I don't remember but he was shocked that I brought it up because he remembers going into the street and waiting til a car ran him over. I was trying to put out howhishis grandfather and grandmother weren't always comforting to him. myra was a real bi#$xh. because they came late to a party the night before after coming from conn to penn she made them stay inn the car the next morning when they were early and they were in their late sixties or early seventies. He had implied in anther email before I wasn't telling him the truth about how awful they treated me and what I had to endure. I was tired of always being the family scapegoat. for a few years alex lived ten blocks or less away from me in nyc with his family and I never knew it. when I found out boy did that hurt. I am also in the process of telling off another friend who knows it all. I did have the most wonderful conversation with my best friend in israel today for an hour. she has breast cancer and I was of comfort thank God.
This time he didn't send me a picture of the family get together for thanksgiving. maybe he finally had a clue. I don;t know now if I will see him in jan for a little while but it really isn't worth the pain. of course I didn't hear from my other two sm#cks of nephews. I think it is all too damaged.
I hate holidays because they bring up so much pain

Bobby,

Good to hear that he did not send you any pictures.
Good that you spoke to your friend in Israel.

I'm sorry about your suffering.


M

He sent me pictures. I told him I spend thanksgiving alone with chinese food. andy was there without new family. i asked if his marriage was okay, still fighting with stella

stella and I are fighting about religion. she is off the wall. I found out my middle neighbor is divorced for the second time. It didn't last long. I hope he had a good prenup. He might be a billionaire

I asked if my other nephew was angry because I called him a nazi when he graduated college and was a racist and also asked alex why when he lived so close to me he never invited me over.
My brother laurence is a caring person without prejudice to anyone. Apologies for years of not connecting but following my mom’s death, you and I have once again connected for lunch, emails and brought my kids to your apartment last year.

Bobby

I think you and Stella need the argument about religion to talk.

IF that makes sense.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

i don't understand

It just means its something for stella to argue with you about.

I think she likes to argue with you. And religion is something
she knows you will argue about.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I sent to the pdoc. No antidepressants no sleeping pilling half topimax-the regular risperdal and klonopin.

he wasn't angry that I went off the sleeping pills and the ativan by myself. He thought my renewed friendship with zeynep has really helped me. I also told him about the new Rabbi and the increased paranoia. He made no comment about that. He though I said enough to my nephew.

I refuse to get on the scale. I am really hungry. I don't know what to do. I had more chinese food yesterday. I have to stop. I have no will power. I don't feel like eating most food. the meals on wheels are awful. I won't try nutrisystem again.

Can you "doctor up" your meals on wheels with spices etc?
sorry you are struggling.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

no. i am eating like a maniac

I think your meds are not right.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

the antidepressants were not working so after the bout with the itches he and I decided not to be on any anymore. sometimes I am not depressed. right now i wish I were dead. I just took extra klonopin but I don't know if that is helping.the ativan really gave me the jitters and made my anxiety much worse. the topamax has done nothing for my appetite and the sleeping pills haven;t worked. I tried so many. I just took a bath. aalso the xanax was awful.

Bobby

Have you ever tried the shake type drinks. I bought Derrick some
last week. He is trying these for Breakfast right now. He
wasn't eating breakfast so they are making a great substitute.

He enjoys the strawberries and cream. I'm trying to find a chocolate
one he likes so he can substitute some chocolate for candy bars.

Not that you need that. But I know they have helped me.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

glucerna is for people with diabetes.
bizi

i bought a lot of soup and some glucerna. I saw another abby that I want to adopt. so cute.

I sent in an application for the kitty cat and emailed cecilia to see if they acceptme if she could help pick me up/ I also asked zeynep but she sounds as if she has more than her hands full. even though divorced she she is doing all sorts of things for her 95 year old husband who wants to live to be 106. He hasn't even done his will

Bobby

I think your going to always see another Abby or Pudge you are going
to want to adopt. That is just something we all do in life.

Good luck with the drinks I can't spell the name. remember they
take a while to get used to. And that they are better cold.

Or at least to me the drinks I drink are.

Donna :grouphug::hug:

I really think seeing abby play with another aby will help my depression big time. I hope I like the drinks. good suggestions. thank you
bobby

I am up and down with depression and eating too much and having stomach aches. my legs hurt. i am so out of control and feel so miserable mentally and physically

just bought abby some cat toys

I'm glad you bought Abby some cat toys.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

Happy Hanukah Bobbi!
bizi

thank you! went over cecilia;s and watched football had salad and played with her dogs. both two toys on amazon for prince. sophia doesn;t like toys

I don't know if I should have but I wrote the adoption place and said I would gladly pay for adopting pika especially it was for a great cause.

Sounds like you are getting another cat!
((((HUGS))))
bizi

I don't think I will be that lucky. she is so precious

Good luck Bobby

Donna :hug::grouphug:

That would be wonderful.

:)

I keep on checking to see if I hear from him

I got into an argument another one with my nephew. I mentioned how I now like bush. he said how the press is hard on republicans. then I went off and said most are selfish and don't care about the less fortunate and mentally ill and mentioned for the third time that my mother had told me that let the state take care of me which doesn't make sense really if the state had its way. then I also mentioned that Jews were supposed to again take care of their mentally ill relatives and thank God for alice for paying my rent. I wonder if he will write a response. he spends a lot of money and he is the poorish nephew. ps I don;t want his money-just want his eyes opened

haven't heard from my nephew. wonder if that is the end of it

I heard from alex. he said I had a blessed friend Alice and signed it love alex.
I was amazed

Pudge is getting a hair cut next tuesday at 10:30 across the street. they will pick her up and bring her back. I wonder if she will start sleeping with me again.

I heard from the guy who has the cat and he asked if I still want Pika and I said yes. There is a good chance I might get her

Sounds good Bobby

Not sure I like the name. But only because it reminds me of the
eating wrong things disease.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

haven't heard from him again

Bobby

Its still early. Just give it time.

Donna :hug::grouphug: