldn't follow the commandment of honoring my mother and father and always felt I was sinning. He showed me something from Maimonides Mishneh Torah,Rebels 6::10
A person whose father or mother loses control of their mental faculties should try to conduct the relationship to them according to their mental condition until God has mercy upon them. If it is impossible to remain with them because they have become very deranged, one should leave them,depart, and charge others with caring for them in an appropriate manner.

my parents treated me pretty badly

I am so glad that he is guiding you.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

Bobby

I think that you found something much better than the therapist
just for today. Hoping he can come and give you some of these
nice thoughts again.

Maybe have him give you some things to read on these things too.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

Did he say when he would be back?
I am so glad that he is in your life.
What a blessing.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Wow that is a good passage for him to point out.

He has deep sensitivity to go with his learning.


M

The Rabbi said he would come back in two weeks. I am trying to think of questions. Certain things I have done in my life which I am ashamed of I won't discuss. This morning I was thinking of my mother. when I was little I loved her so much and I even told her I would die for her. I thought how negative thoughts really rob us of energy and love gives us energy. I took a step this morning of loving my mother and letting go of the abusive behavior.

Bobby

Keep it up that is what I think you really need is small steps to look
at the good things you had with your mother. The things that
you saw in her when you were little that were good.

I am really impressed with your rabbi. I'm wondering if maybe
this can replace your therapist in a small way. The needing to
get through the thoughts of your past in your parents to a degree.
I don't think any therapist can see through these kind of things.
So they can only see to the present and the future. And want to
make changes.

It sounds like the visit you had with the Rabbi was very pleasant and fruitful! It seems like he is wise beyond his years.

Maybe you need spiritual vs. secular guidance right now?
It seems like your young Rabbi has drawn you out, and you have been doing some soul searching on your own since his visit, and I think that's just wonderful :hug::hug::hug:

I wish you could see him every week.

you know I think I am damaged beyond repair besides my mental illness and I just have to keep on turning to God. Therapy probably will never help. I practically always depressed, obsessed with death, worried about money and catastrophize(sp) and think I will have another stroke. I am haunted by my sister's death..

(((((((HUGS)))))))
bizi

I just bought diatomaceous earth for the earth problem. I hope it works. I got six hours of sleep. I also lost a pound. I think xanax is helping my overeating. I will see. I still have anxiety but it isn't as high as before. I am trying bizu's suggestion of one m in the day and two at night. I won't tell the doctor. this way also I won't run out of pills which I would otherwise. Cecilia thinks I should try another therapist. she loves hers. I have had two therapists that I enjoyed but they didn't help me and others I just plain didn't like.

I only had one therapist I really liked. I saw her for 7yrs before she left the practice I go to. She set one of her own up pretty far away from me and she doesn't accept my insurance.

The one they gave me afterwards was very, very nice, but totally f- clueless.


I'm so glad you are sleeping and your anxiety is better, Bobby :)

Bobby

Any chance you can start interviewing the therapist. See if they are going to be what you need. I realize it sounds odd, but that is just what Derrick just did. And it worked for him.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

that is a good idea if i decide to try another one. I don't know if it because of my stroke or what but I noticed about 12 times today there was some water on my terrace and that was all I thought. downstairs called up while ago and asked about a leak.it seemed my terrace was leaking to the apartment below mine and I didn't even think of it. scarey.

That's a great idea, Donna. Maybe you could request a telephone interview with your next potential therapist beforehand, Bobby.

We have things dripping/falling onto our deck all the time, but it's from our upstair neighbors... they are a- holes.

I just thought mine was a puddle and it didn't register that the drain was clogged. the plumber took almost a half an hour to unclog it. I was the a_hole. I hope it was just the result of the stroke rather than something more serious like the beginning of something. I don't think a therapist will help me.

Bobby

I don't live in an apartment, but Derrick does. And if that were something that could happen with his. He wouldn't think about the pipe or anything else being clogged either. So don't be so hard on yourself. Next time you see a puddle
or anything like that out there, I"m sure you will get ahold of maintenance
to come check. And I'm sure that if the downstairs tenant had just thought about it they could easily have just come and asked you and you would have let them look and see whether you had the problem.

Derrick's downstairs tenant is his biggest help. And the person that comes up and takes care of lots of his problems. So if Derrick was creating something that was causing a problem for him, he would know it was ok.

And I'm pretty sure your neighbors downstairs if they know you do too.
If they don't then try and make sure the people that maintain the place know to tell them your sorry.

Donna :grouphug::hug: